So on Tuesday we were taken by her, but I kinda just used that day to be more familiar with her. She took us on Wednesday also so that's that.
Why does she look so stunning in everything she wears?
On Tuesday we did ECG, and then before a break we were talking and then I said that I'd volunteer to be the guy being pasted on. She said "okay ah you say you want now later don't back out ah". Because the volunteer would get a kit kat. When the time came and she asked for a volunteer, she immediately looked towards me (she knew where I sat) and I smiled but I didn't go up. Yeahhhhh I got shy, so someone else from my section eventually went up.
Yes, what a disappointment.
At the end of the day, I got as many reasons as I needed to stay back until there were just a small handful of us in the room. I went up to her and said "ma'am sorry about just now ah, I shy ah". Then she said "don't worry, tomorrow (Wednesday) still got ______".
But ma'am, I gave you my word and failed to deliver. That's what I'm disappointed about. Now even though there's a second chance, it will never be the same.
Sigh.
Chasing girls in army not easy ayyyy.
Anyway. On Tuesday night I dreamt that I wasn't the one to report strength anymore (though by right, I shouldn't be already...). I dreamt that I was handing over the position to someone else, and somehow the thought of that just killed me.
YES I consider that dream as a nightmare.
So now I'm thinking. Would I stay here in this camp as an instructor, just so I could know her more? Or would I follow my desired path and be in the Navy as a medic? There's just too little time to make any proper decision. For all I know, it could just be a simple infatuation, nothing more, and that I could be wasting my time and efforts, getting my hopes raised up for nothing.
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