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soooooooooooo.

i was just thinking that we should be thinking about a name. like, how there's the "Monday Couple" that almost everybody knows. it probably would be cool if we had one too. this random thought came to my mind when i was going through my pictures just now.

so what i did was to take a black picture. add in one frame. add in text. but i didnt know what text to put in. then the "we" came into my head. then i was like..."yeah...we could get a /label/". then i'd add that name/label into the picture as the text. then BOOM. set as wallpaper on my iTouch. steady bo. lol.

so yeah. i dont know about you. if you wanna go with the idea, i'll start thinking!! anyway. ima starting thinking now anyway :)

tell me when you've decided on whether to have a name or not!!

One of a kind.

Just got back from church!!

The talks today were good. And yhr lessons were good. Today's a wake-up call for me. Sacrament talks were about charity, integrity and obedience. Hyrum's one was good :) his mission president took cGMP!! Hahaha so i understood what hyrum was talking about lol, since i learned a bit in school.gonna take the cGMP mod next sem :P

Anyway. Zhiling (my couzzie) came to our ward to sit in for hyrum's talk. I fell asleep for the last 10secs and she was watching me nod off. Elbowed me then pinched my arm to wake me up XD

Gospel principles was good today too, talking about the Atonement. Missionaries taught the lesson and kept getting me to answer them lol. Had one investigstor, her name is Claire/Clare. From SiChuan!! Seems like she has some background knowledge about Christianity. She brought the Book of Mormon that the missionaries passed to her, so thats good!! Really receptive :)

And then there's EQ lesson lol.

Right after that i headed up to the 4th floor (since im on the 2nd) where zhiling said that my nephew and niece were. Found them in the nursery room, so i started chilling with then hehehhe. Too bad i didnt get a picture with them :/ nat was super active as usual, and olivia was as quiet as usual too hahaha. It took a while for olivia to get used to seeing me in a white shirt and black pants with tie i guess lol. Stayed with them for an hour or so, ate with then at the tp ward's refreshments cuz they had ward conf that day. Saw President Lai and President Kwan there lol. Both talked to me for a bit :P

Then after eating, the two started to play with the other kids in the ward, so i jad to keep up with them. After a while i saw stacy. Not that i saw her first lah. She came up to me when i got inti a room with the kids, she said "hi sam!!" then i was like "hey yo sup!!" then she asked me whethet i was teaching. A bit blur so i was like "naw just following my nephew around". So she was like "ouh" then smth smth then she left for sac meeting~

So after a while, nat and olivia had to go back, so i sent them off all the way to the car. As usual, they were shouting "BYE UNCLE SAM" hahhahaha.

Cute stuffz.
Great day.
I am happy :)

Mirror.

Well, i guess that its just a lot on my mind.
I wont be listing them out; my brain's kinda exhausted. I'll just let it rest for a bit more before i reach sp.
Gonna train for the demo fully (i hope), and that's gonna sap out so much energy and brain juice from me.

Here goes.
I hope im ready for it.

Incredulous.

Time: 1848hrs

Fantastic.

Last week, i saw an elderly couple holding hands gong down the escalator, leading them to ntuc. Imagine that: the husband going grocery shopping with the wife, after so many years.

So blissful.

And today's kinda cool. I just got on the train going to juring east from yew tee. Why so random? I frll asleep on the train that was bringing me to jurong east from marsiling, while i was standing up. Cant believe it sia.

So, what i figured to happen is this: i got on the train at marsiling, played a few runs of temple run 2, figured i was so tired, so i turned the ipod off while lisening to music. The next thing i knew, i was on the wag towards yew tee, towards marina bay. This means i slept from somewhere around chua chu kang, got to jurong east (sleeping while standing up), didnt get off the train (obviously), and then headed back towards marina bay.

It took me 5seconds to realise what happened. And when i did, i was like "well that's something". Never knew i could sleep while standing up, and i also never that i could sleep SO LONG while standing.

I must either be one tired fella, or there must be so much in my mind.
You decide which you wanna believe in.

pixie dust.

i wish i could teleport to where you are right now.
cradle you.
soothe you to sleep.
i'll creep out of the window, fly to the stars, watching you sleep from afar.
make sure you're resting well.
wake you up in the morning with the sun and birds.
and send you on your way with a hug.



-update-
feeling so useless, so helpless.
feeling like a nobody because i cant do anything except pray.
when conversations break down, everything goes.

i hate this feeling. 

