COMEX COMETS OH NETS

went to comex today in the hopes of looking (and possibly buying) a lens for my D7k. and accessories too: vertical grip, remote, a hotshoe stand for an external mic for mr chong, a new eyepiece. i saw ND filters too but i dont know if i'll ever need to use them. they were going at $100ish. sigh. its just a filter....

and heck the whole comex is so small. two halls only. last time was bigger sia...now got so many people, so packed. can stand there and dig nose also sia -.- but i spent the whole time there listening to my own music since i dont like to hear people screaming and shouting over their speakers. so noisy.

anyway. the whole place doesnt have ONE PERSON selling lowerpro bags. SO DISAPPOINTED. they have vanguard but i really dont understand vanguard's bag designs. so weird. i opened up one bag and DANG i love lowerpro so much more now. it seems like as if vanguard just makes fancy designs for aesthetics. but does it work well? heck no. if i need to take out my camera in a jiffy, i would need like a few hours to open the vanguard LOL.

and thats not just it. Nikon's booth didnt sell lenses alone. im like.....DUDE? okay what about accessories. DONT HAVE ALSO. WALAO EH /FLIP TABLE/ SIA WALAO EH they just sell kits. its so dumb!! why sell kits only? and no accessories? what are you guys thinking!! sigh.

then i scouted Asus for kor. he wanted to check price for 2 laptop models. this pretty pretty prettyyyyyyyyy salesperson came up to me and asked if i needed help aiyoh she so pretty. anyway. found out that one model is discontinued, and the other one is like 2.1k. can upgrade to have a 3D capable screen sia walao eh. but the specs are impressive really. anyway. i asked all the questions i need then talked to kor over skype through a phone call to home. basket he can get the discontinued model for 900USD sia wts i asked the salesgirl and she said probably around 1.5 ohmygosh.

yeah lorh. oh yeah went bowling in the morning with the ward EQ. i went late lol so i missed one game. they played another and i joined in for that one :P i scored like 50-something lol im the noobest there!! but i found who can play. ELDER MOORE THAT COOL DUDE. his swing is like.....VWOOSH. bro roger also super pro. paul too. elder rasmussen not bad too. arvie also!! geno too hahaha. walao what is this sia im playing with all the high flyers wth.

yeah....

oh and i got the confirmation email from pres kwan already on which watermark the stake will use for now and forever. woohoo~ but that means more work to do LOL so i'll have to just watermark the pictures...mathias' ones and mine. that bro vince...sorry ah but his pictures really suck. it feels like as if he took his pictures using a phone camera aka point and shoot. i should have seen what camera he used...his pictures are so bad that i really dont know if i wanna use ANY of them :( really sorry bro but your equipment is important too. you can have the creativity and all but if your equipment cannot help you get the pictures you want, then thats really sia suay.

sigh.
anyway. one day i heard this song randomly playing on my iTouch while on shuffle mode.

so yeah.

아파야

So two nights ago (Tuesday night) I was talking to Jaina on whatsapp after she replied to one of my tweets. Told her what happened. So she's the second one to know. Ming is the first. Ahhh a really great friend. Since I had a long and tiring day, I was tired already. Thankfully we were pretty much done talking. I tweeted her saying that she's a treasured friend but somehow twitter didn't tag her. Anyway I totally don't recall tweeting that and only found out only after I woke up. And she said "thank you" so formally idk why. But idk. Nothing wrong with that either. 

But I'm grateful for her. She offered advice and counsel, a shoulder and a listening ear. What I needed most at that time. Wednesday was the best day ever since. Went to institute right after work. Managed to make it just in time. The lesson was really good. Brother Charlie so cute and funny :) 

Went home with the woodlands ward people. Hui yi too. Arvie, ezra T, abish, hyrum, Bea, me. Which reminds me: it's a wonderful to entrust a vulnerable part of you to another person you can rely on. People who defend you, keep you safe, make you happy. 

