besides.
i actually wonder who reads my blog.
interesting ah.
Saturday, 21 December 2013
dadadadadadadada
okay my last post was quite some time ago. i think this blog is dying. as with the previous one...hmm. but this one lasted longer LOL. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAY LONGER. the previous one like only 1month sia. then die liao. anyway. LETS REVIEW!!
a ton has happened since my last post. the one about exams.
10 dec: dad and mom's old pal who stayed here in SG loooooooong time ago visited again. so he came over to our house to maka. LOCAL FOOD.
11 dec: i had missionary discussions with investigators
12 dec: dad's colleague came over to our house with her husband and kid (HER BABY KID IS SO CUTE AND CHUBBY) to know how my parents raised such good kids (LOL CHEYYY). but yeah. missionaries came over too, and we ATE A FEAST.
13 dec: YSA activities at Jeff's house. ate again.
14 dec (mom's birthday!! ^^): ward Christmas lunch (where i played the flute with Krystine and Thaddus on the piano) for some awesome Christmas songs. ate and ate and ate. didnt go out for dinner since mom and dad were still full from the lunch. sooo..THEY SKIPPED DINNER. SO UNHEALTHY. yes i ate my own dinner okay. i dont skip meals. unless i wake up too late in the morning at 11am >< WHICH IS RARE OKAY.
15 dec: missionaries had FHE at our home with 3 investigators (no food lol)
19 dec: missionary appointment with part member family
had TWO baptisms so far for the month of december!! and if all goes well then we'll be having another THREE more baptisms!! all on the same day!! :D:D:D i love my calling as a ward missionary :D soooooooo much joy :)
today i went to sentosa with dad.
train ride was quiet.
okay so the ORIGINAL plan was that we go get my PADI in thailand (last week). but we had to push it a week back cuz of the ward christmas lunch, so it was supposed to be this week. now, we have another christmas meal with my mom's side of the family, and we cant get the course done in time. so, we decided to cancel the whole thing and just get me certified here in singapore.
then two days ago we decided to settle that today, on FRIDAY, that we'd go snorkeling as a "make-up" since we cant go diving. so here i am!! left house at 1000~hrs, reached harbour front at like 1140hrs. had a light mini lunch there then went to sentosa. took the tram to duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuno which beach. blablabla then we changed up and so i got into my wet suit. YES. WET SUIT. dad insisted that i bring and wear it since he wants me to get used to it (#okaycan).
okay one thing you NEED to know about me, is that im not a good swimmer. i took swimming classes back when i was in primary school. it only lasted for like a few (2-3) months. went with my bro. BASKET I EVEN PERSUADED HIM TO GO WITH ME WALAO. and yeah soon it got boring. idk. so....stopped going from then. i can roughly swim lah. you throw me inside a swimming pool and i'll just swim out of it LOL. so i CAN swim. but if you ask me to go a few laps, i'll wreck your hairdo and throw you into the pool.
kidding.
you know im not the violent kind.
so yeah. i went diving before and it was okay. i went snorkeling before too and yes it was okay also. I HAVE EXPERIENCE POINTS. so this shouldnt be a piece of cake lah right.
where was i.
oh yeah.
we changed up then carried our bags to a tree. the shelters were occupied by some other people so we left our stuff under a tree. the lockers at sentosa dont work so dont bother bringing coins. assembled the snorkels, adjusted the fins, put on wet shoes. in we go into the sea. after a while of practice strokes (about 7minutes in) to get the feel, it started raining.
shucks.
lightning warning.
so we had to get out of the sea and wait till the warning got called off. guess how long it took? at first we only waited 40minutes, then BASKET the wind change direction and brought this freakin huge-butt cloud right our way. wts moment, i tell you. had to wait for another hour. NOT FUNNY. i just got into the sea and then BAM need to go out again, wait for super long time.
btw the lifeguard on duty then quite chio also.
then she wear shades too walao eh.
freakin cool.
anyway.
we decided to go to the other beach (which no lifeguard takes duty at) and just move there. it was much more open, so the waves were a bit (very much) stronger. it continued raining and according to the lifeguard at the previous beach (the chio one) the lightning warning would only be called off at 1530hrs if all goes well. so yeah....we got in at 1520hrs. i hope they dont kill us for that. lol. anyway, resumed my "lesson" since i have not snorkeled in a long time.
btw, salt water tastes GREAT.
yall should try some for yourselves some time yeah.
share the love.
and i kept getting sand in my shoe -.- my foot turned red from all the chaffing because of the stupid sand walao eh. oh anyway. i did normal snorkeling along water surface level (and a bit lower), and then pretty much got diving done too. the water visibility is soooooooo bad that i didnt even know i was diving. but i think i went down a bit too fast. my head felt the pressure change quite quickly. and now i my head is throbbing. im serious.
but anyway. i think i got the diving settled. i can have a snorkel on and dive down, until my breath dies out. feeling quite confident about it already!! and yeah the wet suit fits well~
AND YEAH. WEIRD SIA.
WHEN I WAS MOVING TO THE OTHER BEACH RIGHT THAT TIME, GOT PEOPLE WALK PAST. and this girl keep looking at me.
okay lah i know i wear suit a bit kuazhang BUT IS THAT THE REASON WHYYY.
she kept smiling and at me and im like wait i know im not wearing my specs but im seeing clearly here right lol.
aaaaaaaaaaanyway.
yeah.
lunafly concert tomorrow. hopefully without this throbbing head.
on the way back home before leaving harbour front, i went to harbour front centre. another lifeguard (macho guy) was using a FOX40 whistle. STEADY. i asked him where he got it and BAM i went there after we left sentosa. guess what i got my own lol.
this baby is what i've been thinking of having ever since secondary school.
pretty baby.
i blew it lightly just now and LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.
it makes me curious as to know what it sounds like when i blow it with a normal breath.
gonna be super cool.
wake up call for people in camps XD
but yeah its super cool ohmygosh.
got it for less than $10 yaknow.
steady steady pom pi pi.
okayokay goodnight this head-throbbing feeling is taking a toll on my sanity. see you guys around laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr while i roll around with the waves in my head
a ton has happened since my last post. the one about exams.
10 dec: dad and mom's old pal who stayed here in SG loooooooong time ago visited again. so he came over to our house to maka. LOCAL FOOD.
11 dec: i had missionary discussions with investigators
12 dec: dad's colleague came over to our house with her husband and kid (HER BABY KID IS SO CUTE AND CHUBBY) to know how my parents raised such good kids (LOL CHEYYY). but yeah. missionaries came over too, and we ATE A FEAST.
13 dec: YSA activities at Jeff's house. ate again.
14 dec (mom's birthday!! ^^): ward Christmas lunch (where i played the flute with Krystine and Thaddus on the piano) for some awesome Christmas songs. ate and ate and ate. didnt go out for dinner since mom and dad were still full from the lunch. sooo..THEY SKIPPED DINNER. SO UNHEALTHY. yes i ate my own dinner okay. i dont skip meals. unless i wake up too late in the morning at 11am >< WHICH IS RARE OKAY.
15 dec: missionaries had FHE at our home with 3 investigators (no food lol)
19 dec: missionary appointment with part member family
had TWO baptisms so far for the month of december!! and if all goes well then we'll be having another THREE more baptisms!! all on the same day!! :D:D:D i love my calling as a ward missionary :D soooooooo much joy :)
today i went to sentosa with dad.
train ride was quiet.
okay so the ORIGINAL plan was that we go get my PADI in thailand (last week). but we had to push it a week back cuz of the ward christmas lunch, so it was supposed to be this week. now, we have another christmas meal with my mom's side of the family, and we cant get the course done in time. so, we decided to cancel the whole thing and just get me certified here in singapore.
then two days ago we decided to settle that today, on FRIDAY, that we'd go snorkeling as a "make-up" since we cant go diving. so here i am!! left house at 1000~hrs, reached harbour front at like 1140hrs. had a light mini lunch there then went to sentosa. took the tram to duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuno which beach. blablabla then we changed up and so i got into my wet suit. YES. WET SUIT. dad insisted that i bring and wear it since he wants me to get used to it (#okaycan).
okay one thing you NEED to know about me, is that im not a good swimmer. i took swimming classes back when i was in primary school. it only lasted for like a few (2-3) months. went with my bro. BASKET I EVEN PERSUADED HIM TO GO WITH ME WALAO. and yeah soon it got boring. idk. so....stopped going from then. i can roughly swim lah. you throw me inside a swimming pool and i'll just swim out of it LOL. so i CAN swim. but if you ask me to go a few laps, i'll wreck your hairdo and throw you into the pool.
kidding.
you know im not the violent kind.
so yeah. i went diving before and it was okay. i went snorkeling before too and yes it was okay also. I HAVE EXPERIENCE POINTS. so this shouldnt be a piece of cake lah right.
where was i.
oh yeah.
we changed up then carried our bags to a tree. the shelters were occupied by some other people so we left our stuff under a tree. the lockers at sentosa dont work so dont bother bringing coins. assembled the snorkels, adjusted the fins, put on wet shoes. in we go into the sea. after a while of practice strokes (about 7minutes in) to get the feel, it started raining.
shucks.
lightning warning.
so we had to get out of the sea and wait till the warning got called off. guess how long it took? at first we only waited 40minutes, then BASKET the wind change direction and brought this freakin huge-butt cloud right our way. wts moment, i tell you. had to wait for another hour. NOT FUNNY. i just got into the sea and then BAM need to go out again, wait for super long time.
btw the lifeguard on duty then quite chio also.
then she wear shades too walao eh.
freakin cool.
anyway.
we decided to go to the other beach (which no lifeguard takes duty at) and just move there. it was much more open, so the waves were a bit (very much) stronger. it continued raining and according to the lifeguard at the previous beach (the chio one) the lightning warning would only be called off at 1530hrs if all goes well. so yeah....we got in at 1520hrs. i hope they dont kill us for that. lol. anyway, resumed my "lesson" since i have not snorkeled in a long time.
btw, salt water tastes GREAT.
yall should try some for yourselves some time yeah.
share the love.
and i kept getting sand in my shoe -.- my foot turned red from all the chaffing because of the stupid sand walao eh. oh anyway. i did normal snorkeling along water surface level (and a bit lower), and then pretty much got diving done too. the water visibility is soooooooo bad that i didnt even know i was diving. but i think i went down a bit too fast. my head felt the pressure change quite quickly. and now i my head is throbbing. im serious.
but anyway. i think i got the diving settled. i can have a snorkel on and dive down, until my breath dies out. feeling quite confident about it already!! and yeah the wet suit fits well~
AND YEAH. WEIRD SIA.
WHEN I WAS MOVING TO THE OTHER BEACH RIGHT THAT TIME, GOT PEOPLE WALK PAST. and this girl keep looking at me.
okay lah i know i wear suit a bit kuazhang BUT IS THAT THE REASON WHYYY.
she kept smiling and at me and im like wait i know im not wearing my specs but im seeing clearly here right lol.
aaaaaaaaaaanyway.
yeah.
lunafly concert tomorrow. hopefully without this throbbing head.
on the way back home before leaving harbour front, i went to harbour front centre. another lifeguard (macho guy) was using a FOX40 whistle. STEADY. i asked him where he got it and BAM i went there after we left sentosa. guess what i got my own lol.
this baby is what i've been thinking of having ever since secondary school.
pretty baby.
i blew it lightly just now and LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.
it makes me curious as to know what it sounds like when i blow it with a normal breath.
gonna be super cool.
wake up call for people in camps XD
but yeah its super cool ohmygosh.
got it for less than $10 yaknow.
steady steady pom pi pi.
okayokay goodnight this head-throbbing feeling is taking a toll on my sanity. see you guys around laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr while i roll around with the waves in my head
Sunday, 8 December 2013
hello hellooooooooooo
YAYYYYYYYYY EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! finally can cancel off my exam schedule :D
so happy lol. spent my saturday chilling, woke up at 1045hrs. BEST SLEEP IN A LONG TIME. walao exam week almost everyday sleep at 2-3am, wake up 2hours before paper, reach there just nice to sit for paper. except for BSTATS. met gillian (aiseh) and her classmate "jay-lynn" or something like that. they chiong do cheat sheet while i revised. cheem cheem name one. then since theyre test venue was at T11B and mine was at T15, i had to leave first cuz they studied at T11C. so anyway yeah had to study with her classmate for her for a while since someone was fixing the ceiling lights aka right where gillian was sitting.
first two papers were okay. ATRE was not bad. cGMP was nonsense, MAPP was okayokay. think im gonna do badly for cGMP though.
okay gillian just told me that her classmate's name is xue yin. okay.
anyway. cancelled the day's paper after coming back so i can feel better lol. one day at a time.
supposed to exercise with alison yesterday in the morning but both of us woke up late. BASKET SIA i slept at 0330hrs and she slept at like midnight or something. and guess who woke up first? ME. but i woke up late lah, at like 1045hrs lol. she woke up at noon. pig. LOL. anyway we tried to plan for exercising at night but oh well things came up so the plan fell through. and i skipped the trip to JB with my ward YSA on saturday to exercise with alisonnnnnnn. sigh. they watched "Frozen" ohmygosh i want. then ask alison whether wanna watch movie this month or not then cannot cuz her kaki from other country coming over. haiyoh. then she say january then watchhhhhhhhhh.
BASKET I WANNA WATCH THOR SIA I HAVENT WATCHED. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. i think i go watch on my own lah -.- since my friends all watched liao...
Susela's baptism last week, Patrick's baptism today, and two weeks later gonna have THREE baptisms i think. this is so cool. being a ward missionary is cool. in our war, Elder Moore got transferred to Malacca, Sister Zhang got transferred to 2nd Ward. so Sister Waldvogel is here (idk if she's training), and Elder Tzng is the junior companion now. danggit i havent had a proper introduction to the new missionaries (though i talked to Sister Proffit already). oaky and this is the mad part: BOTH Sister missionaries are from St. George!!! where my sister is serving in!!!!! hahahhaha stylo milo :D there's gonna be quite a few things to talk to her about :D i'll get a picture taken with them on another day. today, mom took with them...so yeah...next week i'll take with them. and they taught the lesson today!! not bad. considering that they're a new companionship.
scheduled to get my PADI license this wednesday but now i needa push it back to the week after since im getting it in thailand. dad has his already but he's gonna go with me since he wants to dive. and he initiated it so yeah. anyway. tomorrow im supposed to go to JB again with the other YSAs in my ward but quite a small number of us...but idk now lah since there are rumours of FYP group meeting tomorrow. sigh.
so nothing is confirmed this week. what's confirmed is that its gonna be super messy, so i gotta be flexible and play by ear. proooooooooooobably gonna participate in caylynn's christmas video since i should be able to make it. 2030hrs at compassvale aiseh.
ward christmas party on 14 dec (aka mom's birthday!!!) and krystine and i are playing on the flute. i invited hard gay to play on his violin for me for one song, and thaddus to be on the piano for another. so, i dont know how many songs we're gonna be playing alamak. anyway. pretty much done with the scores...just gotta remember to be normal and calm and then things are gonna turn out well. nervous, yeah, but still confident. hope things turn out great!! :D
trying to get some plans confirmed. lunch/dinner with jaina on wednesday since i owe her, exercise with alison on tuesday. thinking of dinner with fam on saturday since its mom's birthday. then week after that is diving license. and...nothing planned. hmmm. 30th dec got medical since CMPB sent me cuz i have a problem with my ECG. new year countdown with...myself. basket. the stake youth got dance sia and we ysa got what.
anyway had an interview with bishop today. that should say a lot. LOL. talked about NS, school, mission, my current calling...