-update's update-
i hope she sees it.
i hope she really does.
and i hope she replies.

horribility.

"They hit like ladies, common!!! and the soldier actually cry from a ladies hit lmao...."
https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=4801277065858

oh please. give me a break.
yes, the bully might be hitting like a lady, but honestly, i dont think that that is the reason why he is crying.

in my opinion, the author of that comment has disregarded the fact that that soldier has no feelings. he is a human, and he has feelings. and hey, even plants have feelings. just because they cant voice it out doesnt mean that they dont have any.

and so here is my opinion.

i believe that the reason why the soldier cried is due to the humiliation that is dealt. surely, he must have a lot of self control. no matter what the blow, and even though he is physically weaker than the other two, he takes it all. the physical, mental and emotional pain is crushing. it could possibly scar the soldier for the rest of his life. who knows?

he had every right, except rank, to deal a blow. would it constitute as self defense? sadly, no. because his life was not threatened. however, retaliation, if under the right circumstances, might just be the right thing to do. if someone were to bully me like this, i just might seize the opportunity when it presents myself to give this guy a good punch. he might want to do this to me and others just to show their superiority, but hey, i stand my ground.

i wouldnt want to be a pushover. if he thinks that he can just mess around with me, i wouldnt want to tolerate all that nonsense. everybody has their threshold of humiliation. unfortunately, or fortunately, this bully did not learn his lesson: that he cannot go around bullying anybody as and when he wishes to.

unrighteous dominion.

your rank might be higher than the soldier, but this is simply taking advantage of your rank to do what you want to to the lower ranked soldiers. sure, they cannot retaliate, because if they do, if they report to a superior, all that the bully has to do is just delete the video. evidence gone. and with the level of corruption in the government, dont be surprised if nothing happens. this would continue, and perhaps, even worse.

corruption, the flower of evil.

life gets crazy sometimes, dont you agree?

Aww yeahhhhh

GUESS WHAT I BORROWED FROM THE LIBRARY TODAYYYY!!! HAPPIBOI94

If only i could stop time.

Yesterday was a great day!! Ended school at 1100hrs cuz we didnt really have much to do..its only the first week. So ckk let us off early. Then he said "next week no more early release already". Okay lorh not important also!! Hahahaha.

Thanks to tresis and her boyfriend shawn, i got my itouch back!! It was a bit troublesome on their part, a bit sad too for me, but the outcome was good. Thats all that matters. Soooo, had fyp group discussion first, then i got my notes binded before the lunch crowd came in. Then i left for je library.

Guess who i saw there!! Miss claire!! Hahhaa what a coincidence LOL. No lah it was all planned lol study at je lib until time indefinite. Aww yeahhhhh. Shared a table with this nice lady who looks like 40+ish but probably is just in her mid-30s. Anyway, we studied and CHILLED LIKE SIAO till 5ish before we left. Went to jcube first to grab something to eat. Checked out the whole basement including ntuc, but eventually settled down for takoyaki hhehehe.

THIS CLAIRE LAH MAKE ME GET 4 TAKOYAKI. 50c more sia. Lol. Anyway. Tasted quite okay lah!! Think SP one also not bad leyh.

Anyway. Then sent her off first before i got on my train ti get back to sp for extra demo training. Reached at like 6pm, nobody was doing anything. So i and a few others lepaked in the clubhouse, then i started singing. I ENJOYED MYSELF SO MUCH HAHAHAHHAHA purposely sing off key like siao, then purposely crack my voice, hahahhaha. THEN WE SANG THE MACARENA!!! HAHAHHAHAHHAA enjoyed myself so much. Anyway. Told jerome that we should get one recording of me singing retardedly one day XD then post on youtube and facebook hahhahaha!!

Ahhhhh i wanna live yesterday again.
Especially the library part :)
GOT NOTICE THE TITLE ANOT HUH.

Plan.

Been blasting away on twitter. And i see others doing the same too. Everybody's sunday isnt a good one.

I will be the first to stop spamming negative tweets.
Think happy thoughts.

Far-fetched.

Im hoping that you get the signal that im not in the mood for your humour dude. Other days, yeah  i dont really mind. But PLEASE, for the love of everybody, please, just not now.

I only have my God to thank.

Today started off well. Reached stake centre at 0810hrs, since we took a cab. Brought my laptop for the sign-language videos that i downloaded last night and super early early early this morning. Like...1am.