And Thursday was good too. I somewhat took "off" from work and visited my secondary school. Too bad I was late. Coming from SP after working on a CAD drawing, most of the teachers left already, except a few who had meeting to attend. Met up first with my section at the canteen and played charades until gillian arrived. Amirah, Roi, Hui Jie, And me. Cake from the basketball team was given to me when KC Ann asked if I wanted any lol. I was like lol yeah okay lorh XD 

When gillian arrived, we met her outside school so she wouldn't need to sign in. We had lunch altogether at the shop right below Khatib mrt station. Roi didn't have money so I lent him some. We shifted a table over so that all 6 of us could sit together. Then we went back to school, took a group picture in the canteen with the biiiiiiig poster of Alison lol. My camera and the two Polaroids owned by Amirah and Gillian. Hui Jie and Putri had ACE so they left first. The rest of us headed to the staff room and summonnnnnned our teachers lol too bad only Matthews came out. We talked and then I got a picture taken with her. Glad she still remembers me (I don't think she could forget any of us sia lol we were so rebel). We laughed over old memories as if they were decades old. 

Then she has to go settle some stuff and so she went back into the staff room. The 4 of us (Amirah, Roi, Gillian and me) started talking about school, band members, exco. Things have changed so much...

Then we all left at around 4pm since gillian needed to e at somerset at 5pm. Bumped into Tiffany Halim at the train platform and so we took the train back with her. Talked about council and band lol and she was saying how awkward and weird some of her juniors are lol so funny. 

Reached home and chilled all the way. Watched 2 full episodes of Good Doctor, played TF2 for a while. My day is made. Too bad I would need to go to work the next time I wake up...

Anyway. Work has been good to me, aside from all the cuts i get on my fingers and cuticles and lower arm and all that horrible DUST. It gives me money for doing repetitive things and some time to think about things, since we don't usually talk while doing our stuff. I learned how to operate this tool. Pretty cool and simple. Too bad I don't know the name, nor did I get a picture of it. All I know is that it's the manual forklift. I asked the FT packers if I could learn the electrical forklift though. You know, the one with the driver... But I'll need to be sent by the company to the course. And since I'm a temp packing staff, it's gonna be totally unrelated to me. So, most likely I won't be learning it. Though just by watching the operators, I pretty much figured out how to work it LOL. 3 sticks: the one of the left is to control the elevation of the fork. The one in the middle controls the forward and backward tilt of the fork itself. The one on the right is to control the lateral displacement of the fork. So yeah. I don't know how to get the forklift to reverse though. I don't see them moving any other stick for that...maybe it's a pedal. But idk. There are only 2 pedals that I saw, which is probably the accelerator and the brake. Or it could be the accelerator and the reverse pedal. While deccelerating (when the accelerator is released), the reverse pedal acts as a brake. While stationary, it will be the reverse pedal. I don't know, I'm just guessing. 

But I still wanna learn it. Idk...maybe talk to one of the office staff. Although that would be super inappropriate and unreasonable... :( haiyah I talked to the full time packers that I'm working with about it...and the vibes I get from them is that they want me to stay with them since they need the extra help...sigh. 

I'm off tomorrow, just like how everyone else is. So glad that I'm finally called out for a missionary discussion with one of our investigators. It's been too long!! :( but it's the third lesson lol I have NEVER taught that lesson before. Just the first two only...hope I prepare well enough for it though!! :) 

What's there left to say? 

웨대다비없어

내맘이아파

하지마

-백지영

Just a while ago I was doing good, but now I'm back at it again. Don't bedek lah Sam. 

Now now child.

I wanna get into a fight

Or a sparring session at least

Just to wake myself up

Because I've been oblivious

To all the madness

That I now see all around me 

Knowing that I'm part of it all

Because that's what we all are. 

I wanna get into a fight

Or a sparring session at least

To recall what it was like

To get beaten down

To recall that I'm vulnerable

That I'm not all that great

To realize that there's always 

A bigger fish

And also perhaps a bigger fist

And also about the bigger loser. 