Sunday, 24 November 2013
napfa take 2!!
sui ah!!
okay so i retook my NAPFA after consulting a few people on whether i should retake or not, and then subsequently asking around on how to train my SBJ. sorry if a bronze isnt enough for me. i dont wanna spend 2 extra months in NS. i could be doing some other important thing!! either earning money or enjoying myself. no hints for yall as to what im gonna be doing with that extra time because nothing's confirmed yet.
AAAAAAAAANYHOOS. im glad i retook my NAPFA. i got a Silver!! ^^ so YES i DO have extra time now!! ^^ sorry if i sound super happy but I REALLY AM.
so here is a screen cap of my results.
^my first try at NAPFA. bronze for this one.
^my second try at NAPFA. silver woots!!
and yes i can really do 55 sit ups in a minute. some people cheated but not me.
i dont know how on earth i jumped 10cm more than my first go at NAPFA for SBJ. though i did ask my older bro (i refer to him as kor, english-ised chinese for "older brother") on how to train for my jumping. he told me a few exercises but i only did the ankle lifts two times only over 1 week lol. i did 60 for each set. and i only did 1 set LOL. amazing. and weird.
sit and reach, i dont know i got 45cm. i actually only stretched 44cm or so, but i think the tester gave me one extra cm (i think) cuz he saw my trying super hard. he's SUPER NICE ohmygosh. so much better than the tester who took my class' guys for NAPFA during the first time. this guy's name is Haziq. SUPER FRIENDLY and encouraging. and he doesnt give up on us even though he doesnt know any of us at all. maaaaaaaan. i absolutely appreciate people like him. amazing guy. anyway. some people cheated by using only one hand to push the marker. by right, we should be using both hands, and not just one, because if we use one hand then we would be able to push further. i thought of doing that but decided not to within a second. so honesty pays off!! i got 45cm the honest way :)
pull ups, yeah. same as the week before. but whenever i drop down after doing it all, my head hurts >< dont know why but OH WELL. maybe cuz i wasnt breathing as much....though im quite sure i WAS breathing right. lol okay so there are 10 guys in my group taking NAPFA together. we're all under Haziq. my tag number was 56 so i was basically the 7th person to do the pull ups. the guy before me, Jasmond (idk how to spell his name), wanted to take a break first. so okay lah i go first lorh. i think the other guys were like kinda doubtful of my. i mean, LOOK AT MY SIZE and im sure they were going like "so skinny can do meh". hahahha. guess what guys, i did 12 and some of you did 7. so dont judge. hearing things like "wah siao eh" "hiong ah" really made my day. topped the group for this.
DONT JUDGE.
shuttle run, same lah. 9.83seconds. AND BASKET THE STUPID "TARMAC" WAS SOOOOO SLIPPERY LAH WALAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! I KEPT ON SLIPPING AT THE END WHERE THE BLOCKS WEREEEEEE. wasted my time haiyoh. i could have gotten close to 8seconds lorh psh. after crossing the line, i walked back to put the blocks back, and Haziq read out my timing: "9.83 seconds". i knew i could get a better timing, but the other guys, once again, "wal*n eh bloo*y fast" lol. topped the group for this also.
2.4km run, YES I CLOCKED 11:05MINUTES OHYEAHHHHHHHH.
okay lah i think they minus-ed out some time. i started my stopwatch a bit late (maybe 2-3seconds?) but oh well. if i was 5seconds faster, i'd get a B for my 2.4km. which im sure is TOTALLY possible...but let's add in the "nervous" factor again, and yeah, 5seconds isnt so bad. my best timing is 10:54, which is a B grade. not so far away eh!! but considering that i've improved from 13:30minutes back in 2010...i'd give myself a pat on the back. mostly stayed behind jesmond cuz he was a tad faster, but i sprinted past him during the last few 100meters. got position number 3 of 40-50!! so steady!! compared to 22 last time lol.
so yeah. while returning my tag, i saw haziq at the counter just standing around. i went up to him and thanked him for his work (on that day) and that i really appreciated it. hope it made him satisfied with himself :)
and yayyyyyyyy jess and van and tresis were taking their 2.4km before me since i was in a later batch and that they didnt need to take the 5stations since their 2.4km run was interrupted by lightning warning. van had to go off first so okay lah. then during my run i could hear jess shouting for me lol she was like "go sam jiayou" a few times when i passed by the starting/ending line. last lap she shouted "go sam last lap!!" then i as i crossed the line during my 5th lap, another tester said "number 56 two laps left....or how many left?" and then i told him (while still running) that i only had 1 lap left LOL. so he made the changes XD
at the last bend, i psyched myself up to get ready for the final sprint. once i felt that i had the right amount of "explosive" energy to blast through the rest of the way, VROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM off i went!! i went past jesmond and i think he didnt see and hear me so he cut a bit into my lane but its okay, i continued a bit to the right and sped past him.
past the finish line i had to collect my position number from the person standing right at the line. since i was going so fast, i had to grab the girl's hand and roughly "snatch" the position number from her lol i hope she didnt mind!!
i took about 70meters to slow down to a jog, spent another 30+meters to get back to walking pace. im not a runner so i dont know how to do all these cooling/slowing down stuff so i was like "okay lah look a bit professional and just zam lah" LOL so i slowly took my time to slow down XD
showed the officials my tag number and position number, and once they recorded it down, i went to return the tag number. that's when i saw haziq. so pack up and all blablabla, i told jess and tresis to go first (since i had to pack my bag) and then when i was done, i started to walk out of the stadium. i saw the 4 guys from the other DBEN class and wished them all the best for their run. btw their run was supposed to be on the same day as my first time taking NAPFA but there was lightning warning, then they decided to take the 2.4km coincidentally on the same day that i was retaking my NAPFA. so yeah i wished them all the best and then left with jess tresis and then van (she turned up then). began talking about NS and jess said she wants to be in the navy, then i said i wanted to be in air force. HAHAHHAHA then van said "but the people in the air force da*n prideful" so i replied with a laughter that "ahahha then i'll be the different one". guess what she said? "yeah i know you'll be different from the rest, can tell one. you'll be great there".
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. see. living righteous whenever and wherever i am pays off :) even vanessa, a person i raaaaaaaaaaaarely talk to, knows that i keep to my standards. happy happy :)
then on friday night i was talking to jaina about my napfa and how i saw her classmates the night before. and then she had news for me. her 4 classmates had to take their 2.4km on FRIDAY night. not thursday night. why? the reason is freaking ridiculous. THERE WAS AN ACCIDENT ON THE TRACK. we both reasoned together and decided that 1 guy was running his 2.4, the other guy was from rugby. they crashed head on. reason being that the rugby guy had to catch a ball that was kicked out of the field and onto the track, and the guy running his 2.4 either didnt have time to react or didnt even see the guy coming. so there we go. BAM. and we were joking about how dumb it was altogether hahahhaha dangit XD we're two opposites but always so relateable LOL.
so yeah. this whole post is about NAPFA. congratulations if you completed reading this whole essay LOL.
okay so i retook my NAPFA after consulting a few people on whether i should retake or not, and then subsequently asking around on how to train my SBJ. sorry if a bronze isnt enough for me. i dont wanna spend 2 extra months in NS. i could be doing some other important thing!! either earning money or enjoying myself. no hints for yall as to what im gonna be doing with that extra time because nothing's confirmed yet.
AAAAAAAAANYHOOS. im glad i retook my NAPFA. i got a Silver!! ^^ so YES i DO have extra time now!! ^^ sorry if i sound super happy but I REALLY AM.
so here is a screen cap of my results.
^my first try at NAPFA. bronze for this one.
and yes i can really do 55 sit ups in a minute. some people cheated but not me.
i dont know how on earth i jumped 10cm more than my first go at NAPFA for SBJ. though i did ask my older bro (i refer to him as kor, english-ised chinese for "older brother") on how to train for my jumping. he told me a few exercises but i only did the ankle lifts two times only over 1 week lol. i did 60 for each set. and i only did 1 set LOL. amazing. and weird.
sit and reach, i dont know i got 45cm. i actually only stretched 44cm or so, but i think the tester gave me one extra cm (i think) cuz he saw my trying super hard. he's SUPER NICE ohmygosh. so much better than the tester who took my class' guys for NAPFA during the first time. this guy's name is Haziq. SUPER FRIENDLY and encouraging. and he doesnt give up on us even though he doesnt know any of us at all. maaaaaaaan. i absolutely appreciate people like him. amazing guy. anyway. some people cheated by using only one hand to push the marker. by right, we should be using both hands, and not just one, because if we use one hand then we would be able to push further. i thought of doing that but decided not to within a second. so honesty pays off!! i got 45cm the honest way :)
pull ups, yeah. same as the week before. but whenever i drop down after doing it all, my head hurts >< dont know why but OH WELL. maybe cuz i wasnt breathing as much....though im quite sure i WAS breathing right. lol okay so there are 10 guys in my group taking NAPFA together. we're all under Haziq. my tag number was 56 so i was basically the 7th person to do the pull ups. the guy before me, Jasmond (idk how to spell his name), wanted to take a break first. so okay lah i go first lorh. i think the other guys were like kinda doubtful of my. i mean, LOOK AT MY SIZE and im sure they were going like "so skinny can do meh". hahahha. guess what guys, i did 12 and some of you did 7. so dont judge. hearing things like "wah siao eh" "hiong ah" really made my day. topped the group for this.
DONT JUDGE.
shuttle run, same lah. 9.83seconds. AND BASKET THE STUPID "TARMAC" WAS SOOOOO SLIPPERY LAH WALAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! I KEPT ON SLIPPING AT THE END WHERE THE BLOCKS WEREEEEEE. wasted my time haiyoh. i could have gotten close to 8seconds lorh psh. after crossing the line, i walked back to put the blocks back, and Haziq read out my timing: "9.83 seconds". i knew i could get a better timing, but the other guys, once again, "wal*n eh bloo*y fast" lol. topped the group for this also.
2.4km run, YES I CLOCKED 11:05MINUTES OHYEAHHHHHHHH.
okay lah i think they minus-ed out some time. i started my stopwatch a bit late (maybe 2-3seconds?) but oh well. if i was 5seconds faster, i'd get a B for my 2.4km. which im sure is TOTALLY possible...but let's add in the "nervous" factor again, and yeah, 5seconds isnt so bad. my best timing is 10:54, which is a B grade. not so far away eh!! but considering that i've improved from 13:30minutes back in 2010...i'd give myself a pat on the back. mostly stayed behind jesmond cuz he was a tad faster, but i sprinted past him during the last few 100meters. got position number 3 of 40-50!! so steady!! compared to 22 last time lol.
so yeah. while returning my tag, i saw haziq at the counter just standing around. i went up to him and thanked him for his work (on that day) and that i really appreciated it. hope it made him satisfied with himself :)
and yayyyyyyyy jess and van and tresis were taking their 2.4km before me since i was in a later batch and that they didnt need to take the 5stations since their 2.4km run was interrupted by lightning warning. van had to go off first so okay lah. then during my run i could hear jess shouting for me lol she was like "go sam jiayou" a few times when i passed by the starting/ending line. last lap she shouted "go sam last lap!!" then i as i crossed the line during my 5th lap, another tester said "number 56 two laps left....or how many left?" and then i told him (while still running) that i only had 1 lap left LOL. so he made the changes XD
at the last bend, i psyched myself up to get ready for the final sprint. once i felt that i had the right amount of "explosive" energy to blast through the rest of the way, VROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM off i went!! i went past jesmond and i think he didnt see and hear me so he cut a bit into my lane but its okay, i continued a bit to the right and sped past him.
past the finish line i had to collect my position number from the person standing right at the line. since i was going so fast, i had to grab the girl's hand and roughly "snatch" the position number from her lol i hope she didnt mind!!
i took about 70meters to slow down to a jog, spent another 30+meters to get back to walking pace. im not a runner so i dont know how to do all these cooling/slowing down stuff so i was like "okay lah look a bit professional and just zam lah" LOL so i slowly took my time to slow down XD
showed the officials my tag number and position number, and once they recorded it down, i went to return the tag number. that's when i saw haziq. so pack up and all blablabla, i told jess and tresis to go first (since i had to pack my bag) and then when i was done, i started to walk out of the stadium. i saw the 4 guys from the other DBEN class and wished them all the best for their run. btw their run was supposed to be on the same day as my first time taking NAPFA but there was lightning warning, then they decided to take the 2.4km coincidentally on the same day that i was retaking my NAPFA. so yeah i wished them all the best and then left with jess tresis and then van (she turned up then). began talking about NS and jess said she wants to be in the navy, then i said i wanted to be in air force. HAHAHHAHA then van said "but the people in the air force da*n prideful" so i replied with a laughter that "ahahha then i'll be the different one". guess what she said? "yeah i know you'll be different from the rest, can tell one. you'll be great there".
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. see. living righteous whenever and wherever i am pays off :) even vanessa, a person i raaaaaaaaaaaarely talk to, knows that i keep to my standards. happy happy :)
then on friday night i was talking to jaina about my napfa and how i saw her classmates the night before. and then she had news for me. her 4 classmates had to take their 2.4km on FRIDAY night. not thursday night. why? the reason is freaking ridiculous. THERE WAS AN ACCIDENT ON THE TRACK. we both reasoned together and decided that 1 guy was running his 2.4, the other guy was from rugby. they crashed head on. reason being that the rugby guy had to catch a ball that was kicked out of the field and onto the track, and the guy running his 2.4 either didnt have time to react or didnt even see the guy coming. so there we go. BAM. and we were joking about how dumb it was altogether hahahhaha dangit XD we're two opposites but always so relateable LOL.
so yeah. this whole post is about NAPFA. congratulations if you completed reading this whole essay LOL.
