모.라.

I don't know. 

I don't know anymore. 

I don't know what I'm supposed I be doing, what I could be doing, and what I can think to do. It's like.....messed up. 

Perhaps I haven't tried everything, but that's what's bothering me. I don't know if I've tried everything. I mean, come on, who knows when they have tried very thing, right? Inventions occur because people try everything when they sometimes think they have already tried every thing. Well, at least sometimes. 

But I'm not here to invent anything.

I'm here to live. 

I just wish things would get better. 

It's like a jail here.

On a side note. Discussing with Alison what time we're meeting up tomorrow. Gonna be my first time. I hope things go well. I hope it goes well. I don't want a bad experience to ruin everything. Then makan(?), then after that I'll go for band. Aaaaaaaaall the way till 5pm. 

Shiok ah. Then on Saturday go get flute maybe. At least just go there see see first. Good thing got Mr Goh. He's gonna get Krystine and I one each at a lower price with some of the customizations. Can't wait to try out those flutes!! But of course gonna pay him back lah. If he gonna treat us to a flute ah....i'll be like...forever indebted. Cuz I'll never be able to pay it off within the coming years. 

I can't believe that I'm still wishing for so many things. Is it a bad thing?