I wanna get into a fight 

Or a sparring session at least

To feel all sweaty and slimy again

Knowing that there's a reason

To why I do things

Also to be back to my old self

I miss the old Sam

He is so different

From the Sam that we all know.

Someone kidnapped him

And placed a robot

In his place

In his heart

In his mind

In his body. 

I wanna get into a fight

Or a sparring session at least

To be with my friends

To be with Kevin

The one who's been with me 

For the past few years

During training

Going out for dinners

Telling each other the secrets

That no one else would know

Because we trust each other so much

And because we help each other

Through the thick and thin

And offer advice to each other

Through our different views of the world

And of life

So we always come out stronger

Than when we entered. 

I wanna get into a fight

Or a sparring session at least

To know that you've gotta

Fend for yourself 

Not because no one is gonna be there

For you all the time

And not because people are 

Gonna leave you

But because if you can't 

Fend for yourself

There's no one that 

You can really fend for

Without compromising your safety

And that is something

That nobody wants. 

I miss being the old me. 

But sometimes I feel. 

That the current me. 

Will always. 

Be better. 

Than the old. 

Me. 

Long day. But fruitful.

Okay yesterday was quite a day. I woke up late so I ha to rush over to SP for FYP meeting. While on the way, I found out that Matthew isn't coming, and that it's only me and Zi Cong. Lol okay can. So Ireached  at 1050hrs, when I should have been there at 0900hrs. Took my time to settle down, then began on the design that I needed to work on. It's supposed to be a box that holds all out electrical components. Took me quite some time since there were a lot of unknowns. But I got one down and started drawing it on Inventor.

Jaina came along and she sat beside me and we started talking. She kept saying she was so tired. Now that I think about it, I should have asked her why. Yeah, I didn't. I will, next time. Talked about kpop and KMW, whether I'm going or not, and which ticket he should get. Man, everybody's asking if I'm going for KMW or not sia. I wonder myself too...

I find that I'm losing my enthusiasm to cover events. I don't remember the dates and who is coming too. I don't keep track of events as much as I used to in the past. Picture uploading is slower too..I promised pictures but I haven't delivered yet. Sigh...what's going onnnnnnnn. 

Ohyeah and Alan passed me the access card for the bioengineering lab which will be in my (or the group's) possession until the end of the academic yet. But it's signed under my name...so...it's technically mine. Lol. 

Anyway. Jaina went back to her group so I continue on with my drawing. Zi Cong left early so I was on my own. I did a bit more, then left also. That was around 1400hrs. Headed to Khatib by circle line then had my lunch at NBSS. Basket sia the stupid security guard rude like siao ah. He doesn't know I come back often and so he treats me like a terrorist. "Come here for what, name, surname". I did my best to be friendly to him though -.- headed over to the canteen to see my favorite stall aunties. They were closing already, but they stopped and talked to me :') and they still remember my name!! Hahaha I shall take a picture with them next time I go back :) since they didn't have food I had to go to the only stall that was open and ordered carrot cake. Had one plate, and since I might not be having dinner on time, I had another plate. 

Please don't let me eat carrot cake again for the next few months. It was a bad experience. 

Once I was done with that, I headed up to the band room, and put down my camera bag. Said hi to the conductors, then went to meeting section. Putri knew I was visiting today, and I wanted to surprise the juniors so I didn't tell them. Hahaha poor Amirah. She wanted to get a picture with the section with me included. Daaaaaang I should have said I was coming. Lol. 

The new member was Yan Mei as I found out. Background info: sec 1, played the clarinet first, then swapped over to our section after Putri fought for her LOL. She does quite well. Her tone isn't as fantastic as what was claimed to be, but she can play well. 2months and she has memorized the Bb finger scale, and she can read the first octave. She couldn't play consecutive notes in the same breath. That's the problem that I was told. Somehow, all my junior can't yeah her how. So I taught her once, let her make a two tries, and then poof she could do it lol. My juniors refer to me as the master teacher but I'm like LOL HELLO NO IM NOT LORH LOL. Anyway. At least that problem was solved. 