Sunday, 17 November 2013
poooooof
thursday night (yes....) took my NAPFA. ******************ing horrible.
see my results in my previous post. basket lah sia it was so bad untill i wanna retake. pretty decided on it. then i talked to chun hwee from karate (aiseh like my buddy ah lol) and then galvin from church about it. both said its good to go for the PTP + BMT. kor and the other churchies said forget it lah just go retake. cuz they say its really horrible there. but idk...i still havent decided.
friday night went to thaddus' house with the ward ysa and mish and investigators to make cards for our missionaries. not bad sia lol.
hahahha see all the retarded nonsense we do as YSA XD and wong ming sang a line from One Republic's "Secrets"!! HAHAHHAHAHAH and i recorded it. FRAAAAAAAAAAAAKIN FUNNY!!!! hahahah i love that dude XD anyway we all attempted to watch movies with their movie player but somehow cannot. basket sia. so many movies. and sis chris allows late night movies ohmygosh its like a bit fat no-no in my family sia. and then yeah so we didnt watch anything, but it spurred me to go get some movies lol. and so now....im downloading 12 movies currently XD all released this year. all never watch before. except pac rim. downloading that one cuz its just NICE. 1080p siol hhahahha but anyway can only download 5 at any one time..so pac rim gotta wait. showed my download list to taopok and she said to watch "olympus has fallen" first. but suay die me (STEP SIA) its number 8 on the list. so....gotta wait too hahahha.
saturday woke up at 11am. cuz i was some how tired. played TF2 till time to go for ward thanksgiving dinz. hosted the thing with bea (thank goodness i almost died) and then reached home at like 10pm-ish cuz krystine brought her NBSS friends along. just 2 only. Tiffany Halim and Quitin. i only know tiff so i talked to quitin a bit. studying in SRJC, cca in NBSS was ceramics and is now in the student council. okay lah his accent a bit angmoh but its still understandable. they all went to orchard to eat ice cream with elyana (cue KTW) and sydney. i had to go back home and prepare the lesson for the next day (ie today). teaching both gospel principles and EQ lesson. so...had to let them go lah. anyway, also a bit late for me...
stayed up till 1+++am to finish up the GP lesson which i pretty much covered 2 weeks ago after reading it through a few times. all i did was go through it again, formulate questions, figured out how to get the points i wanted across. highlight, underline, make notes, references. so tired after that that i went to bathe then continue with my EQ lesson. YES I DIDNT BATHE WHEN I REACHED HOME. because the lesson is more important.
so after my bath i worked on the EQ lesson. i just read through it lol. read through it a few times in the past weeks so i kinda knew what i was already gonna say. using mom's manual though so i didnt make any markings whatsoever. read finish liao then went to sleep.
today mom woke me up at 7.30 like a mad woman. SAM SAM ITS 7.30 ALREADY TIME TO GO SAM HURRY UP and i was like "ugh yeah okay okay" but i kept going back to sleep lol. anyway 7.50am came and i got up and had breakfast and changed up and everything and got out at 8.10am. missed mom/dad by 1 train i think but oh well i still made it to church on time. blessed sacrament today cuz YM were short on numbers again...after sacrament i went to the RS room for GP class but oh man all our investigators left church to go somewhere else so class cancelled!! defaulted back to YSA class and the lesson was on "everyday missionaries". not bad. quite a good lesson.
then EQ lesson came around and i saw pres kwan sitting in front.
dang.
it.
man.
suddenly so much pressure -.-
looked at ming and he said "aiyah not like as if he's gonna be in your class, dont worry lah"
was the chorister (again, as with every other week), chose the hymn which was appropriate for today's lesson, and then split off to class. guess what? PRES KWAN WAS IN MY CLASS.
MY.
CLASS.
oh /popcorns/
and he sat in the front row.
distributed the manuals.
ooooh.
still feeling the pressure.
throughout the whole lesson i barely looked his way lol. he added in here and there and it was all good. quite good class participation today as compared to my other lessons. oh yeah today's one was on "doing good to others". realised i should have asked more questions since ming said that he'd be a nice friend and answer the questions i ask hahahahha <3 anyway. i didnt have that many, but whenever there was, it was mostly thought of right on the spot as a leading question.
miracles.
i wasnt expecting it today.
i guess the lesson was much needed by someone in the class.
but anyway.
the lesson carried on.
i did my thing.
and somehow, it all turned out well.
and i dont think i'll be pulling another 2-lesson sunday again.
basically, means that i teach both lessons. sunday school and priesthood class.
this time as with any others, i died inside. so tired. sleeping in sac, after sac.
horrible sia.
ces devo.
kinda crazy.
good message.
and the refreshments later was kinda weird.
but i had 3 slices anyway.
show face ah.
see my results in my previous post. basket lah sia it was so bad untill i wanna retake. pretty decided on it. then i talked to chun hwee from karate (aiseh like my buddy ah lol) and then galvin from church about it. both said its good to go for the PTP + BMT. kor and the other churchies said forget it lah just go retake. cuz they say its really horrible there. but idk...i still havent decided.
napfa timing for 2.4k
saturday woke up at 11am. cuz i was some how tired. played TF2 till time to go for ward thanksgiving dinz. hosted the thing with bea (thank goodness i almost died) and then reached home at like 10pm-ish cuz krystine brought her NBSS friends along. just 2 only. Tiffany Halim and Quitin. i only know tiff so i talked to quitin a bit. studying in SRJC, cca in NBSS was ceramics and is now in the student council. okay lah his accent a bit angmoh but its still understandable. they all went to orchard to eat ice cream with elyana (cue KTW) and sydney. i had to go back home and prepare the lesson for the next day (ie today). teaching both gospel principles and EQ lesson. so...had to let them go lah. anyway, also a bit late for me...
stayed up till 1+++am to finish up the GP lesson which i pretty much covered 2 weeks ago after reading it through a few times. all i did was go through it again, formulate questions, figured out how to get the points i wanted across. highlight, underline, make notes, references. so tired after that that i went to bathe then continue with my EQ lesson. YES I DIDNT BATHE WHEN I REACHED HOME. because the lesson is more important.
so after my bath i worked on the EQ lesson. i just read through it lol. read through it a few times in the past weeks so i kinda knew what i was already gonna say. using mom's manual though so i didnt make any markings whatsoever. read finish liao then went to sleep.
today mom woke me up at 7.30 like a mad woman. SAM SAM ITS 7.30 ALREADY TIME TO GO SAM HURRY UP and i was like "ugh yeah okay okay" but i kept going back to sleep lol. anyway 7.50am came and i got up and had breakfast and changed up and everything and got out at 8.10am. missed mom/dad by 1 train i think but oh well i still made it to church on time. blessed sacrament today cuz YM were short on numbers again...after sacrament i went to the RS room for GP class but oh man all our investigators left church to go somewhere else so class cancelled!! defaulted back to YSA class and the lesson was on "everyday missionaries". not bad. quite a good lesson.
then EQ lesson came around and i saw pres kwan sitting in front.
dang.
it.
man.
suddenly so much pressure -.-
looked at ming and he said "aiyah not like as if he's gonna be in your class, dont worry lah"
was the chorister (again, as with every other week), chose the hymn which was appropriate for today's lesson, and then split off to class. guess what? PRES KWAN WAS IN MY CLASS.
MY.
CLASS.
oh /popcorns/
and he sat in the front row.
distributed the manuals.
ooooh.
still feeling the pressure.
throughout the whole lesson i barely looked his way lol. he added in here and there and it was all good. quite good class participation today as compared to my other lessons. oh yeah today's one was on "doing good to others". realised i should have asked more questions since ming said that he'd be a nice friend and answer the questions i ask hahahahha <3 anyway. i didnt have that many, but whenever there was, it was mostly thought of right on the spot as a leading question.
miracles.
i wasnt expecting it today.
i guess the lesson was much needed by someone in the class.
but anyway.
the lesson carried on.
i did my thing.
and somehow, it all turned out well.
and i dont think i'll be pulling another 2-lesson sunday again.
basically, means that i teach both lessons. sunday school and priesthood class.
this time as with any others, i died inside. so tired. sleeping in sac, after sac.
horrible sia.
ces devo.
kinda crazy.
good message.
and the refreshments later was kinda weird.
but i had 3 slices anyway.
show face ah.
gambai
i have finally figured it out.
i spent a good amount of time thinking it through, and it is now safe to say that i have got it figured out.
why i have the incessant need to be part of something important, or to be important altogether.
sorry but im not gonna post it up here man. lol.
sensitive issue. but if you wanna know, ask me.
most likely (depending on how much i know you lol) i'd share it with you.
no guarantees. but my trusted people, you know who you are.
cheers.
i spent a good amount of time thinking it through, and it is now safe to say that i have got it figured out.
why i have the incessant need to be part of something important, or to be important altogether.
sorry but im not gonna post it up here man. lol.
sensitive issue. but if you wanna know, ask me.
most likely (depending on how much i know you lol) i'd share it with you.
no guarantees. but my trusted people, you know who you are.
cheers.
Saturday, 16 November 2013
YUCKS
tell me what is this nonsense. stupid SBJ. and i think they changed the 2.4km timing. i clocked 12:09. not 12. and the number so nice some more.
Thursday, 14 November 2013
NAPFA results
Sit-ups (in 1 minute): 47: A
Standing Broad Jump: 215cm: E
Sit & Reach: 45cm: B
Pull-ups (in 1 minute): 12: A
Shuttle Run (4x20m): 9.83sec: A
2.4km Run-Walk: 12:09mins: D
SBJ messed up everything. i never was good at it, but still....i could have gotten a GOLD.
2.4k was messed up too. wasnt feeling too well before the run and so that affected my laps. ming said "dont give me excuses!" when i smsed him my results lol. but yeah...my first lap SHOULD have been 1.20minutes, but it took me 1:42minutes. AND THAT SUCKS. A LOT.
super sad :(
but im impressed with my sit-ups. i thought my core muscles had died since i skipped karate for 6months, only returning last month or so. sit and reach too. i thought i'd get like 30cm or something. shocking. and even worse. my pull ups. i could only do 4 pull ups sometime around 4 weeks ago. and then now BAM i can do 12. lol. shuttle run is okay. but the stupid floor was freaking slippery. im sure i could have gotten 9.2 seconds like the last time.
oh well :(
guess i'll have to settle for a bronze :(
sigh :(
Standing Broad Jump: 215cm: E
Sit & Reach: 45cm: B
Pull-ups (in 1 minute): 12: A
Shuttle Run (4x20m): 9.83sec: A
2.4km Run-Walk: 12:09mins: D
SBJ messed up everything. i never was good at it, but still....i could have gotten a GOLD.
2.4k was messed up too. wasnt feeling too well before the run and so that affected my laps. ming said "dont give me excuses!" when i smsed him my results lol. but yeah...my first lap SHOULD have been 1.20minutes, but it took me 1:42minutes. AND THAT SUCKS. A LOT.
super sad :(
but im impressed with my sit-ups. i thought my core muscles had died since i skipped karate for 6months, only returning last month or so. sit and reach too. i thought i'd get like 30cm or something. shocking. and even worse. my pull ups. i could only do 4 pull ups sometime around 4 weeks ago. and then now BAM i can do 12. lol. shuttle run is okay. but the stupid floor was freaking slippery. im sure i could have gotten 9.2 seconds like the last time.
oh well :(
guess i'll have to settle for a bronze :(
sigh :(
gibberish
wrote this a long time ago (feels like 2months) but only publishing it today.
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I don't know why im
feeling so listless and emotionless right now. It really does feel like
as if I don't have anything to channel any emotion towards. Entering
the train, everybody suddenly looks at me. I'm left to wonder, "is there
anything about me that attracts all your attention?" soon, they return
back to their own businesses, and finally im left to being on my own
again without any stares.
Emotionless. I wish I could control when I feel my emotions.
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sian and i have napfa tomorrow. worried like siao. think im gonna have to settle with bronze because of my SBJ. i cant jump sia wth. at most maybe 220 only. and my pull-ups...last time can do like fun only. now like sai sia URGH. the rest like okay lah.
sit ups..maybe can hit 40. gonna try to get 50 though. but that was my peak...which was years ago.
shuttle run can get A for sure. i clocked 9.2seconds.
sit and reach...havent done it in a long time but somehow during my absence from karate, i became more flexible (where is the logic in that) but oh well hope its the same for tomorrow lol.
so yeah.
gonna try my hardest for SBJ and pull ups.
2.4km gonna get B i think, since i clocked in at 10:54. no music with lots of brain power. plus it was hot so maybe if its cooler tomorrow, i could and might run better. lol. idk. im not the runner type of person. but its amazing. after no PE for 2+ years, skipped training for 6months, my timing GOT BETTER by 2.5minutes. sec4 napfa clocked 13:30. lol.
im weird.
end of story.
lol.
*UPDATE*
and stupid BPCO test on friday im so not ready. i only went through the first tutorial. basically memorised everything sia how is this even possible. my memory sucks i cant remember things at all. birthdays and names are the worst for me. lab test for MAPP sometime soon (idk when sia). test here test there. madness.
needa finish up BSTATS project part I this week. even though im not the group leader. im teamed up with zul and zi cong. and i think im to blame for that. they're the weak links in the class. plus me too. but hey. among the three of us, im not the weakest. i just hang around everybody and dont belong to any clique in the class. so group work becomes a problem. everybody gets snapped up and im left with the remnants. and matthew pangseh me, join team with jun wei. psh.
so i naturally took to the helm (does that even make sense, let alone does it exist). i organised everthing, chose the topic, email the lecturer, started on the report which they didnt initiate. so basically i am the group leader. but guess what, in the report, we chose zul as the leader. i was hoping that i would be the group leader, but me being nice, i let him choose lah. maybe i should tell them that i'd rather be the group leader. since zul...isnt really...a good leader....he chin chai one sia. not firm in his decisions. and idk how to work with them for the video in the second term. WTS idk im not gonna use my D7k for the video. its too precious to be held in someone else's hands. gonna settle for a P/S camera. and we're all gonna be in the video right...dangit im gonna stand out like a freaking rainbow. zul and zi cong in all their awkwardness and weirdness.
i shiver at the thought ohmgosh i am doomed.
then still got MAPP nonsense. grouped with matthew and we decided to make a percussion instrument lol. the specifics are all for later but we generally have the idea. zi cong (again) in his weirdness, slotted himself into our group without us saying anything lolwut. talked to matt about it otw home today (we stayed back to start on the presentation slides) and decided to not have zi cong in the group. so...one of us better tell him tomorrow. he's gonna rage i tell you. FOR SURE. just like how he raged on monday when i pointed out his error.
we were working on the BSTATS report. then since we got the bar graph thing (i forgot what its called), we needed to talk about the kurtosis and skewness. WTF. the value for skewness is 0.10 for BOTH GRAPHS and he was so freaking adamant on saying that THE GRAPHS ARE NOT SYMMETRICAL.
and guess what. there was a freakin GRAPH for us to VISUALLY LOOK AT. he still said that it "doesnt look symmetrical". i asked him "how is it not symmetrical?!?!?!?!" then guess what?
zi cong: "youre eyes are screwed man how the **ck is it symmetrical"
i rage first. but i didnt show it.
not the slightest hint.
i turned the lecture notes to the part where they talked about skewness and symmtrical-ness and pointed it to him, PLUS reading it out.
"A distribution with G value zero or near to zero can be considered to be perfectly symmetrical."
i explained that since the value G is 0.10 is pretty SUPER NEAR to zero, that i consider it to be "quite symmetrical".
he blur.
he read.
he took the lecture notes from me.
he read.
i said "zi congggggg...."
BAMBAMBAM RAGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
he stood up from his chair, started yammering loudly and pointing his finger here and there and all over the place, saying oh how he cant work in the biolab with all of us "screaming so loudly" and he "cant concentrate" and said "if YOU (referring to me) wanna do the report so badly then you just do it on your own okay stop telling me what to do".
i kept my cool. "then listen to music lah (his music is hardcore metal. and screamo. i think those are way noisier than us {who definitely were not screaming so loudly}) then problem solved what"
lol. he huay tahan.
shut down his com and stomped off.
but only after i told him to send whatever we've done to my email.
lol.
i so thick skin.
but seriously. i even asked if he got pay attention in class or not. he said no. so OF COURSE things will go wrong. i asked him "so you got study?" and he said no. alamak jialat lah. and so just because of his own problems (not paying attention in class, not catching up on his own), he decided use his ulti move on me: RAGE. and all because i pointed out where he was wrong.
