ggggggrate.

it's tiring trying to be God-like when you're not.


third lecture from mom today.
but i handled this one better than the previous two.
well, at least that's improvement.
but the issue still remains.

mom, i cant possibly be able to handle situations like this. i cant, even as much as i know i should. it's tiring, it really is. i know you know it too. im grateful for how you controlled your disappointment, i really am. its just that sometimes, as you said, i dont follow what i've been taught. mistakes, yes i know, you always say that if i dont want you to tell me these things, then dont do the wrong things in the first place.

yes, i know. i know a lot of the other things that you have counseled me through the years. i know them. i know how you'd reply to what i say too. i know them because we've gone through them so many times. but i still make mistakes.

i do my best to not make the wrong choices. it's a conscious effort.



I'm trying to be like Jesus,
I'm following in His ways.
I'm trying to love as He did,
In all that I do and say.
At times I am tempted to make the wrong choice,
But I try to listen as the still small voice whispers:

"Love one another as Jesus loves you.
Try to show kindness in all that you do.
Be gentle and loving in deed and in thought,
For these are the things Jesus taught".




thank you bea for the virtual hug over twitter. i needed one :')
and thank you for the whatsapp chat. you really brightened up my night and my mood.
you certainly influenced me to change my perspective, and im grateful for that.
you're such a great friend.
im glad to have met you :)