Anyway. They had a new piece to play, "Celebrata". So I covered the first 24 bars with them. They had like 8 bars of rest at te beginning, played a trill, then a complimentary. So yeah. I saw pretty Sherrie walking by and so I called out to her. She stood outside the room, right at the glass widows, looking in, watching me teach the section lol. After a while she came in and let us listen to the song (she downloaded it I guess) and then I was like 'whoa the tempo so fast lol' but good thing I had things pretty much up to the tempo with the flutes even before listening to the track. So I plugged in her iPhone 5 to the PA system in the classroom and played it over the speakers lol. NICE SONG. 

Once we got the tempo, I sped the section up to match the tempo for the same bars that I had them working on. Once that was done, it was already 1700hrs. I had my last few run throughs with them then I left. At the band room to get my bag, Mr Goh talked to me a bit about taking flute exams. He said that I should be entering at Grade 5, based on my standard. But of course that is the practical part. I asked him about he theory, and he said he could teach me those. But he's free only on Saturday mornings. Which I totally fine with. But whether I wanna take the exam or not, different thing. 

I'm just a casual performer, I don't know whether getting a "license" (as I see it as) would be beneficial to me or not. Sure, if I were to play in a community band then yeah it migh come in handy. But I don't know about that yet. So far, I'm just playing for my own enjoyment, and when the ward/stake choir needs a flautist. Well, something to think about. He said that if I want, he can get the exam piece for me, practice for it, and let me take the exam, while he teaches me the theory Saturday mornings. 

We decided to talk further on whatsapp. With that, I left, and headed to the bus stop where I would take 2 buses to get to MBS Convention Centre for Etude House Pink Play Party where SHINee and Sulli will be at. I waited for 40minutes, only to find out that the bus only serves in the morning. Made my way to the train station and met wming on the way. Went up to the station, and then I left first since my train arrived. 

Reached MBS hotel/towers, then asked for directions at the Concierge, got directed back to where I came from. Partly though. Crossed the road to the Shoppes area then headed to Hall C. Saw trish there. She's with some media company (idc so I didn't bother asking who) so I registered first. I went in immediately (she had to wait for her ticket cue #okcan) then met up with syah, and stationed beside her on a black standee. Some drama with the security but after a while we were good. She gave the business card of someone she knows from ST (she was writing for the online forum so yeah) then she got a CREW pass. Heck syah next time help me get one ah lol. 

Soon the event started. Ross was (lol rhyme) hosting the event. SHINee hasn't even made an appearance when I saw security standing in an emptied out circle. Saw some fans beside them fanning someone who apparently was on the floor. Security got a bottled water and have it to the person. My guess, the person fainted. Probably the warmth got to her. When she was wheeled away, she was all sweaty, so that pretty much confirmed my guess. 

SHINee came up, Sulli too. Got 449 pictures or so. A good decent number. I had to keep changing my settings because the lighting kept changing. I didn't have a media pass either so it was tough using my heavy 80-200 to get shots. 

Btw I wanna get a new lens. Something that reaches up to 400mm. I think Nikon has a 200-400 f4 I think...it's a constant ap so that's good. But I wish it were f2.8 or lower lol. But that means more money. Which is hard to get. Anyway. It's on my wish list. 

Event ended and I met up with Geok Lan and her friends from online. All fans of SHINee. They're a bit auntie so i was glad that they decided to take the bus from dhoby while Geok Lan and I took the train back. We both alighted at marsiling, and she took the bus back from there. I chatted with her till her bus arrived. 

By the time I reached home, it was already 2250hrs. But oh well it was nice catching up with Geok Lan aka angel. Supposedly she's the angel and I'm a devil (cuz I keep disturbing her and Frances lol) -.- she's still the same even after all these years. I miss the old Digiphoto team. Everybody's gone, and I'm the only one left who is still listed as their employee, even though I have not worked for them in a year. I guess it's the skills I have that makes them want to keep me. Though I'm bad with money. 