#okcan
he stomped off, pushed the door open so hard that if someone was there in the corridor, he'd be gravely injured. and yeah. stormed off.
once i was sure he wasnt coming back, i laughed to myself, and thought this is ridiculous. my classmates asked me what happened and i just related the whole thing to them. matthew said "zi cong is seriously weird" lol.
i couldnt agree more.
but hey. its okay to be weird.
just make sure you put in effort in your studies.
dont blame anyone else just because you didnt make the effort to understand what was being taught.
and control yourself more.
stop using **ck so often because it really shows how much self control you have.
i dont mind weird conversations.
i've been through all your weird convos for 2.5years already, im used to it.
just dont be ridiculous and unreasonable.
like in this case.
and zul is in our group too. GROUP LEADER. and we let him go off for FYP stuff. he came back, stuck with his FYP group.
#okcan
SEEEEEEEEEEE MY GROUP. its the three of us. i might as well be the only one doing all the work. and i tell you, gimme 2 days. i can finish the whole report. i dont need you guys to do it for me. im capable on my own. im just unfortunately paired up with yall. i understand what they're asking for, i know how to give them what they want.
im the strongest weakest link.
whoa. thats kinda weird.
but true.
i AM the strongest weakest link.
no doubt.
amazing how there are so many opportunities in poly to discover myself.
ahahhahahahhhahahhaa.
amazing.
Emotionless. I wish I could control when I feel my emotions.
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sian and i have napfa tomorrow. worried like siao. think im gonna have to settle with bronze because of my SBJ. i cant jump sia wth. at most maybe 220 only. and my pull-ups...last time can do like fun only. now like sai sia URGH. the rest like okay lah.
sit ups..maybe can hit 40. gonna try to get 50 though. but that was my peak...which was years ago.
shuttle run can get A for sure. i clocked 9.2seconds.
sit and reach...havent done it in a long time but somehow during my absence from karate, i became more flexible (where is the logic in that) but oh well hope its the same for tomorrow lol.
so yeah.
gonna try my hardest for SBJ and pull ups.
2.4km gonna get B i think, since i clocked in at 10:54. no music with lots of brain power. plus it was hot so maybe if its cooler tomorrow, i could and might run better. lol. idk. im not the runner type of person. but its amazing. after no PE for 2+ years, skipped training for 6months, my timing GOT BETTER by 2.5minutes. sec4 napfa clocked 13:30. lol.
im weird.
end of story.
lol.
*UPDATE*
and stupid BPCO test on friday im so not ready. i only went through the first tutorial. basically memorised everything sia how is this even possible. my memory sucks i cant remember things at all. birthdays and names are the worst for me. lab test for MAPP sometime soon (idk when sia). test here test there. madness.
needa finish up BSTATS project part I this week. even though im not the group leader. im teamed up with zul and zi cong. and i think im to blame for that. they're the weak links in the class. plus me too. but hey. among the three of us, im not the weakest. i just hang around everybody and dont belong to any clique in the class. so group work becomes a problem. everybody gets snapped up and im left with the remnants. and matthew pangseh me, join team with jun wei. psh.
so i naturally took to the helm (does that even make sense, let alone does it exist). i organised everthing, chose the topic, email the lecturer, started on the report which they didnt initiate. so basically i am the group leader. but guess what, in the report, we chose zul as the leader. i was hoping that i would be the group leader, but me being nice, i let him choose lah. maybe i should tell them that i'd rather be the group leader. since zul...isnt really...a good leader....he chin chai one sia. not firm in his decisions. and idk how to work with them for the video in the second term. WTS idk im not gonna use my D7k for the video. its too precious to be held in someone else's hands. gonna settle for a P/S camera. and we're all gonna be in the video right...dangit im gonna stand out like a freaking rainbow. zul and zi cong in all their awkwardness and weirdness.
i shiver at the thought ohmgosh i am doomed.
then still got MAPP nonsense. grouped with matthew and we decided to make a percussion instrument lol. the specifics are all for later but we generally have the idea. zi cong (again) in his weirdness, slotted himself into our group without us saying anything lolwut. talked to matt about it otw home today (we stayed back to start on the presentation slides) and decided to not have zi cong in the group. so...one of us better tell him tomorrow. he's gonna rage i tell you. FOR SURE. just like how he raged on monday when i pointed out his error.
we were working on the BSTATS report. then since we got the bar graph thing (i forgot what its called), we needed to talk about the kurtosis and skewness. WTF. the value for skewness is 0.10 for BOTH GRAPHS and he was so freaking adamant on saying that THE GRAPHS ARE NOT SYMMETRICAL.
and guess what. there was a freakin GRAPH for us to VISUALLY LOOK AT. he still said that it "doesnt look symmetrical". i asked him "how is it not symmetrical?!?!?!?!" then guess what?
zi cong: "youre eyes are screwed man how the **ck is it symmetrical"
i rage first. but i didnt show it.
not the slightest hint.
i turned the lecture notes to the part where they talked about skewness and symmtrical-ness and pointed it to him, PLUS reading it out.
"A distribution with G value zero or near to zero can be considered to be perfectly symmetrical."
i explained that since the value G is 0.10 is pretty SUPER NEAR to zero, that i consider it to be "quite symmetrical".
he blur.
he read.
he took the lecture notes from me.
he read.
i said "zi congggggg...."
BAMBAMBAM RAGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
he stood up from his chair, started yammering loudly and pointing his finger here and there and all over the place, saying oh how he cant work in the biolab with all of us "screaming so loudly" and he "cant concentrate" and said "if YOU (referring to me) wanna do the report so badly then you just do it on your own okay stop telling me what to do".
i kept my cool. "then listen to music lah (his music is hardcore metal. and screamo. i think those are way noisier than us {who definitely were not screaming so loudly}) then problem solved what"
lol. he huay tahan.
shut down his com and stomped off.
but only after i told him to send whatever we've done to my email.
lol.
i so thick skin.
but seriously. i even asked if he got pay attention in class or not. he said no. so OF COURSE things will go wrong. i asked him "so you got study?" and he said no. alamak jialat lah. and so just because of his own problems (not paying attention in class, not catching up on his own), he decided use his ulti move on me: RAGE. and all because i pointed out where he was wrong.
#okcan
he stomped off, pushed the door open so hard that if someone was there in the corridor, he'd be gravely injured. and yeah. stormed off.
once i was sure he wasnt coming back, i laughed to myself, and thought this is ridiculous. my classmates asked me what happened and i just related the whole thing to them. matthew said "zi cong is seriously weird" lol.
i couldnt agree more.
but hey. its okay to be weird.
just make sure you put in effort in your studies.
dont blame anyone else just because you didnt make the effort to understand what was being taught.
and control yourself more.
stop using **ck so often because it really shows how much self control you have.
i dont mind weird conversations.
i've been through all your weird convos for 2.5years already, im used to it.
just dont be ridiculous and unreasonable.
like in this case.
and zul is in our group too. GROUP LEADER. and we let him go off for FYP stuff. he came back, stuck with his FYP group.
#okcan
SEEEEEEEEEEE MY GROUP. its the three of us. i might as well be the only one doing all the work. and i tell you, gimme 2 days. i can finish the whole report. i dont need you guys to do it for me. im capable on my own. im just unfortunately paired up with yall. i understand what they're asking for, i know how to give them what they want.
im the strongest weakest link.
whoa. thats kinda weird.
but true.
i AM the strongest weakest link.
no doubt.
amazing how there are so many opportunities in poly to discover myself.
ahahhahahahhhahahhaa.
amazing.
Sunday, 10 November 2013
RE:
i wanna hear your laughter.
i wanna hear your nonsense.
i wanna be with you when you go mad.
i wanna be there when you go crazy.
i wanna share your problems, your worries.
i wanna be the one to pick you up when you're down.
i wanna be the one to hold your hand.
i wanna be the one you share treasure memories with.
i wanna go out and chill with you.
i wanna have fun with you.
i wanna wipe away your tears.
i wanna bring a smile to your face.
i might try.
because now things aren't the same.
i think.
i wanna hear your nonsense.
i wanna be with you when you go mad.
i wanna be there when you go crazy.
i wanna share your problems, your worries.
i wanna be the one to pick you up when you're down.
i wanna be the one to hold your hand.
i wanna be the one you share treasure memories with.
i wanna go out and chill with you.
i wanna have fun with you.
i wanna wipe away your tears.
i wanna bring a smile to your face.
i might try.
because now things aren't the same.
i think.
moooooooooooooooooooooppppp
oh and.
some people i know indirectly ship me and you together lol.\
they talk about you and end up saying SAM IM NOT GOING FOR HER OKAY SHE'S YOURS
lol.
yeah sure you're nice and all, i wouldnt mind it actually.
but i guess im in the friendzoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooone.
yeah its a long one.
i dont think it's special so forget it.
so i guess no point in me trying to get close to you.
i guess you're too busy with life!!
but anyway.
er.
forgot what i was gonna say.
see lah.
anyway i saw this picture uploaded on facebook. i cant find it :(
but in relation to what i talked about just now, i'll quote it:
"Are you a ballpoint pen because youre
EXTRA FINE"
okay you need to see the picture to get it.
some people i know indirectly ship me and you together lol.\
they talk about you and end up saying SAM IM NOT GOING FOR HER OKAY SHE'S YOURS
lol.
yeah sure you're nice and all, i wouldnt mind it actually.
but i guess im in the friendzoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooone.
yeah its a long one.
i dont think it's special so forget it.
so i guess no point in me trying to get close to you.
i guess you're too busy with life!!
but anyway.
er.
forgot what i was gonna say.
see lah.
anyway i saw this picture uploaded on facebook. i cant find it :(
but in relation to what i talked about just now, i'll quote it:
"Are you a ballpoint pen because youre
EXTRA FINE"
okay you need to see the picture to get it.
Saturday, 9 November 2013
team rocketttttttttt
guys lets face it.
she IS weird.
and i dont know how her boyf can tahan her. and hey her boyf does some extreme things too. idk how she can tahan him. but...love makes it somehow possible eh? her boyf doesnt let her pick up some calls. he blocks numbers after scrolling through her phone. he's nice to send her to class every now and then, we all see him. and she is weird. she is super serious. her jokes arent funny. so we're left with uuuuuuuuuuuuuuber awkward conversations. good thing im not hanging around with her alot.
sure, she's smart. but what the heck is IQ when you dont have EQ? she's always with her FT group. she doesnt mix with us locals. and she's OVERLY AMBITIOUS. everything also wanna do. she signed up for 4 or so CCAs. say she wanna do this, wanna do that...but its all for the freaking CCA points!! she's always inviting us to go for this and that event, and im like..."dude seriously can you stop". ITS SOOOOOOOOOO ANNOYING. and she fangirls over JAY CHOU. ohmygosh. "my husband" YOUR HEAD AHHHHHH. okay but that's why she's called a fangirl. but i cannot tahan. like..HELLO. in your dreams only lah but alamak. dont so hard core can. maintain a bit. i know, i understand. fans are fans. and im the rare kind of controlled composed kind of fan. but haiyah...forget it lah.
and stop drawing on my notes please thank you. you draw a cutesy flower which can say "hello!" and you add your name with a heart shape. dang thats so lovely that im falling for you -.- too bad i erased it already. i should have taken a picture to post up here. sigh. and im not the only one who gets it. so good and bad. good cuz im no getting any special treatment, bad cuz ALL THE OTHER VICTIMS ARE GETTING IT TOO. sigh..
anyway. her group is the smart group. people like me dont belong there.
anyway.
not like as if i belong anywhere in the class either.
im just the lingering one, hopping between groups/cliques.
ending up with the leftovers for group work, where i naturally assume the group leader role.
cuz the others dont.
enough musing.
i should be happy with whatever i have, right?
too bad im not.
somehow.
anyway.
something to read. (you're supposed to click on it)
kinda interesting.
and whats with the pokemon craze anyway? people buying 3DSXL just to play Pokemon X/Y. wtf. too much money is it.
she IS weird.
and i dont know how her boyf can tahan her. and hey her boyf does some extreme things too. idk how she can tahan him. but...love makes it somehow possible eh? her boyf doesnt let her pick up some calls. he blocks numbers after scrolling through her phone. he's nice to send her to class every now and then, we all see him. and she is weird. she is super serious. her jokes arent funny. so we're left with uuuuuuuuuuuuuuber awkward conversations. good thing im not hanging around with her alot.
sure, she's smart. but what the heck is IQ when you dont have EQ? she's always with her FT group. she doesnt mix with us locals. and she's OVERLY AMBITIOUS. everything also wanna do. she signed up for 4 or so CCAs. say she wanna do this, wanna do that...but its all for the freaking CCA points!! she's always inviting us to go for this and that event, and im like..."dude seriously can you stop". ITS SOOOOOOOOOO ANNOYING. and she fangirls over JAY CHOU. ohmygosh. "my husband" YOUR HEAD AHHHHHH. okay but that's why she's called a fangirl. but i cannot tahan. like..HELLO. in your dreams only lah but alamak. dont so hard core can. maintain a bit. i know, i understand. fans are fans. and im the rare kind of controlled composed kind of fan. but haiyah...forget it lah.
and stop drawing on my notes please thank you. you draw a cutesy flower which can say "hello!" and you add your name with a heart shape. dang thats so lovely that im falling for you -.- too bad i erased it already. i should have taken a picture to post up here. sigh. and im not the only one who gets it. so good and bad. good cuz im no getting any special treatment, bad cuz ALL THE OTHER VICTIMS ARE GETTING IT TOO. sigh..
anyway. her group is the smart group. people like me dont belong there.
anyway.
not like as if i belong anywhere in the class either.
im just the lingering one, hopping between groups/cliques.
ending up with the leftovers for group work, where i naturally assume the group leader role.
cuz the others dont.
enough musing.
i should be happy with whatever i have, right?
too bad im not.
somehow.
anyway.
something to read. (you're supposed to click on it)
kinda interesting.
and whats with the pokemon craze anyway? people buying 3DSXL just to play Pokemon X/Y. wtf. too much money is it.
Friday, 25 October 2013
ooh eee ooh ah ah bing bang walla walla bing bang
you know whats worse than being friendzoned?
BROZONED.
and i think i just got brozoned LOL.
anyway. today for ATRE, lucas was suggested to go up to the front to be a demonstration to the class, to be used by ronny tham. that goondu so shy or whatever, then he keep saying "samuel samuel go samuel no cher i dont want cher choose samuel" then i was sitting in front of him. basket sia this guy. so ronny tham eventually asked if i would mind going up (he is such a nice and gentle lecturer...and he is actually a really big shot in sp...) then i was like "sure~" then he asked me to take off my teamsp jacket.
guess what? i got a free backbone check up!! hahahahha. and he said my backbone is good!! :D and he does what he needs to do. like first before touching my waist right (to demo one of the backbone curvatures) he asked me if i mind or not. i was kinda shocked but immediately recognised that it was only procedure to ask a question as such. if i declined then he cannot touch me.
FACT. just so you know, in case you dont already.
so yeah. he's such a nice guy that i wonder if he ever takes part in politics in sp.
its like a "too good to be true" moment for me now.
though i wish he doesnt...
it would be nice
to have a
lecturer
like him
.
