And so. There's here.

I guess I shouldn't rant on twitter. Spamming everybody's timeline. Sigh. I don't know why I have so many breaths to sigh out. And I've been tired lately. Like....weirdly tired at weird times if the day. 5pm, 8pm....weird. What's wrong with me. 

First day of school. Nothing much. FTT not teaching us anymore. So now we get CWS. Chong Woon Shin. I think he's our new PTN too. Ended at 1145am. Had RP lab at 10am. Went through the Eden machine. Picked up a print job beside it. And so I started removing the support material win my bear hands. Hahaha. Anyway. Got quite a fair bit out already then the lecturer passed me a chisel. So I used that. Then the other lecturer say "you like to do this ah" then I said "yeah" so he got a tub of warm water, got me another spoon-ended scalpel that looks somewhat like what those dentists use. The figurine had some deep details so the elongated blade helped there. It was fun, really. I don't mind doing it all day. But in the end I accidentally broke off the right hand. ACCIDENT. Really. Anyway. I finished the job either way. 

SingTel seemed to experience a problem. I couldn't send and receive SMSes, make calls nor receive calls from the morning until the time when I was already on the way home. Used whatsapp to communicate with Jaina about where we were gonna meet up. Matthew and Zi Cong followed since they weren't in a rush. Same group either way. Met up with Jaina after some time spent locating her. Passed her the money and she passed me the goods. Wheeeeee~

Matthew saw her contact info on my phone (before we went to meet her) and asked me "what is pupnix?" Hahahha. I was too embarrassed to tell him. Anyway. He asked her himself before we left. She said "my nickname". At least that's that. I'm glad she told him that because that nickname has a long history ahhaha. Anyway. It's better if she answered. Matthew won't ask as much compared to if he asked me. Good thing he didn't ask me on the train either. 

The past few days have been weird. Extremely weird. Nothing comforting has been happening at all. Then there's shool. Mood killer sia that one. 

Sigh. 

I often wish that I could be somewhere else, be someone else. But I can't leave this family. And I've tried being somebody else. It didn't work out well. Sigh. 

Nothing works out well for me. 

And they say to "have faith". 

Being the son of Terence and Evelyn is nothing to shout out about. Life is tough. 

Been thinking lately. And I know I can't stop. I have to keep pushing on, even if it isn't easy. Especially when it isn't easy. When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. And tough is what I wanna be. So I gotta keep going. And I will. Because I have to.