Got back home, with that dumb pink bag that was given to all the participants of the event. I'm not planning to keep ANY of them, so I'm giving them to mom/jie and to Natalie, since I know how much of a fangirl she is for Taemin. Too bad the merchandises weren't so SHINee related..just some here and there, but nothing about Taemin. 

Pictures will be up. I promise. Because I have time, and I'm in the mood for it. Plus there are just a few pictures. 500 tops. 

Yeahhhh I'll do them. 

Changed my wallpaper. 

I miss that night. 

lets play in the rain. since the feeling doesnt go away.

its been 4 days since the last of my exams this semester. feeling so much less-burdened by it, now that its over. i've been working on my Beyond 5 pictures and the watermark for the Stake. and i've been playing quite a fair bit too. so far i have 50plus pictures of Beyond 5 concert, about 16 for Beats And Pieces, (oh i havent gone through the fanmeet ones yet...) and 9 for the soundcheck. i also have 6 designs for the watermark. gonna compile mine with mathias' and then we'll decide on the top few, then send them to the Stake to decide which ones they wanna use. hope it all works out well. once that is done, we'll proceed with the uploading of the watermarked pictures and then we'll publish them everywhere.

i wonder what its like to have a calling as a Stake Photographer. LOL. that's one slacker calling ah. probably one that lasts a lifetime hahahaha. but when events come along, they'll call and i'd be busy. i wonder if stake photographers are called to shoot for weddings for members. and i wonder if im gonna get paid for it. but i'd have to set up a contract first, and that is the risky part. im hesitant about wedding photography. VERY HESITANT. i dont wanna get sued broke man. say bye to my mission fund.

if the photography takes us places, i guess only mathias and i will be in the team. sorry, the other photographer's pictures really didnt make the cut. i dont even think he used a DSLR. they're so grainy and OOF and so much motion blur. i dont think he edited them either. but if he did, it doesnt make much difference. im still waiting for the video clips of Beats And Pieces because Ying Er requested for them. its been about a week or so and i still dont have it. i cant contact the videographer. he probably gets my mails and texts but doesnt wanna reply. okay lorh...


communication and teamwork is so important.
maybe they dont take me seriously because im younger than them.
but they dont know all the pictures i have under my belt.
and the quality of them.

too bad i dont have a large audience to back that up.
thats pretty awful to know.




HIGHJACK.
HIJACK.
JACK.
JACK'S PLACE.

im hungry now.







its raining right now, wonderful cool weather. i wanna go places but i dont know where to go. i guess i should go on a photoshoot of my own. i wanna get pictures of the rain.

Etude House Pink Play Party tomorrow, and my kit lens has mould. i wanna cry. i hope it doesnt mess up my pictures (though i think it already has). i needa send it in for repair and cleaning asap :( probably after A-PRINCE though. they're coming this friday. i think saturday too. oh and eva's gone already i guess. she still thinks it amazing that i know Ohio State University lol. is it really that much of a mystery?

met claire yesterday. i went down after my sacrament lol. i forgot that 2nd ward starts at 10am and not 9am. so when i went down, obviously there wasnt anybody. walao then bro charlie saw me waiting at the carpark then asked me "so sam who's the girl". a while later, bishop yow came along and said "sam waiting for your girlfriend ah" im like WHOA. he knows....? O.O

but anyway. i went up to gospel principles class. once that was done we moved on to the final hour for EQ class. midway, i got a message from an unknown number, but it was claire, saying that she'd be leaving in 2minutes. i rushed down but the stupid door wouldnt open even after pressing the release button a million times. i saw her send a text, and started walking. my phone vibrated. message received. didnt check and then made the big round by the rear door, and that took extra time. i ran out but managed to catch her before she crossed the road. passed her the bracelet i got from van, and the letter i wrote for her. she said she was late so i told her to go quickly. i didnt have time to watch her go or send her off to the mrt since i left in the middle of class, so i went back.



time flies. five months.
i wonder what we'd be like if things were better.

so far the only one who knows is wong ming. he's been there for me throughout. great guy. i dont plan to publish it to a lot of people. there's like no way for me to repay him sia he's better than me in almost everything. almost. i guess. but that 'almost' pretty much encompasses 'everything' too.



i dont show it, but im still hanging on to nothing.
heh. getting over it isnt as simple as i thought it would be.
how long is this longing feeling gonna last, i wonder.

