you know whats worse than being friendzoned?
BROZONED.
and i think i just got brozoned LOL.
anyway. today for ATRE, lucas was suggested to go up to the front to be a demonstration to the class, to be used by ronny tham. that goondu so shy or whatever, then he keep saying "samuel samuel go samuel no cher i dont want cher choose samuel" then i was sitting in front of him. basket sia this guy. so ronny tham eventually asked if i would mind going up (he is such a nice and gentle lecturer...and he is actually a really big shot in sp...) then i was like "sure~" then he asked me to take off my teamsp jacket.
guess what? i got a free backbone check up!! hahahahha. and he said my backbone is good!! :D and he does what he needs to do. like first before touching my waist right (to demo one of the backbone curvatures) he asked me if i mind or not. i was kinda shocked but immediately recognised that it was only procedure to ask a question as such. if i declined then he cannot touch me.
FACT. just so you know, in case you dont already.
so yeah. he's such a nice guy that i wonder if he ever takes part in politics in sp.
its like a "too good to be true" moment for me now.
though i wish he doesnt...
it would be nice
to have a
lecturer
like him
.
Friday, 25 October 2013
Tuesday, 22 October 2013
Enter Title
Lately I've been thinking a lot, and I've been keeping my eyes open a lot as well. As a result, I have come to a conclusion.
I find that I tend to notice certain girls as of late. It is no surprise that these special people all have a quality or trait that I am in the pursuit of. Not that I am jealous. It is an attraction, rather than a feeling of jealousy. Infatuation? I guess so. But these are /righteous/ infatuations, if I might add, and if such a term even exists.
The traits and qualities that I am in pursuit for are wonderful. They make me person that I can love, appreciate, and respect. It also allows me to be able to be of more help whenever help is required. Ultimately, it really is obtaining as much knowledge as I can, for such is the commandment given to us by God.
But of course, in my thoughts, I also have come to another conclusion: that Sam, that young skinny boy born and raised in a church, will forever be just another guy that people know of. And I will be seen as such by those ladies. /just another guy/. Interesting eh? Not to worry. I will explain.
In my life, there have been three occasions when a girl confessed to me. Obviously, I never noticed any of them up until the time they took the initiative. The first two was when I was in sec 3 (grade 9?, for those in the States). I turned down the first one because I knew nothing about her. I turned down the second one as well because she pestered me. Only later did I realize that it was probably something that I would want to experience again, but with a person that I actually /liked/. I thought about the third one. After much deliberation, I invited the third one for a relationship. After some time, we were together, but the happiness we shared was limited.
And so here I am today, thinking back and reflecting on each of those experiences. Why were they successful, and what made it end? What makes me different from the others, who am I in their eyes? What kind of potential do I hold that I can share with them, and what should I do or do not do?
Unfortunately, my thoughts resulted in some negative thoughts. Perhaps it might be the truth. But also perhaps, it could be a thing of the mind. I put myself in their shoes, and looked at myself through what I hoped would be an accurate impression of me that they see.
The first two were interesting. Girls being girls, and with both of them being younger than I, said that they liked me because I was "cute" and (im not sure about this) "handsome" as well, though I doubted that one quite a fair bit. Nothing happened between me and them. I received a lot of their attention, and at times, gifts as well. Being an uneducated dumbo kid at that time (and I probably still am), I was not able to make better wiser choices.
The third one was different because I was in a relationship with her. I put in effort, but things didn't work out well.
So now I begin to wonder about what really makes me different, or am I the same as all the others out there? Growing up in church isn't easy. Everybody else around you more or less has the same standards, hang out together, do same things together, and all that shazam. And so look at me. How different and I from the others? Am I not inferior to the others? Maybe better than some, but definitely not as good as others. Living in someone's shadow my whole life hasn't done me any good. I am just someone's son, someone's brother, someone's cousin, that guy's friend. I own no recognition of my own.
Recognition, that one crucial intangible thing that /every/ human being needs to survive. But I wonder, how many others are there who are like me, guy or girl? And whose fault is it for not knowing someone else? Would it be fault on my part if I didn't know a girl because I don't socialize enough? Or would it be hers for not standing out from the others?
Being someone that not everybody knows, not being the popular one, how does /anyone/ get out of it? The chances of a potential one knowing me: slim. All because I own no recognition.
My best bet right now would be marrying someone outside the church and converting her. But that is the hardest part. And the most challenging part. The most risky part. It's a make or break moment.
Aiyah but even then, who would wanna be with a guy like me? Skinny, weird, too retarded, never seems to be serious? Yeah who cares if I can fight. There a are a million other guys out there who are more buff than me, and can fight /as well/. Probably better, too.
So what if I can cook? Other guys can do it too. Who cares if I can do house chores? Any wife could just get the husband to do it too. Who cares if I play computer games? Almost every other guy does too.
So, prepare for the worst, right? Sam, be ready for a life of solitude. It could be heading your way right now, and you don't even know it.
