This week hasn't been a good week. Nights out on Wednesday, with nowhere to go with no one to go with, I went back home. Had dinner there, then went back to camp. Booked out on Thursday because Friday is Labor Day.
Spent the whole of Friday with Hyrum and Onson and Ya Cong. We had dinner at Nando's, then Hyrum and I went to watch Avengers. The waiting time for everything was ridiculous. Almost had to intervene for a few people at the Malaysian immigration because of the long and undesirable waiting
time: 3hrs. went back home at the end of the day at around 9ish only to realise that there was contention at home waiting for me. I didn't the whole night trying to resolve the issue that wasn't even mine to begin with. I stayed up all the way until 2am trying to solve it. Didn't manage to do ended up sleeping.
time: 3hrs. went back home at the end of the day at around 9ish only to realise that there was contention at home waiting for me. I didn't the whole night trying to resolve the issue that wasn't even mine to begin with. I stayed up all the way until 2am trying to solve it. Didn't manage to do ended up sleeping.
Woke up at 9am. Did some exercise with mom and then played on the com until it was time to go to church for missionary meeting. Had institute right after that. Ming came in with trish and they sat behind me. Didn't have any feel to go fit mothers day celebration with the ward because things
just working out and the were some last minute stuff that I was assigned to do which I didn't wanna do. Ended up doing it anyway.
just working out and the were some last minute stuff that I was assigned to do which I didn't wanna do. Ended up doing it anyway.
For the rest of the night it was all about celebrating mothers. It was nice, but it was lonely. So lonely. I was smiling and laughing, getting the whole emcee game going on, but it really wasn't me.
After it ended, I was hoping to go home with the YSAs because I didn't wanna go home alone. But they all left earlier than me. And so sometimes I feel like as if I'm being left out. Went home with mom and dad but went in the train in a different door because I just wanted to be alone. Ughhhhhhhh.
These past weeks have been lonely.
So very lonely.
So very lonely.
My bunk is full of people in relationships with people to talk to at night, and in all alone.
I don't mind being alone.
I just hate being lonely.
Time is wearing me down.
I have nowhere to run.
No arms to embrace me.
No shoulder to lean on.
No hand to hold.
I just hate being lonely.
Time is wearing me down.
I have nowhere to run.
No arms to embrace me.
No shoulder to lean on.
No hand to hold.
I'm just so alone that it's killing me softly from the inside.
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