BROZONED.
and i think i just got brozoned LOL.
anyway. today for ATRE, lucas was suggested to go up to the front to be a demonstration to the class, to be used by ronny tham. that goondu so shy or whatever, then he keep saying "samuel samuel go samuel no cher i dont want cher choose samuel" then i was sitting in front of him. basket sia this guy. so ronny tham eventually asked if i would mind going up (he is such a nice and gentle lecturer...and he is actually a really big shot in sp...) then i was like "sure~" then he asked me to take off my teamsp jacket.
guess what? i got a free backbone check up!! hahahahha. and he said my backbone is good!! :D and he does what he needs to do. like first before touching my waist right (to demo one of the backbone curvatures) he asked me if i mind or not. i was kinda shocked but immediately recognised that it was only procedure to ask a question as such. if i declined then he cannot touch me.
FACT. just so you know, in case you dont already.
so yeah. he's such a nice guy that i wonder if he ever takes part in politics in sp.
its like a "too good to be true" moment for me now.
though i wish he doesnt...
it would be nice
to have a
lecturer
like him
.
Tuesday, 22 October 2013
Enter Title
Lately I've been thinking a lot, and I've been keeping my eyes open a lot as well. As a result, I have come to a conclusion.
I find that I tend to notice certain girls as of late. It is no surprise that these special people all have a quality or trait that I am in the pursuit of. Not that I am jealous. It is an attraction, rather than a feeling of jealousy. Infatuation? I guess so. But these are /righteous/ infatuations, if I might add, and if such a term even exists.
The traits and qualities that I am in pursuit for are wonderful. They make me person that I can love, appreciate, and respect. It also allows me to be able to be of more help whenever help is required. Ultimately, it really is obtaining as much knowledge as I can, for such is the commandment given to us by God.
But of course, in my thoughts, I also have come to another conclusion: that Sam, that young skinny boy born and raised in a church, will forever be just another guy that people know of. And I will be seen as such by those ladies. /just another guy/. Interesting eh? Not to worry. I will explain.
In my life, there have been three occasions when a girl confessed to me. Obviously, I never noticed any of them up until the time they took the initiative. The first two was when I was in sec 3 (grade 9?, for those in the States). I turned down the first one because I knew nothing about her. I turned down the second one as well because she pestered me. Only later did I realize that it was probably something that I would want to experience again, but with a person that I actually /liked/. I thought about the third one. After much deliberation, I invited the third one for a relationship. After some time, we were together, but the happiness we shared was limited.
And so here I am today, thinking back and reflecting on each of those experiences. Why were they successful, and what made it end? What makes me different from the others, who am I in their eyes? What kind of potential do I hold that I can share with them, and what should I do or do not do?
Unfortunately, my thoughts resulted in some negative thoughts. Perhaps it might be the truth. But also perhaps, it could be a thing of the mind. I put myself in their shoes, and looked at myself through what I hoped would be an accurate impression of me that they see.
The first two were interesting. Girls being girls, and with both of them being younger than I, said that they liked me because I was "cute" and (im not sure about this) "handsome" as well, though I doubted that one quite a fair bit. Nothing happened between me and them. I received a lot of their attention, and at times, gifts as well. Being an uneducated dumbo kid at that time (and I probably still am), I was not able to make better wiser choices.
The third one was different because I was in a relationship with her. I put in effort, but things didn't work out well.
So now I begin to wonder about what really makes me different, or am I the same as all the others out there? Growing up in church isn't easy. Everybody else around you more or less has the same standards, hang out together, do same things together, and all that shazam. And so look at me. How different and I from the others? Am I not inferior to the others? Maybe better than some, but definitely not as good as others. Living in someone's shadow my whole life hasn't done me any good. I am just someone's son, someone's brother, someone's cousin, that guy's friend. I own no recognition of my own.
Recognition, that one crucial intangible thing that /every/ human being needs to survive. But I wonder, how many others are there who are like me, guy or girl? And whose fault is it for not knowing someone else? Would it be fault on my part if I didn't know a girl because I don't socialize enough? Or would it be hers for not standing out from the others?
Being someone that not everybody knows, not being the popular one, how does /anyone/ get out of it? The chances of a potential one knowing me: slim. All because I own no recognition.
My best bet right now would be marrying someone outside the church and converting her. But that is the hardest part. And the most challenging part. The most risky part. It's a make or break moment.
Aiyah but even then, who would wanna be with a guy like me? Skinny, weird, too retarded, never seems to be serious? Yeah who cares if I can fight. There a are a million other guys out there who are more buff than me, and can fight /as well/. Probably better, too.
So what if I can cook? Other guys can do it too. Who cares if I can do house chores? Any wife could just get the husband to do it too. Who cares if I play computer games? Almost every other guy does too.
So, prepare for the worst, right? Sam, be ready for a life of solitude. It could be heading your way right now, and you don't even know it.
I find that I tend to notice certain girls as of late. It is no surprise that these special people all have a quality or trait that I am in the pursuit of. Not that I am jealous. It is an attraction, rather than a feeling of jealousy. Infatuation? I guess so. But these are /righteous/ infatuations, if I might add, and if such a term even exists.
The traits and qualities that I am in pursuit for are wonderful. They make me person that I can love, appreciate, and respect. It also allows me to be able to be of more help whenever help is required. Ultimately, it really is obtaining as much knowledge as I can, for such is the commandment given to us by God.
But of course, in my thoughts, I also have come to another conclusion: that Sam, that young skinny boy born and raised in a church, will forever be just another guy that people know of. And I will be seen as such by those ladies. /just another guy/. Interesting eh? Not to worry. I will explain.
In my life, there have been three occasions when a girl confessed to me. Obviously, I never noticed any of them up until the time they took the initiative. The first two was when I was in sec 3 (grade 9?, for those in the States). I turned down the first one because I knew nothing about her. I turned down the second one as well because she pestered me. Only later did I realize that it was probably something that I would want to experience again, but with a person that I actually /liked/. I thought about the third one. After much deliberation, I invited the third one for a relationship. After some time, we were together, but the happiness we shared was limited.
And so here I am today, thinking back and reflecting on each of those experiences. Why were they successful, and what made it end? What makes me different from the others, who am I in their eyes? What kind of potential do I hold that I can share with them, and what should I do or do not do?
Unfortunately, my thoughts resulted in some negative thoughts. Perhaps it might be the truth. But also perhaps, it could be a thing of the mind. I put myself in their shoes, and looked at myself through what I hoped would be an accurate impression of me that they see.
The first two were interesting. Girls being girls, and with both of them being younger than I, said that they liked me because I was "cute" and (im not sure about this) "handsome" as well, though I doubted that one quite a fair bit. Nothing happened between me and them. I received a lot of their attention, and at times, gifts as well. Being an uneducated dumbo kid at that time (and I probably still am), I was not able to make better wiser choices.
The third one was different because I was in a relationship with her. I put in effort, but things didn't work out well.
So now I begin to wonder about what really makes me different, or am I the same as all the others out there? Growing up in church isn't easy. Everybody else around you more or less has the same standards, hang out together, do same things together, and all that shazam. And so look at me. How different and I from the others? Am I not inferior to the others? Maybe better than some, but definitely not as good as others. Living in someone's shadow my whole life hasn't done me any good. I am just someone's son, someone's brother, someone's cousin, that guy's friend. I own no recognition of my own.
Recognition, that one crucial intangible thing that /every/ human being needs to survive. But I wonder, how many others are there who are like me, guy or girl? And whose fault is it for not knowing someone else? Would it be fault on my part if I didn't know a girl because I don't socialize enough? Or would it be hers for not standing out from the others?
Being someone that not everybody knows, not being the popular one, how does /anyone/ get out of it? The chances of a potential one knowing me: slim. All because I own no recognition.
My best bet right now would be marrying someone outside the church and converting her. But that is the hardest part. And the most challenging part. The most risky part. It's a make or break moment.
Aiyah but even then, who would wanna be with a guy like me? Skinny, weird, too retarded, never seems to be serious? Yeah who cares if I can fight. There a are a million other guys out there who are more buff than me, and can fight /as well/. Probably better, too.
So what if I can cook? Other guys can do it too. Who cares if I can do house chores? Any wife could just get the husband to do it too. Who cares if I play computer games? Almost every other guy does too.
So, prepare for the worst, right? Sam, be ready for a life of solitude. It could be heading your way right now, and you don't even know it.
Sunday, 20 October 2013
dumb[butt]
ohmygooooooooooooosh
you're getting annoying you know that.
and i have to bear with you almost everyday after school till you drop off.
its like.
SIAN AH MUST GO BACK HOME WITH YOU TODAY.
because i dont want others to say that "samuel never go home with me i feel so lonely"
and also just cuz i wanna be a good friend okay. if you wanna be alone on your way home then just plug in your earphones i understand. if you wanna talk then i'll talk with you. and with your weird comments and stuff, it really annoys the heck out of me.
then you and your claims. run 2.4km for NAPFA in 9minutes 42seconds. dude with your physique you tell me you run with that timing? even my church friend has to exercise like shit and he runs in that timing. and you tell me you "lazy to exercise" because you have "better things to do" and can still run in 9minutes. bagus.
and so you've talked someone out of suicide. okay, just so i dont smash you down, i just say "oaky okay good job". i dont even know if you really did it or not, but im just giving you the benefit of the doubt.
then today. of course i dont understand people who harm themselves. there is absolutely NO logic in it. i said that what they feel when they harm themselves is anything but "better". that it is just a temporary high. when you feel better, it is more genuine. you dont have to cut yourself (or whatever means) to feel "better" because as i said, it is either adrenaline rush, or some mind thing that you tell yourself. i have tried lying to myself and i tell you it works. it works because i have tried it. and so here people are saying that you feel better when you harm yourself? that's something that other people say and you blatantly believe.
please think.
"the best way to understand them is to have a nice long [butt] conversation with them".
hello bro. you gonna tell me that you've climbed a rainbow too?
i get sick and tired of talking to you. in all my efforts to be friendly to those around me, you top the charts because you are so hard to understand. you dont understand why people get into relationships, and when i explain, you just deny everything that i say. if you do that to me, would it not be the same if someone in depression talks to you about their problem, and you just deny everything that they say? what difference is it?
but whatever lah, okay.? im just gonna rough it out. less than six months before i graduate from school and i wont have to try so hard to be friendly anymore. i wont even have to try to reply your messages and tweets and facebook posts anymore.
period.
you're getting annoying you know that.
and i have to bear with you almost everyday after school till you drop off.
its like.
SIAN AH MUST GO BACK HOME WITH YOU TODAY.
because i dont want others to say that "samuel never go home with me i feel so lonely"
and also just cuz i wanna be a good friend okay. if you wanna be alone on your way home then just plug in your earphones i understand. if you wanna talk then i'll talk with you. and with your weird comments and stuff, it really annoys the heck out of me.
then you and your claims. run 2.4km for NAPFA in 9minutes 42seconds. dude with your physique you tell me you run with that timing? even my church friend has to exercise like shit and he runs in that timing. and you tell me you "lazy to exercise" because you have "better things to do" and can still run in 9minutes. bagus.
and so you've talked someone out of suicide. okay, just so i dont smash you down, i just say "oaky okay good job". i dont even know if you really did it or not, but im just giving you the benefit of the doubt.
then today. of course i dont understand people who harm themselves. there is absolutely NO logic in it. i said that what they feel when they harm themselves is anything but "better". that it is just a temporary high. when you feel better, it is more genuine. you dont have to cut yourself (or whatever means) to feel "better" because as i said, it is either adrenaline rush, or some mind thing that you tell yourself. i have tried lying to myself and i tell you it works. it works because i have tried it. and so here people are saying that you feel better when you harm yourself? that's something that other people say and you blatantly believe.
please think.
"the best way to understand them is to have a nice long [butt] conversation with them".
hello bro. you gonna tell me that you've climbed a rainbow too?
i get sick and tired of talking to you. in all my efforts to be friendly to those around me, you top the charts because you are so hard to understand. you dont understand why people get into relationships, and when i explain, you just deny everything that i say. if you do that to me, would it not be the same if someone in depression talks to you about their problem, and you just deny everything that they say? what difference is it?
but whatever lah, okay.? im just gonna rough it out. less than six months before i graduate from school and i wont have to try so hard to be friendly anymore. i wont even have to try to reply your messages and tweets and facebook posts anymore.
period.
Thursday, 10 October 2013
so....CMPB.
soooooooo. went out for a missionary appointment today with Elder Moore and Elder Devey. they went on exchanges. i met Elder Devey when i had a discussion with one investigator and Elder Schone. that was earlier this year..a few months back. appointment was at 6pm and they called me at like 4pm. i didnt have anything on, so i agreed to go with them. actually supposed to go for karate training today, but my muscles still have not recovered enough from tuesday's badminton for me to train anything.
meanwhile, i've been doing push ups and squats at home, and when i go to school to exercise i'd do my 2.4km and pull ups. since i train alone, i cant do shuttle run accurately. my sit ups, i dont know how im training for it. the only thing i've been doing for my stomach is filling it up during the day. lol.
i need to train more on my arm and back muscles so i can do 11 pull ups, just like before. dang i miss those days when i was so much more fit.
its so boring.
anyway. school timetable is out already. super lame. and i heard that the modules are hard. a lot more memorising, which im NOT good at. sigh. whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. i wanna go back to school, but i also dont wanna go back to school. i'd go back for the scheduled routine lifestyle. but i dont want to have to sit for exams and tests, and work for projects that are annoying. im a bit tired of working in groups already.
meh.
anyway. the missionary discussion went well today. talked a bit about the First Vision, and related that back to #genconf (does this do hashtags lol) and invited the family to go. Joanna (the daughter) had her boyfriend over too lol and he was in the lesson as well. the Elders and i all agreed that we should have included him more in the lesson since he was quite receptive.
oh and i met the Elders at woodlands bus interchange. and they were in the midst of handing this student a Book of Mormon, and then got his number. maaaaaaaaan they good. Elder Devey was having for himself a macdonald's ice cream cone lol. i should have gotten one for myself too XD its been a while...
OHOHOH and i went to CMPB yesterday for my health check up in preparation for NS. time in at 1305hrs, and basket i left at like 1830hrs okay. not fun. i was the last guy to leave. idk how the other pre-enlistees finish the stupid quiz so fast. i was struggling here and there sia walao eh. the questions are so retarded. and i thought that i was logical -.- so...since that test kinda determines where im posted to, i guess im gonna be in army. sigh. im sure i didnt display any "outstanding performance" in ANY area so just forget it lah huh forget about navy and forget about air force. just get sent to army sua lah. but i dont think i'll be going to SCDF...
they took my blood, they took my pee, they took my eyes, they took my heart readings. oh dang talk about heart reading. my ecg had a weird read-out okay. thats what they said on the freaking report. i read it. i probably had a rough idea on what it would say so i read it okay. and i was bored. no music too. psh. so. i read my readout. and it says i have an "abnormal ecg". fine. i went to the doctor, he looked at it, sighed soooooooooo many times that it made me super worried. he typed using two fingers and tapped away. then i peeked at his screen cuz im curious. read a bit then he saw me looking then he asked me to step further back. fiiiiiiine okay lorh so i stepped back and looked dead ahead at the empty wall. tap tap tap. but i thought about what i read. then i googled it today. and i must say that yes i am weird. my heart is weird. therefore, i am weird. geddit?
anyway. im up for another appointment at khoo teck phuat and then they're gonna waiver the fee when i present some papers. treatment will be borne by me if i decide to have any. sigh. appointment on 30th December. first thing in the morning.
its already feeling like the army.
nah maybe its all in my head.
meanwhile, i've been doing push ups and squats at home, and when i go to school to exercise i'd do my 2.4km and pull ups. since i train alone, i cant do shuttle run accurately. my sit ups, i dont know how im training for it. the only thing i've been doing for my stomach is filling it up during the day. lol.
i need to train more on my arm and back muscles so i can do 11 pull ups, just like before. dang i miss those days when i was so much more fit.
its so boring.
anyway. school timetable is out already. super lame. and i heard that the modules are hard. a lot more memorising, which im NOT good at. sigh. whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. i wanna go back to school, but i also dont wanna go back to school. i'd go back for the scheduled routine lifestyle. but i dont want to have to sit for exams and tests, and work for projects that are annoying. im a bit tired of working in groups already.
meh.
anyway. the missionary discussion went well today. talked a bit about the First Vision, and related that back to #genconf (does this do hashtags lol) and invited the family to go. Joanna (the daughter) had her boyfriend over too lol and he was in the lesson as well. the Elders and i all agreed that we should have included him more in the lesson since he was quite receptive.
oh and i met the Elders at woodlands bus interchange. and they were in the midst of handing this student a Book of Mormon, and then got his number. maaaaaaaaan they good. Elder Devey was having for himself a macdonald's ice cream cone lol. i should have gotten one for myself too XD its been a while...