I find that I tend to notice certain girls as of late. It is no surprise that these special people all have a quality or trait that I am in the pursuit of. Not that I am jealous. It is an attraction, rather than a feeling of jealousy. Infatuation? I guess so. But these are /righteous/ infatuations, if I might add, and if such a term even exists.
The traits and qualities that I am in pursuit for are wonderful. They make me person that I can love, appreciate, and respect. It also allows me to be able to be of more help whenever help is required. Ultimately, it really is obtaining as much knowledge as I can, for such is the commandment given to us by God.
But of course, in my thoughts, I also have come to another conclusion: that Sam, that young skinny boy born and raised in a church, will forever be just another guy that people know of. And I will be seen as such by those ladies. /just another guy/. Interesting eh? Not to worry. I will explain.
In my life, there have been three occasions when a girl confessed to me. Obviously, I never noticed any of them up until the time they took the initiative. The first two was when I was in sec 3 (grade 9?, for those in the States). I turned down the first one because I knew nothing about her. I turned down the second one as well because she pestered me. Only later did I realize that it was probably something that I would want to experience again, but with a person that I actually /liked/. I thought about the third one. After much deliberation, I invited the third one for a relationship. After some time, we were together, but the happiness we shared was limited.
And so here I am today, thinking back and reflecting on each of those experiences. Why were they successful, and what made it end? What makes me different from the others, who am I in their eyes? What kind of potential do I hold that I can share with them, and what should I do or do not do?
Unfortunately, my thoughts resulted in some negative thoughts. Perhaps it might be the truth. But also perhaps, it could be a thing of the mind. I put myself in their shoes, and looked at myself through what I hoped would be an accurate impression of me that they see.
The first two were interesting. Girls being girls, and with both of them being younger than I, said that they liked me because I was "cute" and (im not sure about this) "handsome" as well, though I doubted that one quite a fair bit. Nothing happened between me and them. I received a lot of their attention, and at times, gifts as well. Being an uneducated dumbo kid at that time (and I probably still am), I was not able to make better wiser choices.
The third one was different because I was in a relationship with her. I put in effort, but things didn't work out well.
So now I begin to wonder about what really makes me different, or am I the same as all the others out there? Growing up in church isn't easy. Everybody else around you more or less has the same standards, hang out together, do same things together, and all that shazam. And so look at me. How different and I from the others? Am I not inferior to the others? Maybe better than some, but definitely not as good as others. Living in someone's shadow my whole life hasn't done me any good. I am just someone's son, someone's brother, someone's cousin, that guy's friend. I own no recognition of my own.
Recognition, that one crucial intangible thing that /every/ human being needs to survive. But I wonder, how many others are there who are like me, guy or girl? And whose fault is it for not knowing someone else? Would it be fault on my part if I didn't know a girl because I don't socialize enough? Or would it be hers for not standing out from the others?
Being someone that not everybody knows, not being the popular one, how does /anyone/ get out of it? The chances of a potential one knowing me: slim. All because I own no recognition.
My best bet right now would be marrying someone outside the church and converting her. But that is the hardest part. And the most challenging part. The most risky part. It's a make or break moment.
Aiyah but even then, who would wanna be with a guy like me? Skinny, weird, too retarded, never seems to be serious? Yeah who cares if I can fight. There a are a million other guys out there who are more buff than me, and can fight /as well/. Probably better, too.
So what if I can cook? Other guys can do it too. Who cares if I can do house chores? Any wife could just get the husband to do it too. Who cares if I play computer games? Almost every other guy does too.
So, prepare for the worst, right? Sam, be ready for a life of solitude. It could be heading your way right now, and you don't even know it.
Sunday, 20 October 2013
dumb[butt]
ohmygooooooooooooosh
you're getting annoying you know that.
and i have to bear with you almost everyday after school till you drop off.
its like.
SIAN AH MUST GO BACK HOME WITH YOU TODAY.
because i dont want others to say that "samuel never go home with me i feel so lonely"
and also just cuz i wanna be a good friend okay. if you wanna be alone on your way home then just plug in your earphones i understand. if you wanna talk then i'll talk with you. and with your weird comments and stuff, it really annoys the heck out of me.
then you and your claims. run 2.4km for NAPFA in 9minutes 42seconds. dude with your physique you tell me you run with that timing? even my church friend has to exercise like shit and he runs in that timing. and you tell me you "lazy to exercise" because you have "better things to do" and can still run in 9minutes. bagus.
and so you've talked someone out of suicide. okay, just so i dont smash you down, i just say "oaky okay good job". i dont even know if you really did it or not, but im just giving you the benefit of the doubt.
then today. of course i dont understand people who harm themselves. there is absolutely NO logic in it. i said that what they feel when they harm themselves is anything but "better". that it is just a temporary high. when you feel better, it is more genuine. you dont have to cut yourself (or whatever means) to feel "better" because as i said, it is either adrenaline rush, or some mind thing that you tell yourself. i have tried lying to myself and i tell you it works. it works because i have tried it. and so here people are saying that you feel better when you harm yourself? that's something that other people say and you blatantly believe.
please think.