Shglslyb HDTV

I recall having two dreams last night (sunday night) when I woke up. First one took place in SP Moberly, level 3. I was training with the dojo again. I met Danielle and yi yan, and I remember saying "wow I'm still welcome here". After that, next dream. 

Fast one right lol. 

This one is a bit lengthier. I only remember 2 parts now, but I'm sure it was longer than this. Firstly, I was with my flute section. We were in some place in China for a competition or something official along those lines. I was a chaperon of some kind, but definitely a high-ranking guy. My juniors were ordering food while seates at a round and there was this guy telling them to pay 500yuan. They kept saying no, but I stepped in and said "200yuan" (or whatever you call their currency). The guy turned around from his stopping posture, gave me a small glare, and said "okay fine, 200yuan" and then walked away. One of my juniors beckoned me closer and so I leaned forward. She said that he guy just now had something up his sleee - literally. When he came back, I took more special notice of his wright wrist. And that's where I saw the blade. 

It was a thin blade, one that could cut for sure. The next thing I knew, we were fighting already lol. But this is where I woke up. 

Bopian ah. Got exam. 

WERD DAE

well.

stayed back today to do DBD slides for friday's presentation after we ended school at 1130hrs. ongfr took the extra half hour to explain more questions. im pretty much dead for his paper on tuesday. i dont understand 80% of all his stuff.

monday is RPBA
tuesday is BIOMECH
wednesday is BIOMAT.

im fine with biomaterials. RPBA....a lot to remember. biomech...calculations everywhere that makes me wanna cry. and all that stupid theory here and there. goshhhhhhhhhhhhh. GPA gonna be pulled down because of that stupid module. 4 credits sia. tsk. hope molgenbio saves me at least.

anyway. the slides are pretty much done. missing quite a number of stuff but considering what we had on hand, we did quite well. zicong did all the work while i was talking to matthew about his isokinetic project -.- im so baddddd.

once that was done, i had him send it over to me, then we left. matthew stayed back to do what he could for the project report. we met jess on the bridge, saw dawn leave to take the bus and then caught up with van while she was just about to go up the escalator. said hi to her abruptly and she said "whoa that scared me" and i was like LOLOKAY in my head. since the train already arrived i was going up the escalator, she just stood there. then on second thought, she rushed up the escalator with zicong and me ahhahaha.

managed to get in to the train before the doors closed. and somehowwwwwwww the conversation started off with me lol. how has my relationship been going on so far, how long already, blablabla. oh well. then zicong being the zicong that he is, his weird/awkward comments started coming in (as usual) and then me and van were like HMMMOKAYYYYYYYYYY hahhahahha. i made a few retarded OKAYYYYYYyyyyy faces and van was laughing away lol wth XP

jurong east came around and so zicong and  i headed over to the red line. and he started asking me questions like whats the use of a relationship, why get into one. he said that he doesnt see the need to be in a relationship and all those kind of stuff. so he asked me why why why and aaaaaaall the long shizam and so i tried my best to explain. ITS TOUGH since he doesnt have the same perspective. he's going on about "i dont need anybody else to depend on but myself" and "why do you need someone else".

he's the strong one. but i dont know, we all have our own opinions on love and stuff like that. his opinion is the strongheaded one. i told him that sooner or later, there's gonna be this one point in his life that he's gonna need someone to back up him, to support him. and he went like.."NO".

LOL. OKAY CAN.









funny how today turned out, with the recent events. talked about my relationship, my opinions on it, and what i like about my girlfriend the whole way back till he alighted at cck. the rest was all music until i saw this honey bee in the train. it flew to the empty seat on my right, sat at the top, and rested there. i observed it aaaaaaall the way until marsiling. LOL. i was a bit tempted to pick it up and drop it off at marsiling..its kinda furry~


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