OHOHOH and i went to CMPB yesterday for my health check up in preparation for NS. time in at 1305hrs, and basket i left at like 1830hrs okay. not fun. i was the last guy to leave. idk how the other pre-enlistees finish the stupid quiz so fast. i was struggling here and there sia walao eh. the questions are so retarded. and i thought that i was logical -.- so...since that test kinda determines where im posted to, i guess im gonna be in army. sigh. im sure i didnt display any "outstanding performance" in ANY area so just forget it lah huh forget about navy and forget about air force. just get sent to army sua lah. but i dont think i'll be going to SCDF...
they took my blood, they took my pee, they took my eyes, they took my heart readings. oh dang talk about heart reading. my ecg had a weird read-out okay. thats what they said on the freaking report. i read it. i probably had a rough idea on what it would say so i read it okay. and i was bored. no music too. psh. so. i read my readout. and it says i have an "abnormal ecg". fine. i went to the doctor, he looked at it, sighed soooooooooo many times that it made me super worried. he typed using two fingers and tapped away. then i peeked at his screen cuz im curious. read a bit then he saw me looking then he asked me to step further back. fiiiiiiine okay lorh so i stepped back and looked dead ahead at the empty wall. tap tap tap. but i thought about what i read. then i googled it today. and i must say that yes i am weird. my heart is weird. therefore, i am weird. geddit?
anyway. im up for another appointment at khoo teck phuat and then they're gonna waiver the fee when i present some papers. treatment will be borne by me if i decide to have any. sigh. appointment on 30th December. first thing in the morning.
its already feeling like the army.
nah maybe its all in my head.
Sunday, 6 October 2013
ALOHA!!!
why do i have 2211 page views. jumped so much ever since i last checked. maybe my blog suddenly gained sooooooooooo many new readers lol. BHUT EHNEEWAE.
its been FOREVER since i last blogged. thats more than a month ago. okay maybe 3weeks. been so long /that i've seen your face, tryna be strong/ because i lost my itouch: the one and only thing that i blog on other than my laptop (though i dont really have much privacy since mom sits beside my table). no time to blog in school either cuz WHO DOES THAT? so yeah. anyway. i have so much to review on. but obviously i cant remember all of them. if you want me to talk about something, just say it, tell me however you find convenient. i'll do it!!
anyway this week. whats new this week? nothing much. just spent monday and tuesday in school working on my final year project for school. then i found out that my design that i've been working on doesnt work at all. so i had to scrap that off. i had so many other designs but they werent accepted by my group leader. soon i ran out of ideas and then that was my last one. and it didnt work. thanks to asfa though. he managed to whack out one idea, and im just gonna use his. i have no more ideas since i spotted similiarities in my different designs already.
after giving up (tuesday), i went to the school's track/field, and ran 2.4km in preparation for my NAPFA coming up in mid-november. then i did pull-ups too. I SUCK AT IT NOW. super unfit now. i could do so much better at pull-ups when i was younger...but my running is better now though lol. timed 13:30mins in 2010 and now i clocked 11:42mins for the same distance, 3 years later. considering that i didnt really train for it a lot...i just joined the karate club. i guess that helps. i wont talk about my pull-ups since it really is horrible. i trained with my buddy from karate too and he helped me improve. but we dont do it anymore so that sucks. and i deproved. A LOT. okay? im not kidding and its not cool!! i only have one month to train up my whole body to score a gold (i hope).
im confident in my shuttle run. i timed 9.4seconds a few months (like....2months? 1?) ago and that already is an A. i suck at standing broad jump (why do we even need to do this anyway?), sit ups shouldnt be a big problem for me; i probably will get an A or a B for that. sit and reach....cheat lah. though im super unflexible. i have ALWAYS been.
then...slacked at home for the rest of the week. caught up on my drama. prepared sunday school lesson for the Gospel Principles class. then on saturday morning, went out with my relatives to visit my great-granddad's and mom's ashes at the columbarium. quiet a good number of tears were shed (not by me because i never met them) but by my aunts and uncles and my grandma too. even my dad lol wow i never saw him cry before. well he didnt cry...he just...uh nvm.
then we went for lunch together nearby. took more than i did just so people wont say "sam why you eat so little". added so much chili too hehehe <3 then we all split up. some went to start the karaoke session at my aunt's, but i went back home with mom cuz we were tired. dad went for stake ym soccer. got back home and played TF2 LOL. no rest. then went back out again with mom to my aunt's to have dinner and karaoke. at the end, we all sang a song each and had it recorded. its gonna be sent to my other relatives in the states and then theyre gonna judge who is the best. im darn sure im not gonna win cuz i hadnt been listening to buble's song very often recently so i lost touch with his songs. PLUS since they were recording it, i guess it made me nervous. had a few mistakes here and there and so i really messed it up. oh well. not that winning is important anyway.
spent the other time there with my nephew and niece. dang theyre a handful already. they wanna play all the time and dont wanna eat their dinner. and there was that stupid ipad that they kept asking me to play. i ended up saying "if you dont eat your dinner im not gonna play" so yeah they EVENTUALLY finished up their dinner. nathaneal and olivia. cute kids, a handful, but still cute. i love it when they come to church.
SORRY no pictures of them. no itouch = no front facing camera.
so la di da. we reached home at 1.30am cuz one of my uncle drove my whole fam back.
today's sunday school lesson that i prepared was good. i tried a new way of teaching chapter 29 "The Lord's Law of Health". basically i had the class follow Daniel chapter 1 throughout the whole lesson. worked wonders :) the Sisters said i did an awesome job. i think so too!! XD see what inspiration does? plus i was prepared for the lesson, so that's good :)
then i stayed back after church to help krystine figure out some of her flute scores. managed to do a bit only though we spent like 1.5hours together lol. i was so tired that i ended up falling asleep beside her WTS. she continued practicing though. thats good. i wasnt really too excited about her practicing on fast sunday since its more tiring, but she wanted to anyway. so who am i to stop her. figured about the harder parts for her, so i think that's good.
went back home after that, chilled for 30minutes before i had to head back out to church once again for stake choir practice. blablabla nothing much happened but in the end i made a suggestion to sister aldrin and she said she'd think about it.
and ying er was so good on the organ and piano!! im freaking jealous sia im like trying to tell her that she's freakin awesome and she goes like "was fumbling around quite a bit" and in my head i was like "OI HELLO YOU ARE AWESOME OKAY FUMBLE AROUND OR NOT IS NOT IMPORTANT BECAUSE YOU ARE AWESOME" oh but anyway. we cant wait for conference since im sure its gonna be as awesome as it always has been.
so...had popcorn before leaving stake centre. didnt eat a lot since it was salted. i dont like salted popcorn. i only like the sugared one.
then. POOF here i am. i had my dinner already. and im finishing the ice-cream in my bowl now. hahhaha NO PICTURES AGAIN because my nokia phone doesnt have the blogger app. it has 3rd party ones but i cant post. only can manage. super dumb sia i tell you.
ANYWAY. YEAH. i have this stupid fyp presentation tmr and my group only found out last night. presentation slot is at 10.45am and so im gonna be there at idk what time. gonna bring my flute to school too in case we decide to stay back after the presentation for a long time, so i can just go straight to mr goh's workplace and show him my flute. there's something wrong with the headpiece. it doesnt fit into the body well. it jams up. and im super scared because i've used it only like <10 times anywhere ever since i bought it.
so sad.
really very sad.
my poor flute :'(
its been FOREVER since i last blogged. thats more than a month ago. okay maybe 3weeks. been so long /that i've seen your face, tryna be strong/ because i lost my itouch: the one and only thing that i blog on other than my laptop (though i dont really have much privacy since mom sits beside my table). no time to blog in school either cuz WHO DOES THAT? so yeah. anyway. i have so much to review on. but obviously i cant remember all of them. if you want me to talk about something, just say it, tell me however you find convenient. i'll do it!!
anyway this week. whats new this week? nothing much. just spent monday and tuesday in school working on my final year project for school. then i found out that my design that i've been working on doesnt work at all. so i had to scrap that off. i had so many other designs but they werent accepted by my group leader. soon i ran out of ideas and then that was my last one. and it didnt work. thanks to asfa though. he managed to whack out one idea, and im just gonna use his. i have no more ideas since i spotted similiarities in my different designs already.
after giving up (tuesday), i went to the school's track/field, and ran 2.4km in preparation for my NAPFA coming up in mid-november. then i did pull-ups too. I SUCK AT IT NOW. super unfit now. i could do so much better at pull-ups when i was younger...but my running is better now though lol. timed 13:30mins in 2010 and now i clocked 11:42mins for the same distance, 3 years later. considering that i didnt really train for it a lot...i just joined the karate club. i guess that helps. i wont talk about my pull-ups since it really is horrible. i trained with my buddy from karate too and he helped me improve. but we dont do it anymore so that sucks. and i deproved. A LOT. okay? im not kidding and its not cool!! i only have one month to train up my whole body to score a gold (i hope).
im confident in my shuttle run. i timed 9.4seconds a few months (like....2months? 1?) ago and that already is an A. i suck at standing broad jump (why do we even need to do this anyway?), sit ups shouldnt be a big problem for me; i probably will get an A or a B for that. sit and reach....cheat lah. though im super unflexible. i have ALWAYS been.
then...slacked at home for the rest of the week. caught up on my drama. prepared sunday school lesson for the Gospel Principles class. then on saturday morning, went out with my relatives to visit my great-granddad's and mom's ashes at the columbarium. quiet a good number of tears were shed (not by me because i never met them) but by my aunts and uncles and my grandma too. even my dad lol wow i never saw him cry before. well he didnt cry...he just...uh nvm.
then we went for lunch together nearby. took more than i did just so people wont say "sam why you eat so little". added so much chili too hehehe <3 then we all split up. some went to start the karaoke session at my aunt's, but i went back home with mom cuz we were tired. dad went for stake ym soccer. got back home and played TF2 LOL. no rest. then went back out again with mom to my aunt's to have dinner and karaoke. at the end, we all sang a song each and had it recorded. its gonna be sent to my other relatives in the states and then theyre gonna judge who is the best. im darn sure im not gonna win cuz i hadnt been listening to buble's song very often recently so i lost touch with his songs. PLUS since they were recording it, i guess it made me nervous. had a few mistakes here and there and so i really messed it up. oh well. not that winning is important anyway.
spent the other time there with my nephew and niece. dang theyre a handful already. they wanna play all the time and dont wanna eat their dinner. and there was that stupid ipad that they kept asking me to play. i ended up saying "if you dont eat your dinner im not gonna play" so yeah they EVENTUALLY finished up their dinner. nathaneal and olivia. cute kids, a handful, but still cute. i love it when they come to church.
SORRY no pictures of them. no itouch = no front facing camera.
so la di da. we reached home at 1.30am cuz one of my uncle drove my whole fam back.
today's sunday school lesson that i prepared was good. i tried a new way of teaching chapter 29 "The Lord's Law of Health". basically i had the class follow Daniel chapter 1 throughout the whole lesson. worked wonders :) the Sisters said i did an awesome job. i think so too!! XD see what inspiration does? plus i was prepared for the lesson, so that's good :)
then i stayed back after church to help krystine figure out some of her flute scores. managed to do a bit only though we spent like 1.5hours together lol. i was so tired that i ended up falling asleep beside her WTS. she continued practicing though. thats good. i wasnt really too excited about her practicing on fast sunday since its more tiring, but she wanted to anyway. so who am i to stop her. figured about the harder parts for her, so i think that's good.
went back home after that, chilled for 30minutes before i had to head back out to church once again for stake choir practice. blablabla nothing much happened but in the end i made a suggestion to sister aldrin and she said she'd think about it.
and ying er was so good on the organ and piano!! im freaking jealous sia im like trying to tell her that she's freakin awesome and she goes like "was fumbling around quite a bit" and in my head i was like "OI HELLO YOU ARE AWESOME OKAY FUMBLE AROUND OR NOT IS NOT IMPORTANT BECAUSE YOU ARE AWESOME" oh but anyway. we cant wait for conference since im sure its gonna be as awesome as it always has been.
so...had popcorn before leaving stake centre. didnt eat a lot since it was salted. i dont like salted popcorn. i only like the sugared one.
then. POOF here i am. i had my dinner already. and im finishing the ice-cream in my bowl now. hahhaha NO PICTURES AGAIN because my nokia phone doesnt have the blogger app. it has 3rd party ones but i cant post. only can manage. super dumb sia i tell you.