"the best way to understand them is to have a nice long [butt] conversation with them".
hello bro. you gonna tell me that you've climbed a rainbow too?
i get sick and tired of talking to you. in all my efforts to be friendly to those around me, you top the charts because you are so hard to understand. you dont understand why people get into relationships, and when i explain, you just deny everything that i say. if you do that to me, would it not be the same if someone in depression talks to you about their problem, and you just deny everything that they say? what difference is it?
but whatever lah, okay.? im just gonna rough it out. less than six months before i graduate from school and i wont have to try so hard to be friendly anymore. i wont even have to try to reply your messages and tweets and facebook posts anymore.
period.
you're getting annoying you know that.
and i have to bear with you almost everyday after school till you drop off.
its like.
SIAN AH MUST GO BACK HOME WITH YOU TODAY.
because i dont want others to say that "samuel never go home with me i feel so lonely"
and also just cuz i wanna be a good friend okay. if you wanna be alone on your way home then just plug in your earphones i understand. if you wanna talk then i'll talk with you. and with your weird comments and stuff, it really annoys the heck out of me.
then you and your claims. run 2.4km for NAPFA in 9minutes 42seconds. dude with your physique you tell me you run with that timing? even my church friend has to exercise like shit and he runs in that timing. and you tell me you "lazy to exercise" because you have "better things to do" and can still run in 9minutes. bagus.
and so you've talked someone out of suicide. okay, just so i dont smash you down, i just say "oaky okay good job". i dont even know if you really did it or not, but im just giving you the benefit of the doubt.
then today. of course i dont understand people who harm themselves. there is absolutely NO logic in it. i said that what they feel when they harm themselves is anything but "better". that it is just a temporary high. when you feel better, it is more genuine. you dont have to cut yourself (or whatever means) to feel "better" because as i said, it is either adrenaline rush, or some mind thing that you tell yourself. i have tried lying to myself and i tell you it works. it works because i have tried it. and so here people are saying that you feel better when you harm yourself? that's something that other people say and you blatantly believe.
please think.
"the best way to understand them is to have a nice long [butt] conversation with them".
hello bro. you gonna tell me that you've climbed a rainbow too?
i get sick and tired of talking to you. in all my efforts to be friendly to those around me, you top the charts because you are so hard to understand. you dont understand why people get into relationships, and when i explain, you just deny everything that i say. if you do that to me, would it not be the same if someone in depression talks to you about their problem, and you just deny everything that they say? what difference is it?
but whatever lah, okay.? im just gonna rough it out. less than six months before i graduate from school and i wont have to try so hard to be friendly anymore. i wont even have to try to reply your messages and tweets and facebook posts anymore.
period.
Thursday, 10 October 2013
so....CMPB.
soooooooo. went out for a missionary appointment today with Elder Moore and Elder Devey. they went on exchanges. i met Elder Devey when i had a discussion with one investigator and Elder Schone. that was earlier this year..a few months back. appointment was at 6pm and they called me at like 4pm. i didnt have anything on, so i agreed to go with them. actually supposed to go for karate training today, but my muscles still have not recovered enough from tuesday's badminton for me to train anything.
meanwhile, i've been doing push ups and squats at home, and when i go to school to exercise i'd do my 2.4km and pull ups. since i train alone, i cant do shuttle run accurately. my sit ups, i dont know how im training for it. the only thing i've been doing for my stomach is filling it up during the day. lol.
i need to train more on my arm and back muscles so i can do 11 pull ups, just like before. dang i miss those days when i was so much more fit.
its so boring.
anyway. school timetable is out already. super lame. and i heard that the modules are hard. a lot more memorising, which im NOT good at. sigh. whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. i wanna go back to school, but i also dont wanna go back to school. i'd go back for the scheduled routine lifestyle. but i dont want to have to sit for exams and tests, and work for projects that are annoying. im a bit tired of working in groups already.
meh.
anyway. the missionary discussion went well today. talked a bit about the First Vision, and related that back to #genconf (does this do hashtags lol) and invited the family to go. Joanna (the daughter) had her boyfriend over too lol and he was in the lesson as well. the Elders and i all agreed that we should have included him more in the lesson since he was quite receptive.
oh and i met the Elders at woodlands bus interchange. and they were in the midst of handing this student a Book of Mormon, and then got his number. maaaaaaaaan they good. Elder Devey was having for himself a macdonald's ice cream cone lol. i should have gotten one for myself too XD its been a while...
OHOHOH and i went to CMPB yesterday for my health check up in preparation for NS. time in at 1305hrs, and basket i left at like 1830hrs okay. not fun. i was the last guy to leave. idk how the other pre-enlistees finish the stupid quiz so fast. i was struggling here and there sia walao eh. the questions are so retarded. and i thought that i was logical -.- so...since that test kinda determines where im posted to, i guess im gonna be in army. sigh. im sure i didnt display any "outstanding performance" in ANY area so just forget it lah huh forget about navy and forget about air force. just get sent to army sua lah. but i dont think i'll be going to SCDF...