Anyway. I feel that the sunday sessions are more awesomer than the saturday one. Mainly because  was sleeping for most part of the 3 sessions. Funny how i managed to stay awake with only 4.5hours if sleep for the sunday session, and slept through 3 sessions on saturday with 6hours of sleep.

Reached home, then went for dinner at thaddus'. He's so close to zephya and thalia lol.

Anyway. Today was tough still. Resisted the urge to punch one person in the face, and resisted again the urge to just shout out loud at that person. The thoughts were somewhere about 10secs apart from each other.

Talking about me from behind, i could pick up some words. Good thing i decided to walk faster, keep ahead of the group and tell myself to calm down. Prayed for help right there and then. Im glad for my past experiences with these kind of encounters. I knew what to do. And that stupid idiot satan lost.

Thats why.
I only have my God to thank.
If i did punch the person, if i did shout back, what would that make me?

A few years back, the thoughts and feelings of anger and violence came much more easily, and more difficult to suppress.
This recent experience is both a food and bad thing for me. Bad in the sense that they have come back, but good in the sense that i didnt react, i didnt clench my fist(s) (i used to do that last time), i didnt grit my teeth, i didnt hit any wall or pole while walking.

Its better now.
Just like a sickness.
I only have my God to thank.

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I should cultivate more patience.
After all, now that jie's gone, im thr only one left that mom can rely on to get groceries.

Its tough being reliable.
How on earth do the prophets do it.

In related news, you are awesome :)

Anyway. Went out with YOU (probably the only one who reads my blog hahahaha) just nowzzzz~ though it was kinda short, I gotta say that it was super cool to spend time with you after soooooooooo long :) chilled at the ice skating rink watching stuff go round and round.

It was nice sitting beside you :)
BTW SHOULD I EVEN BE SAYING THIS OUT SO LOUD. Aiyah but who cares right. Hahahaha~ well, I still gotta mend that necklace/whatchamacallit and the get ready for bed.

Presentation tomorrow, also see if the people at SPICE can help me out with my laptop or not. Training afterwards, hopefully I can settle the music by tomorrow. I'm not, ima ditch it. Been telling them that I have music ready but they don't wanna listen to it and don't wanna choreograph to it. Fine lorh.

Gibberish!! Hahaha

Okay so I've saved not just 15 songs, but actually 69 songs. Yeap, no kidding. That's a lot of songs. I'm glad I did that first before reformatting my computer. So Claire asked me how I did it when my com can't even work for 30seconds. It's kinda simple really, my dad taught me.

Firstly, you needa know that Computers that run on Windows OS boots up from the HDD, the internal built-in one. Your stuff are all saved inside it too. And since my songs are inside that HDD, and since my com doesn't work, there's something wrong with the HDD.

Basically, I need to access my HDD, but without booting up from it. So here's the tricky part. Since you know that your HDD also is a super big thumbdrive, you plug your HDD into another working computer to access the files inside.

But wait Sam!! That doesn't make sense!! Are you telling me to connect my desktop computer to another computer by USB?!
---no im not.

Firstly, whether your computer is a desktop or a laptop, it runs on that HDD (which can be replaced; ie: it can be removed from the laptop/desktop casing).

So that's pretty much what you need to do. Take out that big (or not so big) thumbdrive and with the right wires and cables and a power adaptor, you can connect that HDD/thumbdrive to a working computer and from there, access your files.

And that is what I did. I accessed my so files that way, and transferred the songs that I have not backed up into my spare HDD (the one that I back up my files into). It's a pretty neat trick. I'm pretty sure all the techies out there know this. But yeah.

Things might get even more tricky if you're trying to access your desktop files, especially if you have a password to your account; it's an extra step.



-END OF REPORT-

Life's dips.

Okay I found out that the last song that was backed up is 2BiC's "Back To Black" album. It's probably 2-3 weeks ago, if I remember correctly. And ever since that last back up, I've probably downloaded about 15ish songs. IT IS A LOT OHKAY.

I miss my songs :( I really really hope that my com gets better soon. Like REALLY SOON. Because I'm going for CNBLUE press con this Friday as a photographer and I would need to edit the pictures. Without Photoshop, I don't know how I'm gonna edit them...even without a working computer...

SADDED A LOT. a little despo too.

Ever since Saturday, my poor laptop hasn't been doing well :( SUPER SAD NOW CAN. Tuesday already sia :( at first it would just hang on the home screen free 30ish seconds after logging in. Hanging lasts forever (I think). That was until Sunday.

