Now now child.

I wanna get into a fight

Or a sparring session at least

Just to wake myself up

Because I've been oblivious

To all the madness

That I now see all around me 

Knowing that I'm part of it all

Because that's what we all are. 

I wanna get into a fight

Or a sparring session at least

To recall what it was like

To get beaten down

To recall that I'm vulnerable

That I'm not all that great

To realize that there's always 

A bigger fish

And also perhaps a bigger fist

And also about the bigger loser. 

I wanna get into a fight 

Or a sparring session at least

To feel all sweaty and slimy again

Knowing that there's a reason

To why I do things

Also to be back to my old self

I miss the old Sam

He is so different

From the Sam that we all know.

Someone kidnapped him

And placed a robot

In his place

In his heart

In his mind

In his body. 

I wanna get into a fight

Or a sparring session at least

To be with my friends

To be with Kevin

The one who's been with me 

For the past few years

During training

Going out for dinners

Telling each other the secrets

That no one else would know

Because we trust each other so much

And because we help each other

Through the thick and thin

And offer advice to each other

Through our different views of the world

And of life

So we always come out stronger

Than when we entered. 

I wanna get into a fight

Or a sparring session at least

To know that you've gotta

Fend for yourself 

Not because no one is gonna be there

For you all the time

And not because people are 

Gonna leave you

But because if you can't 

Fend for yourself

There's no one that 

You can really fend for

Without compromising your safety

And that is something

That nobody wants. 

I miss being the old me. 

But sometimes I feel. 

That the current me. 

Will always. 

Be better. 

Than the old. 

Me.