they took my blood, they took my pee, they took my eyes, they took my heart readings. oh dang talk about heart reading. my ecg had a weird read-out okay. thats what they said on the freaking report. i read it. i probably had a rough idea on what it would say so i read it okay. and i was bored. no music too. psh. so. i read my readout. and it says i have an "abnormal ecg". fine. i went to the doctor, he looked at it, sighed soooooooooo many times that it made me super worried. he typed using two fingers and tapped away. then i peeked at his screen cuz im curious. read a bit then he saw me looking then he asked me to step further back. fiiiiiiine okay lorh so i stepped back and looked dead ahead at the empty wall. tap tap tap. but i thought about what i read. then i googled it today. and i must say that yes i am weird. my heart is weird. therefore, i am weird. geddit?
anyway. im up for another appointment at khoo teck phuat and then they're gonna waiver the fee when i present some papers. treatment will be borne by me if i decide to have any. sigh. appointment on 30th December. first thing in the morning.
its already feeling like the army.
nah maybe its all in my head.
meanwhile, i've been doing push ups and squats at home, and when i go to school to exercise i'd do my 2.4km and pull ups. since i train alone, i cant do shuttle run accurately. my sit ups, i dont know how im training for it. the only thing i've been doing for my stomach is filling it up during the day. lol.
i need to train more on my arm and back muscles so i can do 11 pull ups, just like before. dang i miss those days when i was so much more fit.
its so boring.
anyway. school timetable is out already. super lame. and i heard that the modules are hard. a lot more memorising, which im NOT good at. sigh. whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. i wanna go back to school, but i also dont wanna go back to school. i'd go back for the scheduled routine lifestyle. but i dont want to have to sit for exams and tests, and work for projects that are annoying. im a bit tired of working in groups already.
meh.
anyway. the missionary discussion went well today. talked a bit about the First Vision, and related that back to #genconf (does this do hashtags lol) and invited the family to go. Joanna (the daughter) had her boyfriend over too lol and he was in the lesson as well. the Elders and i all agreed that we should have included him more in the lesson since he was quite receptive.
oh and i met the Elders at woodlands bus interchange. and they were in the midst of handing this student a Book of Mormon, and then got his number. maaaaaaaaan they good. Elder Devey was having for himself a macdonald's ice cream cone lol. i should have gotten one for myself too XD its been a while...
OHOHOH and i went to CMPB yesterday for my health check up in preparation for NS. time in at 1305hrs, and basket i left at like 1830hrs okay. not fun. i was the last guy to leave. idk how the other pre-enlistees finish the stupid quiz so fast. i was struggling here and there sia walao eh. the questions are so retarded. and i thought that i was logical -.- so...since that test kinda determines where im posted to, i guess im gonna be in army. sigh. im sure i didnt display any "outstanding performance" in ANY area so just forget it lah huh forget about navy and forget about air force. just get sent to army sua lah. but i dont think i'll be going to SCDF...
they took my blood, they took my pee, they took my eyes, they took my heart readings. oh dang talk about heart reading. my ecg had a weird read-out okay. thats what they said on the freaking report. i read it. i probably had a rough idea on what it would say so i read it okay. and i was bored. no music too. psh. so. i read my readout. and it says i have an "abnormal ecg". fine. i went to the doctor, he looked at it, sighed soooooooooo many times that it made me super worried. he typed using two fingers and tapped away. then i peeked at his screen cuz im curious. read a bit then he saw me looking then he asked me to step further back. fiiiiiiine okay lorh so i stepped back and looked dead ahead at the empty wall. tap tap tap. but i thought about what i read. then i googled it today. and i must say that yes i am weird. my heart is weird. therefore, i am weird. geddit?
anyway. im up for another appointment at khoo teck phuat and then they're gonna waiver the fee when i present some papers. treatment will be borne by me if i decide to have any. sigh. appointment on 30th December. first thing in the morning.
its already feeling like the army.
nah maybe its all in my head.
Sunday, 6 October 2013
ALOHA!!!
why do i have 2211 page views. jumped so much ever since i last checked. maybe my blog suddenly gained sooooooooooo many new readers lol. BHUT EHNEEWAE.
its been FOREVER since i last blogged. thats more than a month ago. okay maybe 3weeks. been so long /that i've seen your face, tryna be strong/ because i lost my itouch: the one and only thing that i blog on other than my laptop (though i dont really have much privacy since mom sits beside my table). no time to blog in school either cuz WHO DOES THAT? so yeah. anyway. i have so much to review on. but obviously i cant remember all of them. if you want me to talk about something, just say it, tell me however you find convenient. i'll do it!!
anyway this week. whats new this week? nothing much. just spent monday and tuesday in school working on my final year project for school. then i found out that my design that i've been working on doesnt work at all. so i had to scrap that off. i had so many other designs but they werent accepted by my group leader. soon i ran out of ideas and then that was my last one. and it didnt work. thanks to asfa though. he managed to whack out one idea, and im just gonna use his. i have no more ideas since i spotted similiarities in my different designs already.
