dumb[butt]

ohmygooooooooooooosh
you're getting annoying you know that.

and i have to bear with you almost everyday after school till you drop off.
its like.
SIAN AH MUST GO BACK HOME WITH YOU TODAY.
because i dont want others to say that "samuel never go home with me i feel so lonely"
and also just cuz i wanna be a good friend okay. if you wanna be alone on your way home then just plug in your earphones i understand. if you wanna talk then i'll talk with you. and with your weird comments and stuff, it really annoys the heck out of me.

then you and your claims. run 2.4km for NAPFA in 9minutes 42seconds. dude with your physique you tell me you run with that timing? even my church friend has to exercise like shit and he runs in that timing. and you tell me you "lazy to exercise" because you have "better things to do" and can still run in 9minutes. bagus.

and so you've talked someone out of suicide. okay, just so i dont smash you down, i just say "oaky okay good job". i dont even know if you really did it or not, but im just giving you the benefit of the doubt.

then today. of course i dont understand people who harm themselves. there is absolutely NO logic in it. i said that what they feel when they harm themselves is anything but "better". that it is just a temporary high. when you feel better, it is more genuine. you dont have to cut yourself (or whatever means) to feel "better" because as i said, it is either adrenaline rush, or some mind thing that you tell yourself. i have tried lying to myself and i tell you it works. it works because i have tried it. and so here people are saying that you feel better when you harm yourself? that's something that other people say and you blatantly believe.

please think.

"the best way to understand them is to have a nice long [butt] conversation with them".
hello bro. you gonna tell me that you've climbed a rainbow too?

i get sick and tired of talking to you. in all my efforts to be friendly to those around me, you top the charts because you are so hard to understand. you dont understand why people get into relationships, and when i explain, you just deny everything that i say. if you do that to me, would it not be the same if someone in depression talks to you about their problem, and you just deny everything that they say? what difference is it?



but whatever lah, okay.? im just gonna rough it out. less than six months before i graduate from school and i wont have to try so hard to be friendly anymore. i wont even have to try to reply your messages and tweets and facebook posts anymore.

period.