I only have my God to thank.

Today started off well. Reached stake centre at 0810hrs, since we took a cab. Brought my laptop for the sign-language videos that i downloaded last night and super early early early this morning. Like...1am.

Anyway. I feel that the sunday sessions are more awesomer than the saturday one. Mainly because  was sleeping for most part of the 3 sessions. Funny how i managed to stay awake with only 4.5hours if sleep for the sunday session, and slept through 3 sessions on saturday with 6hours of sleep.

Reached home, then went for dinner at thaddus'. He's so close to zephya and thalia lol.

Anyway. Today was tough still. Resisted the urge to punch one person in the face, and resisted again the urge to just shout out loud at that person. The thoughts were somewhere about 10secs apart from each other.

Talking about me from behind, i could pick up some words. Good thing i decided to walk faster, keep ahead of the group and tell myself to calm down. Prayed for help right there and then. Im glad for my past experiences with these kind of encounters. I knew what to do. And that stupid idiot satan lost.

Thats why.
I only have my God to thank.
If i did punch the person, if i did shout back, what would that make me?

A few years back, the thoughts and feelings of anger and violence came much more easily, and more difficult to suppress.
This recent experience is both a food and bad thing for me. Bad in the sense that they have come back, but good in the sense that i didnt react, i didnt clench my fist(s) (i used to do that last time), i didnt grit my teeth, i didnt hit any wall or pole while walking.

Its better now.
Just like a sickness.
I only have my God to thank.