after giving up (tuesday), i went to the school's track/field, and ran 2.4km in preparation for my NAPFA coming up in mid-november. then i did pull-ups too. I SUCK AT IT NOW. super unfit now. i could do so much better at pull-ups when i was younger...but my running is better now though lol. timed 13:30mins in 2010 and now i clocked 11:42mins for the same distance, 3 years later. considering that i didnt really train for it a lot...i just joined the karate club. i guess that helps. i wont talk about my pull-ups since it really is horrible. i trained with my buddy from karate too and he helped me improve. but we dont do it anymore so that sucks. and i deproved. A LOT. okay? im not kidding and its not cool!! i only have one month to train up my whole body to score a gold (i hope).
im confident in my shuttle run. i timed 9.4seconds a few months (like....2months? 1?) ago and that already is an A. i suck at standing broad jump (why do we even need to do this anyway?), sit ups shouldnt be a big problem for me; i probably will get an A or a B for that. sit and reach....cheat lah. though im super unflexible. i have ALWAYS been.
then...slacked at home for the rest of the week. caught up on my drama. prepared sunday school lesson for the Gospel Principles class. then on saturday morning, went out with my relatives to visit my great-granddad's and mom's ashes at the columbarium. quiet a good number of tears were shed (not by me because i never met them) but by my aunts and uncles and my grandma too. even my dad lol wow i never saw him cry before. well he didnt cry...he just...uh nvm.
then we went for lunch together nearby. took more than i did just so people wont say "sam why you eat so little". added so much chili too hehehe <3 then we all split up. some went to start the karaoke session at my aunt's, but i went back home with mom cuz we were tired. dad went for stake ym soccer. got back home and played TF2 LOL. no rest. then went back out again with mom to my aunt's to have dinner and karaoke. at the end, we all sang a song each and had it recorded. its gonna be sent to my other relatives in the states and then theyre gonna judge who is the best. im darn sure im not gonna win cuz i hadnt been listening to buble's song very often recently so i lost touch with his songs. PLUS since they were recording it, i guess it made me nervous. had a few mistakes here and there and so i really messed it up. oh well. not that winning is important anyway.
spent the other time there with my nephew and niece. dang theyre a handful already. they wanna play all the time and dont wanna eat their dinner. and there was that stupid ipad that they kept asking me to play. i ended up saying "if you dont eat your dinner im not gonna play" so yeah they EVENTUALLY finished up their dinner. nathaneal and olivia. cute kids, a handful, but still cute. i love it when they come to church.
SORRY no pictures of them. no itouch = no front facing camera.
so la di da. we reached home at 1.30am cuz one of my uncle drove my whole fam back.
today's sunday school lesson that i prepared was good. i tried a new way of teaching chapter 29 "The Lord's Law of Health". basically i had the class follow Daniel chapter 1 throughout the whole lesson. worked wonders :) the Sisters said i did an awesome job. i think so too!! XD see what inspiration does? plus i was prepared for the lesson, so that's good :)
then i stayed back after church to help krystine figure out some of her flute scores. managed to do a bit only though we spent like 1.5hours together lol. i was so tired that i ended up falling asleep beside her WTS. she continued practicing though. thats good. i wasnt really too excited about her practicing on fast sunday since its more tiring, but she wanted to anyway. so who am i to stop her. figured about the harder parts for her, so i think that's good.
went back home after that, chilled for 30minutes before i had to head back out to church once again for stake choir practice. blablabla nothing much happened but in the end i made a suggestion to sister aldrin and she said she'd think about it.
and ying er was so good on the organ and piano!! im freaking jealous sia im like trying to tell her that she's freakin awesome and she goes like "was fumbling around quite a bit" and in my head i was like "OI HELLO YOU ARE AWESOME OKAY FUMBLE AROUND OR NOT IS NOT IMPORTANT BECAUSE YOU ARE AWESOME" oh but anyway. we cant wait for conference since im sure its gonna be as awesome as it always has been.
so...had popcorn before leaving stake centre. didnt eat a lot since it was salted. i dont like salted popcorn. i only like the sugared one.
then. POOF here i am. i had my dinner already. and im finishing the ice-cream in my bowl now. hahhaha NO PICTURES AGAIN because my nokia phone doesnt have the blogger app. it has 3rd party ones but i cant post. only can manage. super dumb sia i tell you.
ANYWAY. YEAH. i have this stupid fyp presentation tmr and my group only found out last night. presentation slot is at 10.45am and so im gonna be there at idk what time. gonna bring my flute to school too in case we decide to stay back after the presentation for a long time, so i can just go straight to mr goh's workplace and show him my flute. there's something wrong with the headpiece. it doesnt fit into the body well. it jams up. and im super scared because i've used it only like <10 times anywhere ever since i bought it.
so sad.
really very sad.
my poor flute :'(
its been FOREVER since i last blogged. thats more than a month ago. okay maybe 3weeks. been so long /that i've seen your face, tryna be strong/ because i lost my itouch: the one and only thing that i blog on other than my laptop (though i dont really have much privacy since mom sits beside my table). no time to blog in school either cuz WHO DOES THAT? so yeah. anyway. i have so much to review on. but obviously i cant remember all of them. if you want me to talk about something, just say it, tell me however you find convenient. i'll do it!!