Then I tried booting up in safe mode, worked about twice or thrice, and then BAM it would haaaaaang during booting up, and then log in as if 'safe mode' never happened. Then of course, hang again.

I tried 1 online solution, and another 2 from dad. I can't get it to work because it hangs whenever I'm in the process of trying to fix it. I've been trying over and over again whenever I can and have the time, but it just doesn't wanna work with me :(

Now I'm considering re-formatting the whole com. This means I'm gonna lose A LOT of my songs that I have not backed up. Well, it may not be that many because I've been doing back ups quite frequently in the past month (I think) but it's still a lot lorhhh...

Sigh. I need I check which was the Kay song I backed up.

"Bye bye never say good bye."

Picture time!!!

So yeah. The wound on my knee!! I didnt take on for my elbow cuz that one's nothing.

Its been a while!!

Today is sunday!! 6days away from conference viewing. CANT WAIT!!
anyway. Its like 0815hrs now hahha im on the mrt platform waiting for the train. I missed one by 10seconds. How annoying is that man. OKAY and now im on the train.
Yesterday i was thinking how i have not written a post yet since its been some time since my last entry. So yeap thats why im writing this one now.

Update, yesterday, i went to sp at like 1450hrs to have a shoot for sp karate club. Yi yan asked me on friday night if i could shoot for them anot. Apparently its for the poster for the sp cca fair, and this year the poly decided not to help us take pictures. And soooo we're required to submit our own pictures. And thats where i come into the picture.

It rained quite a fair bit, mostly drizzles i reckon, at least by the time that i reached sp. Danielle and yi yan were there already, so we waited for jerome. He reached at 1500hrs. Then POOF suddenly shihan seng appeared. But before that i was browsing through the metal cupboard and taking out the different shirts that i could see (i brought back 4 in the end; 2 dri-fit, 2 cotton; 3 of which are of spkc, the last 1 from sp), and while 'clearing' the cupboard i had to take out some files.

And then yeah shihan seng was there, talking on about the certs and pictures and whatever he could find in one of the files that was on the table. That delayed the shooting by like 20mins there abouts. And danielle didnt say that she needed to go by 1530hrs -.- soon we went off to the plaza and they started coordinating their poses. Walao havent decided yet leh -.- waste time sia. I decided to have them shoot in the rain since it would be *nicer* that way bahhaa. But not much diff lah!!

Danielle ended up leaving at 1550hrs while yi yan, jerome and i remained to continue the shoot. Shihan seng was holding the umbrella for me. Sooo credit to him for that. Anyway. The camera got wet a little (quite a fair bit) cuz he was animating some gestures in the air and so the umbrella would shake, causing the rain collected to drip down onto the camera. Tsktsk. I decided to shelter it with my hand for added protection.

While beginning the shoot, i slipped!! It wasnt embarrasskng or whatever, BUT YEAH I SLIPPED. I had the camera mounted on the tripod already which i carried in my left hand. Then i walked over this rocky floor that had all those tiny tiny pebbles mixed in that greyish cement. No grip whatsoever.

Then bam i fell. I dont recall hiw it happened but im guessing its my right foot that slipped. I /somehow/ managed to fall backwards, and then my left hand and leg broke the fall /i think/. Of course i had my neck tucked in so as to protect my head when i fall backwards - some say they learn it in karate (like me) while others say its natural instinct. But yeah, thats only 3 of the 5 limbs. YES THE HEAD IS A LIMB OKAY. ITS JUST A SPECIAL ONE. I dont know what happened to my right leg. No bruises or whatever, so not important.

Then there's my right hand. The one where my camera+tripod is held in. I suspect the fall was fairly smooth and gentle, since it wasnt thaaaat difficult to keep the camera safe. I managed to keep my arm raised upright, so that it would be super safe and also so that its weight wont affect the direction i fall. Woowoo.

So yeah. Thats how i fell lol. One scratch on my left elbow, and about (i never really got around counting them, waste of time hahahha) 5 cuts near and around the bone below my left knee. Ne of them was significantly deeper than the others, probably /about/ 3mm deep.

Anyway, pictures are to be submitted to the facebook grouo so the club can choose which they want. I have 4. But no i dont really have them. Since i was kinda lazy, after that great accident in school, to do any editting. Its still untouched. I didnt even take the camera out lah. So i'll have to do them later when i reach home. Get the 4 pictures, edit, and the upload.

Ahhh. going to amk now.