ANYWAY. YEAH. i have this stupid fyp presentation tmr and my group only found out last night. presentation slot is at 10.45am and so im gonna be there at idk what time. gonna bring my flute to school too in case we decide to stay back after the presentation for a long time, so i can just go straight to mr goh's workplace and show him my flute. there's something wrong with the headpiece. it doesnt fit into the body well. it jams up. and im super scared because i've used it only like <10 times anywhere ever since i bought it.
so sad.
really very sad.
my poor flute :'(
Saturday, 7 September 2013
COMEX COMETS OH NETS
went to comex today in the hopes of looking (and possibly buying) a lens for my D7k. and accessories too: vertical grip, remote, a hotshoe stand for an external mic for mr chong, a new eyepiece. i saw ND filters too but i dont know if i'll ever need to use them. they were going at $100ish. sigh. its just a filter....
and heck the whole comex is so small. two halls only. last time was bigger sia...now got so many people, so packed. can stand there and dig nose also sia -.- but i spent the whole time there listening to my own music since i dont like to hear people screaming and shouting over their speakers. so noisy.
anyway. the whole place doesnt have ONE PERSON selling lowerpro bags. SO DISAPPOINTED. they have vanguard but i really dont understand vanguard's bag designs. so weird. i opened up one bag and DANG i love lowerpro so much more now. it seems like as if vanguard just makes fancy designs for aesthetics. but does it work well? heck no. if i need to take out my camera in a jiffy, i would need like a few hours to open the vanguard LOL.
and thats not just it. Nikon's booth didnt sell lenses alone. im like.....DUDE? okay what about accessories. DONT HAVE ALSO. WALAO EH /FLIP TABLE/ SIA WALAO EH they just sell kits. its so dumb!! why sell kits only? and no accessories? what are you guys thinking!! sigh.
then i scouted Asus for kor. he wanted to check price for 2 laptop models. this pretty pretty prettyyyyyyyyy salesperson came up to me and asked if i needed help aiyoh she so pretty. anyway. found out that one model is discontinued, and the other one is like 2.1k. can upgrade to have a 3D capable screen sia walao eh. but the specs are impressive really. anyway. i asked all the questions i need then talked to kor over skype through a phone call to home. basket he can get the discontinued model for 900USD sia wts i asked the salesgirl and she said probably around 1.5 ohmygosh.
yeah lorh. oh yeah went bowling in the morning with the ward EQ. i went late lol so i missed one game. they played another and i joined in for that one :P i scored like 50-something lol im the noobest there!! but i found who can play. ELDER MOORE THAT COOL DUDE. his swing is like.....VWOOSH. bro roger also super pro. paul too. elder rasmussen not bad too. arvie also!! geno too hahaha. walao what is this sia im playing with all the high flyers wth.
yeah....
oh and i got the confirmation email from pres kwan already on which watermark the stake will use for now and forever. woohoo~ but that means more work to do LOL so i'll have to just watermark the pictures...mathias' ones and mine. that bro vince...sorry ah but his pictures really suck. it feels like as if he took his pictures using a phone camera aka point and shoot. i should have seen what camera he used...his pictures are so bad that i really dont know if i wanna use ANY of them :( really sorry bro but your equipment is important too. you can have the creativity and all but if your equipment cannot help you get the pictures you want, then thats really sia suay.
sigh.
anyway. one day i heard this song randomly playing on my iTouch while on shuffle mode.
so yeah.
and heck the whole comex is so small. two halls only. last time was bigger sia...now got so many people, so packed. can stand there and dig nose also sia -.- but i spent the whole time there listening to my own music since i dont like to hear people screaming and shouting over their speakers. so noisy.
anyway. the whole place doesnt have ONE PERSON selling lowerpro bags. SO DISAPPOINTED. they have vanguard but i really dont understand vanguard's bag designs. so weird. i opened up one bag and DANG i love lowerpro so much more now. it seems like as if vanguard just makes fancy designs for aesthetics. but does it work well? heck no. if i need to take out my camera in a jiffy, i would need like a few hours to open the vanguard LOL.
and thats not just it. Nikon's booth didnt sell lenses alone. im like.....DUDE? okay what about accessories. DONT HAVE ALSO. WALAO EH /FLIP TABLE/ SIA WALAO EH they just sell kits. its so dumb!! why sell kits only? and no accessories? what are you guys thinking!! sigh.
then i scouted Asus for kor. he wanted to check price for 2 laptop models. this pretty pretty prettyyyyyyyyy salesperson came up to me and asked if i needed help aiyoh she so pretty. anyway. found out that one model is discontinued, and the other one is like 2.1k. can upgrade to have a 3D capable screen sia walao eh. but the specs are impressive really. anyway. i asked all the questions i need then talked to kor over skype through a phone call to home. basket he can get the discontinued model for 900USD sia wts i asked the salesgirl and she said probably around 1.5 ohmygosh.
yeah lorh. oh yeah went bowling in the morning with the ward EQ. i went late lol so i missed one game. they played another and i joined in for that one :P i scored like 50-something lol im the noobest there!! but i found who can play. ELDER MOORE THAT COOL DUDE. his swing is like.....VWOOSH. bro roger also super pro. paul too. elder rasmussen not bad too. arvie also!! geno too hahaha. walao what is this sia im playing with all the high flyers wth.
yeah....
oh and i got the confirmation email from pres kwan already on which watermark the stake will use for now and forever. woohoo~ but that means more work to do LOL so i'll have to just watermark the pictures...mathias' ones and mine. that bro vince...sorry ah but his pictures really suck. it feels like as if he took his pictures using a phone camera aka point and shoot. i should have seen what camera he used...his pictures are so bad that i really dont know if i wanna use ANY of them :( really sorry bro but your equipment is important too. you can have the creativity and all but if your equipment cannot help you get the pictures you want, then thats really sia suay.
sigh.
anyway. one day i heard this song randomly playing on my iTouch while on shuffle mode.
so yeah.
Friday, 6 September 2013
아파야
So two nights ago (Tuesday night) I was talking to Jaina on whatsapp after she replied to one of my tweets. Told her what happened. So she's the second one to know. Ming is the first. Ahhh a really great friend. Since I had a long and tiring day, I was tired already. Thankfully we were pretty much done talking. I tweeted her saying that she's a treasured friend but somehow twitter didn't tag her. Anyway I totally don't recall tweeting that and only found out only after I woke up. And she said "thank you" so formally idk why. But idk. Nothing wrong with that either.
But I'm grateful for her. She offered advice and counsel, a shoulder and a listening ear. What I needed most at that time. Wednesday was the best day ever since. Went to institute right after work. Managed to make it just in time. The lesson was really good. Brother Charlie so cute and funny :)
Went home with the woodlands ward people. Hui yi too. Arvie, ezra T, abish, hyrum, Bea, me. Which reminds me: it's a wonderful to entrust a vulnerable part of you to another person you can rely on. People who defend you, keep you safe, make you happy.
And Thursday was good too. I somewhat took "off" from work and visited my secondary school. Too bad I was late. Coming from SP after working on a CAD drawing, most of the teachers left already, except a few who had meeting to attend. Met up first with my section at the canteen and played charades until gillian arrived. Amirah, Roi, Hui Jie, And me. Cake from the basketball team was given to me when KC Ann asked if I wanted any lol. I was like lol yeah okay lorh XD
When gillian arrived, we met her outside school so she wouldn't need to sign in. We had lunch altogether at the shop right below Khatib mrt station. Roi didn't have money so I lent him some. We shifted a table over so that all 6 of us could sit together. Then we went back to school, took a group picture in the canteen with the biiiiiiig poster of Alison lol. My camera and the two Polaroids owned by Amirah and Gillian. Hui Jie and Putri had ACE so they left first. The rest of us headed to the staff room and summonnnnnned our teachers lol too bad only Matthews came out. We talked and then I got a picture taken with her. Glad she still remembers me (I don't think she could forget any of us sia lol we were so rebel). We laughed over old memories as if they were decades old.
Then she has to go settle some stuff and so she went back into the staff room. The 4 of us (Amirah, Roi, Gillian and me) started talking about school, band members, exco. Things have changed so much...
Then we all left at around 4pm since gillian needed to e at somerset at 5pm. Bumped into Tiffany Halim at the train platform and so we took the train back with her. Talked about council and band lol and she was saying how awkward and weird some of her juniors are lol so funny.
Reached home and chilled all the way. Watched 2 full episodes of Good Doctor, played TF2 for a while. My day is made. Too bad I would need to go to work the next time I wake up...
Anyway. Work has been good to me, aside from all the cuts i get on my fingers and cuticles and lower arm and all that horrible DUST. It gives me money for doing repetitive things and some time to think about things, since we don't usually talk while doing our stuff. I learned how to operate this tool. Pretty cool and simple. Too bad I don't know the name, nor did I get a picture of it. All I know is that it's the manual forklift. I asked the FT packers if I could learn the electrical forklift though. You know, the one with the driver... But I'll need to be sent by the company to the course. And since I'm a temp packing staff, it's gonna be totally unrelated to me. So, most likely I won't be learning it. Though just by watching the operators, I pretty much figured out how to work it LOL. 3 sticks: the one of the left is to control the elevation of the fork. The one in the middle controls the forward and backward tilt of the fork itself. The one on the right is to control the lateral displacement of the fork. So yeah. I don't know how to get the forklift to reverse though. I don't see them moving any other stick for that...maybe it's a pedal. But idk. There are only 2 pedals that I saw, which is probably the accelerator and the brake. Or it could be the accelerator and the reverse pedal. While deccelerating (when the accelerator is released), the reverse pedal acts as a brake. While stationary, it will be the reverse pedal. I don't know, I'm just guessing.
But I still wanna learn it. Idk...maybe talk to one of the office staff. Although that would be super inappropriate and unreasonable... :( haiyah I talked to the full time packers that I'm working with about it...and the vibes I get from them is that they want me to stay with them since they need the extra help...sigh.
I'm off tomorrow, just like how everyone else is. So glad that I'm finally called out for a missionary discussion with one of our investigators. It's been too long!! :( but it's the third lesson lol I have NEVER taught that lesson before. Just the first two only...hope I prepare well enough for it though!! :)
What's there left to say?
웨대다비없어
내맘이아파
하지마
-백지영
Just a while ago I was doing good, but now I'm back at it again. Don't bedek lah Sam.
Thursday, 29 August 2013
Now now child.
I wanna get into a fight
Or a sparring session at least
Just to wake myself up
Because I've been oblivious
To all the madness
That I now see all around me
Knowing that I'm part of it all
Because that's what we all are.
I wanna get into a fight
Or a sparring session at least
To recall what it was like
To get beaten down
To recall that I'm vulnerable
That I'm not all that great
To realize that there's always
A bigger fish
And also perhaps a bigger fist
And also about the bigger loser.
I wanna get into a fight
Or a sparring session at least
To feel all sweaty and slimy again
Knowing that there's a reason
To why I do things
Also to be back to my old self
I miss the old Sam
He is so different
From the Sam that we all know.
Someone kidnapped him
And placed a robot
In his place
In his heart
In his mind
In his body.
I wanna get into a fight
Or a sparring session at least
To be with my friends
To be with Kevin
The one who's been with me
For the past few years
During training
Going out for dinners
Telling each other the secrets
That no one else would know
Because we trust each other so much
And because we help each other
Through the thick and thin
And offer advice to each other
Through our different views of the world
And of life
So we always come out stronger
Than when we entered.
I wanna get into a fight
Or a sparring session at least
To know that you've gotta
Fend for yourself
Not because no one is gonna be there
For you all the time
And not because people are
Gonna leave you
But because if you can't
Fend for yourself
There's no one that
You can really fend for
Without compromising your safety
And that is something
That nobody wants.
I miss being the old me.
But sometimes I feel.
That the current me.
Will always.
Be better.
Than the old.
Me.
Wednesday, 28 August 2013
Long day. But fruitful.
Okay yesterday was quite a day. I woke up late so I ha to rush over to SP for FYP meeting. While on the way, I found out that Matthew isn't coming, and that it's only me and Zi Cong. Lol okay can. So Ireached at 1050hrs, when I should have been there at 0900hrs. Took my time to settle down, then began on the design that I needed to work on. It's supposed to be a box that holds all out electrical components. Took me quite some time since there were a lot of unknowns. But I got one down and started drawing it on Inventor.
Jaina came along and she sat beside me and we started talking. She kept saying she was so tired. Now that I think about it, I should have asked her why. Yeah, I didn't. I will, next time. Talked about kpop and KMW, whether I'm going or not, and which ticket he should get. Man, everybody's asking if I'm going for KMW or not sia. I wonder myself too...
I find that I'm losing my enthusiasm to cover events. I don't remember the dates and who is coming too. I don't keep track of events as much as I used to in the past. Picture uploading is slower too..I promised pictures but I haven't delivered yet. Sigh...what's going onnnnnnnn.
Ohyeah and Alan passed me the access card for the bioengineering lab which will be in my (or the group's) possession until the end of the academic yet. But it's signed under my name...so...it's technically mine. Lol.
Anyway. Jaina went back to her group so I continue on with my drawing. Zi Cong left early so I was on my own. I did a bit more, then left also. That was around 1400hrs. Headed to Khatib by circle line then had my lunch at NBSS. Basket sia the stupid security guard rude like siao ah. He doesn't know I come back often and so he treats me like a terrorist. "Come here for what, name, surname". I did my best to be friendly to him though -.- headed over to the canteen to see my favorite stall aunties. They were closing already, but they stopped and talked to me :') and they still remember my name!! Hahaha I shall take a picture with them next time I go back :) since they didn't have food I had to go to the only stall that was open and ordered carrot cake. Had one plate, and since I might not be having dinner on time, I had another plate.
Please don't let me eat carrot cake again for the next few months. It was a bad experience.
Once I was done with that, I headed up to the band room, and put down my camera bag. Said hi to the conductors, then went to meeting section. Putri knew I was visiting today, and I wanted to surprise the juniors so I didn't tell them. Hahaha poor Amirah. She wanted to get a picture with the section with me included. Daaaaaang I should have said I was coming. Lol.
The new member was Yan Mei as I found out. Background info: sec 1, played the clarinet first, then swapped over to our section after Putri fought for her LOL. She does quite well. Her tone isn't as fantastic as what was claimed to be, but she can play well. 2months and she has memorized the Bb finger scale, and she can read the first octave. She couldn't play consecutive notes in the same breath. That's the problem that I was told. Somehow, all my junior can't yeah her how. So I taught her once, let her make a two tries, and then poof she could do it lol. My juniors refer to me as the master teacher but I'm like LOL HELLO NO IM NOT LORH LOL. Anyway. At least that problem was solved.
Anyway. They had a new piece to play, "Celebrata". So I covered the first 24 bars with them. They had like 8 bars of rest at te beginning, played a trill, then a complimentary. So yeah. I saw pretty Sherrie walking by and so I called out to her. She stood outside the room, right at the glass widows, looking in, watching me teach the section lol. After a while she came in and let us listen to the song (she downloaded it I guess) and then I was like 'whoa the tempo so fast lol' but good thing I had things pretty much up to the tempo with the flutes even before listening to the track. So I plugged in her iPhone 5 to the PA system in the classroom and played it over the speakers lol. NICE SONG.
Once we got the tempo, I sped the section up to match the tempo for the same bars that I had them working on. Once that was done, it was already 1700hrs. I had my last few run throughs with them then I left. At the band room to get my bag, Mr Goh talked to me a bit about taking flute exams. He said that I should be entering at Grade 5, based on my standard. But of course that is the practical part. I asked him about he theory, and he said he could teach me those. But he's free only on Saturday mornings. Which I totally fine with. But whether I wanna take the exam or not, different thing.
I'm just a casual performer, I don't know whether getting a "license" (as I see it as) would be beneficial to me or not. Sure, if I were to play in a community band then yeah it migh come in handy. But I don't know about that yet. So far, I'm just playing for my own enjoyment, and when the ward/stake choir needs a flautist. Well, something to think about. He said that if I want, he can get the exam piece for me, practice for it, and let me take the exam, while he teaches me the theory Saturday mornings.
We decided to talk further on whatsapp. With that, I left, and headed to the bus stop where I would take 2 buses to get to MBS Convention Centre for Etude House Pink Play Party where SHINee and Sulli will be at. I waited for 40minutes, only to find out that the bus only serves in the morning. Made my way to the train station and met wming on the way. Went up to the station, and then I left first since my train arrived.
Reached MBS hotel/towers, then asked for directions at the Concierge, got directed back to where I came from. Partly though. Crossed the road to the Shoppes area then headed to Hall C. Saw trish there. She's with some media company (idc so I didn't bother asking who) so I registered first. I went in immediately (she had to wait for her ticket cue #okcan) then met up with syah, and stationed beside her on a black standee. Some drama with the security but after a while we were good. She gave the business card of someone she knows from ST (she was writing for the online forum so yeah) then she got a CREW pass. Heck syah next time help me get one ah lol.