anyway this week. whats new this week? nothing much. just spent monday and tuesday in school working on my final year project for school. then i found out that my design that i've been working on doesnt work at all. so i had to scrap that off. i had so many other designs but they werent accepted by my group leader. soon i ran out of ideas and then that was my last one. and it didnt work. thanks to asfa though. he managed to whack out one idea, and im just gonna use his. i have no more ideas since i spotted similiarities in my different designs already.
after giving up (tuesday), i went to the school's track/field, and ran 2.4km in preparation for my NAPFA coming up in mid-november. then i did pull-ups too. I SUCK AT IT NOW. super unfit now. i could do so much better at pull-ups when i was younger...but my running is better now though lol. timed 13:30mins in 2010 and now i clocked 11:42mins for the same distance, 3 years later. considering that i didnt really train for it a lot...i just joined the karate club. i guess that helps. i wont talk about my pull-ups since it really is horrible. i trained with my buddy from karate too and he helped me improve. but we dont do it anymore so that sucks. and i deproved. A LOT. okay? im not kidding and its not cool!! i only have one month to train up my whole body to score a gold (i hope).
im confident in my shuttle run. i timed 9.4seconds a few months (like....2months? 1?) ago and that already is an A. i suck at standing broad jump (why do we even need to do this anyway?), sit ups shouldnt be a big problem for me; i probably will get an A or a B for that. sit and reach....cheat lah. though im super unflexible. i have ALWAYS been.
then...slacked at home for the rest of the week. caught up on my drama. prepared sunday school lesson for the Gospel Principles class. then on saturday morning, went out with my relatives to visit my great-granddad's and mom's ashes at the columbarium. quiet a good number of tears were shed (not by me because i never met them) but by my aunts and uncles and my grandma too. even my dad lol wow i never saw him cry before. well he didnt cry...he just...uh nvm.
then we went for lunch together nearby. took more than i did just so people wont say "sam why you eat so little". added so much chili too hehehe <3 then we all split up. some went to start the karaoke session at my aunt's, but i went back home with mom cuz we were tired. dad went for stake ym soccer. got back home and played TF2 LOL. no rest. then went back out again with mom to my aunt's to have dinner and karaoke. at the end, we all sang a song each and had it recorded. its gonna be sent to my other relatives in the states and then theyre gonna judge who is the best. im darn sure im not gonna win cuz i hadnt been listening to buble's song very often recently so i lost touch with his songs. PLUS since they were recording it, i guess it made me nervous. had a few mistakes here and there and so i really messed it up. oh well. not that winning is important anyway.
spent the other time there with my nephew and niece. dang theyre a handful already. they wanna play all the time and dont wanna eat their dinner. and there was that stupid ipad that they kept asking me to play. i ended up saying "if you dont eat your dinner im not gonna play" so yeah they EVENTUALLY finished up their dinner. nathaneal and olivia. cute kids, a handful, but still cute. i love it when they come to church.
SORRY no pictures of them. no itouch = no front facing camera.
so la di da. we reached home at 1.30am cuz one of my uncle drove my whole fam back.
today's sunday school lesson that i prepared was good. i tried a new way of teaching chapter 29 "The Lord's Law of Health". basically i had the class follow Daniel chapter 1 throughout the whole lesson. worked wonders :) the Sisters said i did an awesome job. i think so too!! XD see what inspiration does? plus i was prepared for the lesson, so that's good :)
then i stayed back after church to help krystine figure out some of her flute scores. managed to do a bit only though we spent like 1.5hours together lol. i was so tired that i ended up falling asleep beside her WTS. she continued practicing though. thats good. i wasnt really too excited about her practicing on fast sunday since its more tiring, but she wanted to anyway. so who am i to stop her. figured about the harder parts for her, so i think that's good.
went back home after that, chilled for 30minutes before i had to head back out to church once again for stake choir practice. blablabla nothing much happened but in the end i made a suggestion to sister aldrin and she said she'd think about it.
and ying er was so good on the organ and piano!! im freaking jealous sia im like trying to tell her that she's freakin awesome and she goes like "was fumbling around quite a bit" and in my head i was like "OI HELLO YOU ARE AWESOME OKAY FUMBLE AROUND OR NOT IS NOT IMPORTANT BECAUSE YOU ARE AWESOME" oh but anyway. we cant wait for conference since im sure its gonna be as awesome as it always has been.
so...had popcorn before leaving stake centre. didnt eat a lot since it was salted. i dont like salted popcorn. i only like the sugared one.
then. POOF here i am. i had my dinner already. and im finishing the ice-cream in my bowl now. hahhaha NO PICTURES AGAIN because my nokia phone doesnt have the blogger app. it has 3rd party ones but i cant post. only can manage. super dumb sia i tell you.
ANYWAY. YEAH. i have this stupid fyp presentation tmr and my group only found out last night. presentation slot is at 10.45am and so im gonna be there at idk what time. gonna bring my flute to school too in case we decide to stay back after the presentation for a long time, so i can just go straight to mr goh's workplace and show him my flute. there's something wrong with the headpiece. it doesnt fit into the body well. it jams up. and im super scared because i've used it only like <10 times anywhere ever since i bought it.
so sad.
really very sad.
my poor flute :'(
Saturday, 7 September 2013
COMEX COMETS OH NETS
went to comex today in the hopes of looking (and possibly buying) a lens for my D7k. and accessories too: vertical grip, remote, a hotshoe stand for an external mic for mr chong, a new eyepiece. i saw ND filters too but i dont know if i'll ever need to use them. they were going at $100ish. sigh. its just a filter....
and heck the whole comex is so small. two halls only. last time was bigger sia...now got so many people, so packed. can stand there and dig nose also sia -.- but i spent the whole time there listening to my own music since i dont like to hear people screaming and shouting over their speakers. so noisy.
anyway. the whole place doesnt have ONE PERSON selling lowerpro bags. SO DISAPPOINTED. they have vanguard but i really dont understand vanguard's bag designs. so weird. i opened up one bag and DANG i love lowerpro so much more now. it seems like as if vanguard just makes fancy designs for aesthetics. but does it work well? heck no. if i need to take out my camera in a jiffy, i would need like a few hours to open the vanguard LOL.
and thats not just it. Nikon's booth didnt sell lenses alone. im like.....DUDE? okay what about accessories. DONT HAVE ALSO. WALAO EH /FLIP TABLE/ SIA WALAO EH they just sell kits. its so dumb!! why sell kits only? and no accessories? what are you guys thinking!! sigh.
then i scouted Asus for kor. he wanted to check price for 2 laptop models. this pretty pretty prettyyyyyyyyy salesperson came up to me and asked if i needed help aiyoh she so pretty. anyway. found out that one model is discontinued, and the other one is like 2.1k. can upgrade to have a 3D capable screen sia walao eh. but the specs are impressive really. anyway. i asked all the questions i need then talked to kor over skype through a phone call to home. basket he can get the discontinued model for 900USD sia wts i asked the salesgirl and she said probably around 1.5 ohmygosh.
yeah lorh. oh yeah went bowling in the morning with the ward EQ. i went late lol so i missed one game. they played another and i joined in for that one :P i scored like 50-something lol im the noobest there!! but i found who can play. ELDER MOORE THAT COOL DUDE. his swing is like.....VWOOSH. bro roger also super pro. paul too. elder rasmussen not bad too. arvie also!! geno too hahaha. walao what is this sia im playing with all the high flyers wth.
yeah....
oh and i got the confirmation email from pres kwan already on which watermark the stake will use for now and forever. woohoo~ but that means more work to do LOL so i'll have to just watermark the pictures...mathias' ones and mine. that bro vince...sorry ah but his pictures really suck. it feels like as if he took his pictures using a phone camera aka point and shoot. i should have seen what camera he used...his pictures are so bad that i really dont know if i wanna use ANY of them :( really sorry bro but your equipment is important too. you can have the creativity and all but if your equipment cannot help you get the pictures you want, then thats really sia suay.
sigh.
anyway. one day i heard this song randomly playing on my iTouch while on shuffle mode.
so yeah.
and heck the whole comex is so small. two halls only. last time was bigger sia...now got so many people, so packed. can stand there and dig nose also sia -.- but i spent the whole time there listening to my own music since i dont like to hear people screaming and shouting over their speakers. so noisy.
anyway. the whole place doesnt have ONE PERSON selling lowerpro bags. SO DISAPPOINTED. they have vanguard but i really dont understand vanguard's bag designs. so weird. i opened up one bag and DANG i love lowerpro so much more now. it seems like as if vanguard just makes fancy designs for aesthetics. but does it work well? heck no. if i need to take out my camera in a jiffy, i would need like a few hours to open the vanguard LOL.
and thats not just it. Nikon's booth didnt sell lenses alone. im like.....DUDE? okay what about accessories. DONT HAVE ALSO. WALAO EH /FLIP TABLE/ SIA WALAO EH they just sell kits. its so dumb!! why sell kits only? and no accessories? what are you guys thinking!! sigh.
then i scouted Asus for kor. he wanted to check price for 2 laptop models. this pretty pretty prettyyyyyyyyy salesperson came up to me and asked if i needed help aiyoh she so pretty. anyway. found out that one model is discontinued, and the other one is like 2.1k. can upgrade to have a 3D capable screen sia walao eh. but the specs are impressive really. anyway. i asked all the questions i need then talked to kor over skype through a phone call to home. basket he can get the discontinued model for 900USD sia wts i asked the salesgirl and she said probably around 1.5 ohmygosh.
yeah lorh. oh yeah went bowling in the morning with the ward EQ. i went late lol so i missed one game. they played another and i joined in for that one :P i scored like 50-something lol im the noobest there!! but i found who can play. ELDER MOORE THAT COOL DUDE. his swing is like.....VWOOSH. bro roger also super pro. paul too. elder rasmussen not bad too. arvie also!! geno too hahaha. walao what is this sia im playing with all the high flyers wth.
yeah....
oh and i got the confirmation email from pres kwan already on which watermark the stake will use for now and forever. woohoo~ but that means more work to do LOL so i'll have to just watermark the pictures...mathias' ones and mine. that bro vince...sorry ah but his pictures really suck. it feels like as if he took his pictures using a phone camera aka point and shoot. i should have seen what camera he used...his pictures are so bad that i really dont know if i wanna use ANY of them :( really sorry bro but your equipment is important too. you can have the creativity and all but if your equipment cannot help you get the pictures you want, then thats really sia suay.
sigh.
anyway. one day i heard this song randomly playing on my iTouch while on shuffle mode.
so yeah.