Soon the event started. Ross was (lol rhyme) hosting the event. SHINee hasn't even made an appearance when I saw security standing in an emptied out circle. Saw some fans beside them fanning someone who apparently was on the floor. Security got a bottled water and have it to the person. My guess, the person fainted. Probably the warmth got to her. When she was wheeled away, she was all sweaty, so that pretty much confirmed my guess.
SHINee came up, Sulli too. Got 449 pictures or so. A good decent number. I had to keep changing my settings because the lighting kept changing. I didn't have a media pass either so it was tough using my heavy 80-200 to get shots.
Btw I wanna get a new lens. Something that reaches up to 400mm. I think Nikon has a 200-400 f4 I think...it's a constant ap so that's good. But I wish it were f2.8 or lower lol. But that means more money. Which is hard to get. Anyway. It's on my wish list.
Event ended and I met up with Geok Lan and her friends from online. All fans of SHINee. They're a bit auntie so i was glad that they decided to take the bus from dhoby while Geok Lan and I took the train back. We both alighted at marsiling, and she took the bus back from there. I chatted with her till her bus arrived.
By the time I reached home, it was already 2250hrs. But oh well it was nice catching up with Geok Lan aka angel. Supposedly she's the angel and I'm a devil (cuz I keep disturbing her and Frances lol) -.- she's still the same even after all these years. I miss the old Digiphoto team. Everybody's gone, and I'm the only one left who is still listed as their employee, even though I have not worked for them in a year. I guess it's the skills I have that makes them want to keep me. Though I'm bad with money.
Got back home, with that dumb pink bag that was given to all the participants of the event. I'm not planning to keep ANY of them, so I'm giving them to mom/jie and to Natalie, since I know how much of a fangirl she is for Taemin. Too bad the merchandises weren't so SHINee related..just some here and there, but nothing about Taemin.
Pictures will be up. I promise. Because I have time, and I'm in the mood for it. Plus there are just a few pictures. 500 tops.
Yeahhhh I'll do them.
Changed my wallpaper.
I miss that night.
Monday, 26 August 2013
lets play in the rain. since the feeling doesnt go away.
its been 4 days since the last of my exams this semester. feeling so much less-burdened by it, now that its over. i've been working on my Beyond 5 pictures and the watermark for the Stake. and i've been playing quite a fair bit too. so far i have 50plus pictures of Beyond 5 concert, about 16 for Beats And Pieces, (oh i havent gone through the fanmeet ones yet...) and 9 for the soundcheck. i also have 6 designs for the watermark. gonna compile mine with mathias' and then we'll decide on the top few, then send them to the Stake to decide which ones they wanna use. hope it all works out well. once that is done, we'll proceed with the uploading of the watermarked pictures and then we'll publish them everywhere.
i wonder what its like to have a calling as a Stake Photographer. LOL. that's one slacker calling ah. probably one that lasts a lifetime hahahaha. but when events come along, they'll call and i'd be busy. i wonder if stake photographers are called to shoot for weddings for members. and i wonder if im gonna get paid for it. but i'd have to set up a contract first, and that is the risky part. im hesitant about wedding photography. VERY HESITANT. i dont wanna get sued broke man. say bye to my mission fund.
if the photography takes us places, i guess only mathias and i will be in the team. sorry, the other photographer's pictures really didnt make the cut. i dont even think he used a DSLR. they're so grainy and OOF and so much motion blur. i dont think he edited them either. but if he did, it doesnt make much difference. im still waiting for the video clips of Beats And Pieces because Ying Er requested for them. its been about a week or so and i still dont have it. i cant contact the videographer. he probably gets my mails and texts but doesnt wanna reply. okay lorh...
communication and teamwork is so important.
maybe they dont take me seriously because im younger than them.
but they dont know all the pictures i have under my belt.
and the quality of them.
too bad i dont have a large audience to back that up.
thats pretty awful to know.
HIGHJACK.
HIJACK.
JACK.
JACK'S PLACE.
im hungry now.
its raining right now, wonderful cool weather. i wanna go places but i dont know where to go. i guess i should go on a photoshoot of my own. i wanna get pictures of the rain.
Etude House Pink Play Party tomorrow, and my kit lens has mould. i wanna cry. i hope it doesnt mess up my pictures (though i think it already has). i needa send it in for repair and cleaning asap :( probably after A-PRINCE though. they're coming this friday. i think saturday too. oh and eva's gone already i guess. she still thinks it amazing that i know Ohio State University lol. is it really that much of a mystery?
met claire yesterday. i went down after my sacrament lol. i forgot that 2nd ward starts at 10am and not 9am. so when i went down, obviously there wasnt anybody. walao then bro charlie saw me waiting at the carpark then asked me "so sam who's the girl". a while later, bishop yow came along and said "sam waiting for your girlfriend ah" im like WHOA. he knows....? O.O
but anyway. i went up to gospel principles class. once that was done we moved on to the final hour for EQ class. midway, i got a message from an unknown number, but it was claire, saying that she'd be leaving in 2minutes. i rushed down but the stupid door wouldnt open even after pressing the release button a million times. i saw her send a text, and started walking. my phone vibrated. message received. didnt check and then made the big round by the rear door, and that took extra time. i ran out but managed to catch her before she crossed the road. passed her the bracelet i got from van, and the letter i wrote for her. she said she was late so i told her to go quickly. i didnt have time to watch her go or send her off to the mrt since i left in the middle of class, so i went back.
time flies. five months.
i wonder what we'd be like if things were better.
so far the only one who knows is wong ming. he's been there for me throughout. great guy. i dont plan to publish it to a lot of people. there's like no way for me to repay him sia he's better than me in almost everything. almost. i guess. but that 'almost' pretty much encompasses 'everything' too.
i dont show it, but im still hanging on to nothing.
heh. getting over it isnt as simple as i thought it would be.
how long is this longing feeling gonna last, i wonder.
i wonder what its like to have a calling as a Stake Photographer. LOL. that's one slacker calling ah. probably one that lasts a lifetime hahahaha. but when events come along, they'll call and i'd be busy. i wonder if stake photographers are called to shoot for weddings for members. and i wonder if im gonna get paid for it. but i'd have to set up a contract first, and that is the risky part. im hesitant about wedding photography. VERY HESITANT. i dont wanna get sued broke man. say bye to my mission fund.
if the photography takes us places, i guess only mathias and i will be in the team. sorry, the other photographer's pictures really didnt make the cut. i dont even think he used a DSLR. they're so grainy and OOF and so much motion blur. i dont think he edited them either. but if he did, it doesnt make much difference. im still waiting for the video clips of Beats And Pieces because Ying Er requested for them. its been about a week or so and i still dont have it. i cant contact the videographer. he probably gets my mails and texts but doesnt wanna reply. okay lorh...
communication and teamwork is so important.
maybe they dont take me seriously because im younger than them.
but they dont know all the pictures i have under my belt.
and the quality of them.
too bad i dont have a large audience to back that up.
thats pretty awful to know.
HIGHJACK.
HIJACK.
JACK.
JACK'S PLACE.
im hungry now.
its raining right now, wonderful cool weather. i wanna go places but i dont know where to go. i guess i should go on a photoshoot of my own. i wanna get pictures of the rain.
Etude House Pink Play Party tomorrow, and my kit lens has mould. i wanna cry. i hope it doesnt mess up my pictures (though i think it already has). i needa send it in for repair and cleaning asap :( probably after A-PRINCE though. they're coming this friday. i think saturday too. oh and eva's gone already i guess. she still thinks it amazing that i know Ohio State University lol. is it really that much of a mystery?
met claire yesterday. i went down after my sacrament lol. i forgot that 2nd ward starts at 10am and not 9am. so when i went down, obviously there wasnt anybody. walao then bro charlie saw me waiting at the carpark then asked me "so sam who's the girl". a while later, bishop yow came along and said "sam waiting for your girlfriend ah" im like WHOA. he knows....? O.O
but anyway. i went up to gospel principles class. once that was done we moved on to the final hour for EQ class. midway, i got a message from an unknown number, but it was claire, saying that she'd be leaving in 2minutes. i rushed down but the stupid door wouldnt open even after pressing the release button a million times. i saw her send a text, and started walking. my phone vibrated. message received. didnt check and then made the big round by the rear door, and that took extra time. i ran out but managed to catch her before she crossed the road. passed her the bracelet i got from van, and the letter i wrote for her. she said she was late so i told her to go quickly. i didnt have time to watch her go or send her off to the mrt since i left in the middle of class, so i went back.
time flies. five months.
i wonder what we'd be like if things were better.
so far the only one who knows is wong ming. he's been there for me throughout. great guy. i dont plan to publish it to a lot of people. there's like no way for me to repay him sia he's better than me in almost everything. almost. i guess. but that 'almost' pretty much encompasses 'everything' too.
i dont show it, but im still hanging on to nothing.
heh. getting over it isnt as simple as i thought it would be.
how long is this longing feeling gonna last, i wonder.
Tuesday, 20 August 2013
Shglslyb HDTV
I recall having two dreams last night (sunday night) when I woke up. First one took place in SP Moberly, level 3. I was training with the dojo again. I met Danielle and yi yan, and I remember saying "wow I'm still welcome here". After that, next dream.
Fast one right lol.
This one is a bit lengthier. I only remember 2 parts now, but I'm sure it was longer than this. Firstly, I was with my flute section. We were in some place in China for a competition or something official along those lines. I was a chaperon of some kind, but definitely a high-ranking guy. My juniors were ordering food while seates at a round and there was this guy telling them to pay 500yuan. They kept saying no, but I stepped in and said "200yuan" (or whatever you call their currency). The guy turned around from his stopping posture, gave me a small glare, and said "okay fine, 200yuan" and then walked away. One of my juniors beckoned me closer and so I leaned forward. She said that he guy just now had something up his sleee - literally. When he came back, I took more special notice of his wright wrist. And that's where I saw the blade.
It was a thin blade, one that could cut for sure. The next thing I knew, we were fighting already lol. But this is where I woke up.
Bopian ah. Got exam.
Wednesday, 14 August 2013
WERD DAE
well.
stayed back today to do DBD slides for friday's presentation after we ended school at 1130hrs. ongfr took the extra half hour to explain more questions. im pretty much dead for his paper on tuesday. i dont understand 80% of all his stuff.
monday is RPBA
tuesday is BIOMECH
wednesday is BIOMAT.
im fine with biomaterials. RPBA....a lot to remember. biomech...calculations everywhere that makes me wanna cry. and all that stupid theory here and there. goshhhhhhhhhhhhh. GPA gonna be pulled down because of that stupid module. 4 credits sia. tsk. hope molgenbio saves me at least.
anyway. the slides are pretty much done. missing quite a number of stuff but considering what we had on hand, we did quite well. zicong did all the work while i was talking to matthew about his isokinetic project -.- im so baddddd.
once that was done, i had him send it over to me, then we left. matthew stayed back to do what he could for the project report. we met jess on the bridge, saw dawn leave to take the bus and then caught up with van while she was just about to go up the escalator. said hi to her abruptly and she said "whoa that scared me" and i was like LOLOKAY in my head. since the train already arrived i was going up the escalator, she just stood there. then on second thought, she rushed up the escalator with zicong and me ahhahaha.
managed to get in to the train before the doors closed. and somehowwwwwwww the conversation started off with me lol. how has my relationship been going on so far, how long already, blablabla. oh well. then zicong being the zicong that he is, his weird/awkward comments started coming in (as usual) and then me and van were like HMMMOKAYYYYYYYYYY hahhahahha. i made a few retarded OKAYYYYYYyyyyy faces and van was laughing away lol wth XP
jurong east came around and so zicong and i headed over to the red line. and he started asking me questions like whats the use of a relationship, why get into one. he said that he doesnt see the need to be in a relationship and all those kind of stuff. so he asked me why why why and aaaaaaall the long shizam and so i tried my best to explain. ITS TOUGH since he doesnt have the same perspective. he's going on about "i dont need anybody else to depend on but myself" and "why do you need someone else".
he's the strong one. but i dont know, we all have our own opinions on love and stuff like that. his opinion is the strongheaded one. i told him that sooner or later, there's gonna be this one point in his life that he's gonna need someone to back up him, to support him. and he went like.."NO".
LOL. OKAY CAN.
funny how today turned out, with the recent events. talked about my relationship, my opinions on it, and what i like about my girlfriend the whole way back till he alighted at cck. the rest was all music until i saw this honey bee in the train. it flew to the empty seat on my right, sat at the top, and rested there. i observed it aaaaaaall the way until marsiling. LOL. i was a bit tempted to pick it up and drop it off at marsiling..its kinda furry~
:3
stayed back today to do DBD slides for friday's presentation after we ended school at 1130hrs. ongfr took the extra half hour to explain more questions. im pretty much dead for his paper on tuesday. i dont understand 80% of all his stuff.
monday is RPBA
tuesday is BIOMECH
wednesday is BIOMAT.
im fine with biomaterials. RPBA....a lot to remember. biomech...calculations everywhere that makes me wanna cry. and all that stupid theory here and there. goshhhhhhhhhhhhh. GPA gonna be pulled down because of that stupid module. 4 credits sia. tsk. hope molgenbio saves me at least.
anyway. the slides are pretty much done. missing quite a number of stuff but considering what we had on hand, we did quite well. zicong did all the work while i was talking to matthew about his isokinetic project -.- im so baddddd.
once that was done, i had him send it over to me, then we left. matthew stayed back to do what he could for the project report. we met jess on the bridge, saw dawn leave to take the bus and then caught up with van while she was just about to go up the escalator. said hi to her abruptly and she said "whoa that scared me" and i was like LOLOKAY in my head. since the train already arrived i was going up the escalator, she just stood there. then on second thought, she rushed up the escalator with zicong and me ahhahaha.
managed to get in to the train before the doors closed. and somehowwwwwwww the conversation started off with me lol. how has my relationship been going on so far, how long already, blablabla. oh well. then zicong being the zicong that he is, his weird/awkward comments started coming in (as usual) and then me and van were like HMMMOKAYYYYYYYYYY hahhahahha. i made a few retarded OKAYYYYYYyyyyy faces and van was laughing away lol wth XP
jurong east came around and so zicong and i headed over to the red line. and he started asking me questions like whats the use of a relationship, why get into one. he said that he doesnt see the need to be in a relationship and all those kind of stuff. so he asked me why why why and aaaaaaall the long shizam and so i tried my best to explain. ITS TOUGH since he doesnt have the same perspective. he's going on about "i dont need anybody else to depend on but myself" and "why do you need someone else".
he's the strong one. but i dont know, we all have our own opinions on love and stuff like that. his opinion is the strongheaded one. i told him that sooner or later, there's gonna be this one point in his life that he's gonna need someone to back up him, to support him. and he went like.."NO".
LOL. OKAY CAN.
funny how today turned out, with the recent events. talked about my relationship, my opinions on it, and what i like about my girlfriend the whole way back till he alighted at cck. the rest was all music until i saw this honey bee in the train. it flew to the empty seat on my right, sat at the top, and rested there. i observed it aaaaaaall the way until marsiling. LOL. i was a bit tempted to pick it up and drop it off at marsiling..its kinda furry~
:3
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