Friday, 6 September 2013
아파야
So two nights ago (Tuesday night) I was talking to Jaina on whatsapp after she replied to one of my tweets. Told her what happened. So she's the second one to know. Ming is the first. Ahhh a really great friend. Since I had a long and tiring day, I was tired already. Thankfully we were pretty much done talking. I tweeted her saying that she's a treasured friend but somehow twitter didn't tag her. Anyway I totally don't recall tweeting that and only found out only after I woke up. And she said "thank you" so formally idk why. But idk. Nothing wrong with that either.
But I'm grateful for her. She offered advice and counsel, a shoulder and a listening ear. What I needed most at that time. Wednesday was the best day ever since. Went to institute right after work. Managed to make it just in time. The lesson was really good. Brother Charlie so cute and funny :)
Went home with the woodlands ward people. Hui yi too. Arvie, ezra T, abish, hyrum, Bea, me. Which reminds me: it's a wonderful to entrust a vulnerable part of you to another person you can rely on. People who defend you, keep you safe, make you happy.
And Thursday was good too. I somewhat took "off" from work and visited my secondary school. Too bad I was late. Coming from SP after working on a CAD drawing, most of the teachers left already, except a few who had meeting to attend. Met up first with my section at the canteen and played charades until gillian arrived. Amirah, Roi, Hui Jie, And me. Cake from the basketball team was given to me when KC Ann asked if I wanted any lol. I was like lol yeah okay lorh XD
When gillian arrived, we met her outside school so she wouldn't need to sign in. We had lunch altogether at the shop right below Khatib mrt station. Roi didn't have money so I lent him some. We shifted a table over so that all 6 of us could sit together. Then we went back to school, took a group picture in the canteen with the biiiiiiig poster of Alison lol. My camera and the two Polaroids owned by Amirah and Gillian. Hui Jie and Putri had ACE so they left first. The rest of us headed to the staff room and summonnnnnned our teachers lol too bad only Matthews came out. We talked and then I got a picture taken with her. Glad she still remembers me (I don't think she could forget any of us sia lol we were so rebel). We laughed over old memories as if they were decades old.
Then she has to go settle some stuff and so she went back into the staff room. The 4 of us (Amirah, Roi, Gillian and me) started talking about school, band members, exco. Things have changed so much...
Then we all left at around 4pm since gillian needed to e at somerset at 5pm. Bumped into Tiffany Halim at the train platform and so we took the train back with her. Talked about council and band lol and she was saying how awkward and weird some of her juniors are lol so funny.
Reached home and chilled all the way. Watched 2 full episodes of Good Doctor, played TF2 for a while. My day is made. Too bad I would need to go to work the next time I wake up...
Anyway. Work has been good to me, aside from all the cuts i get on my fingers and cuticles and lower arm and all that horrible DUST. It gives me money for doing repetitive things and some time to think about things, since we don't usually talk while doing our stuff. I learned how to operate this tool. Pretty cool and simple. Too bad I don't know the name, nor did I get a picture of it. All I know is that it's the manual forklift. I asked the FT packers if I could learn the electrical forklift though. You know, the one with the driver... But I'll need to be sent by the company to the course. And since I'm a temp packing staff, it's gonna be totally unrelated to me. So, most likely I won't be learning it. Though just by watching the operators, I pretty much figured out how to work it LOL. 3 sticks: the one of the left is to control the elevation of the fork. The one in the middle controls the forward and backward tilt of the fork itself. The one on the right is to control the lateral displacement of the fork. So yeah. I don't know how to get the forklift to reverse though. I don't see them moving any other stick for that...maybe it's a pedal. But idk. There are only 2 pedals that I saw, which is probably the accelerator and the brake. Or it could be the accelerator and the reverse pedal. While deccelerating (when the accelerator is released), the reverse pedal acts as a brake. While stationary, it will be the reverse pedal. I don't know, I'm just guessing.
But I still wanna learn it. Idk...maybe talk to one of the office staff. Although that would be super inappropriate and unreasonable... :( haiyah I talked to the full time packers that I'm working with about it...and the vibes I get from them is that they want me to stay with them since they need the extra help...sigh.
I'm off tomorrow, just like how everyone else is. So glad that I'm finally called out for a missionary discussion with one of our investigators. It's been too long!! :( but it's the third lesson lol I have NEVER taught that lesson before. Just the first two only...hope I prepare well enough for it though!! :)
What's there left to say?
웨대다비없어
내맘이아파
하지마
-백지영
Just a while ago I was doing good, but now I'm back at it again. Don't bedek lah Sam.
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