Summpost

[26 May]

Tuesday night falls, end it marks the near end of my three days of Summex, summary-exercise, where we are placed in a warzone that requires us to apply all that we've learned to save multiple casualties while working together in a company level attack. We are all given various positions and duties to fulfill.

Just like field camp, we camo on and camp off at the start of every new mission, and typically have one mission every half day. And also like field camp, we get shouted at endlessly, just that this one is only when we're treating the casualties. And also like field camp, we are accessed heavily based on our performance during the missions on these three days in all the roles that we are tasked with. So far we've accomplished 4 of 5 missions, and I've been appointed as platoon sergeant twice, and as a medic once. It was kinda stressful but I managed to overcome it and stay calm and composed throughout :) I guess karate training helped me with that...

Tomorrow is my last mission, and summex ends when that mission is accomplished. Although that's that, we have a practical test on MPAM (that shouldn't be a problem after going through these 3 shit-filled days) and a theory test on something. After that we have a briefing for our attachment (that hasn't been confirmed yet) and then BOOK OUT!! Friday is day 1 of attachment and then go out for dinner with my flutes, then go home wash clothes pack bag for convention!! Be in church in the morning then slowly make our way to campsite. Perhaps someone would get injured and then require my skills!! *hahahahaha*

After that, come back on Monday, attachment for the rest of the week, then some admin stuff back in camp, then FOREVER LEAVE THIS PLACE then go back to pasir Laba for the remaining 1.5weeks. After that, SCGP then get my rank lo :D after 8months of hell...i finally get a real rank :')

I pretty much know who I will invite to my graduation parade already...so if you get my text...please say yes!! Hahahha!!

I just gotta get over tomorrow and Thursday..!!

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I'll find a way to fix myself, just like the engineer I am. I'll pick up these broken parts around me, mess around with them, and fix myself back up single-handedly with my broken arm, as I sit on the rocky ground.

Meanwhile, hand me that crutch. I need it.

So how

Just got back from convention today!! Lots things happened but I'm still thinking about one-two things in particular. Gonna meet taopok tmr to tell her everything, get em all off my chest and mind.

Man, so many things happened in so little time. It's killing me even. I cant stop thinking about it. Mehhh.

Well, just wait for tmr. Everything will be well by then.

Pick me

[21 May]

So I heard that the Navy guys are coming down on Friday!! FINALLY AHHHH!! Gonna be the one asking all the questions because I really wanna get in. Change colour, change camp, new friends, new superiors, new culture, new adventures. Kinda excited!!

Yesterday we had nights out. Most of us went out to eat and play CS:GO but I decided to go back home, even if it was for just about an hour or so. Mom's still sick so I decided that going back home would be a great thing to do. Plus she was having quite a hard time, so yeah, she was really happy to hear that I was coming back home.

I guess my time is the most precious thing I can give to others, especially since I'm in the army. SO IF I GO OUT WITH YALL, YOU SHOULD FREE PRIVILEGED OKAY. Aiyah but anyway most of my friends don't read my blog because I don't advertise it. Because they get all the updates from me directly. Media has this thing about it that distances people in a way...

So yeah that's my week so far..? Other than the shag stuff we go through this week (actually not so shag). Next week is the shag one uh. Complete 8 missions in 3 days, and 6 of which will be used to evaluate us, which might determine where we get vocated to. I don't know how it works but it's like the ultimate "test week" for us. SUMMEX is what it's called, short for "summary exercise". It combines all that we've learned during the whole course and puts it into application in varying scenarios. Pretty cool idea but pretty pressuring too hahahha. Oh well.

I hope to accomplish it well. I look forward to the end of next week because that's where the attachments begin!! We don't know which hospital we will be attached to just yet, but we will find out next week, they say. I hope I get attached to khoo teck phuat hahahha so near my house :]

Ambulance attachment most likely will be over weekends...which means missing more days in church. But its an exceptional experience and you don't get this opportunity easily... See how lah. There's some problem with the scheduling of manpower at the fire station side so I'll let the higher ups here in camp settle it out with them.

Plans plans plans!!

[19 May]

Figuring out who to invite to my POP parade sia...i have too many people I wanna invite but I can't possibly have all of them go...then all from different clique so later it will be awkward for them.

Sigh. Guess I'll have to pick just 1 from each clique..? But even then that's a lot of people still...the people who helped me get through this course...how sia :/

Anyway saw madam Daphne today at the cook house with her team. Too bad by the time she was alone we needed to zao already. Got so many questions to ask her about her job...

This week and next week is combat phase, the physically xiong part of my time here in my course. Trying to tahan throughout without making my condition worsen. I'm still sick from 2 weeks ago, but my body's showing signs of recovery. I'm quite glad..? Although it means that I won't have any solid excuse to fall out. aiyah but I'm not the type to lah either way. So no issue. I've got my fighting spirit!! I believe I won't have a reason to fall out because even though I'm not as strong as when I'm not sick, my will is strong. That can carry me through all the stupid nonsense that I get and also the tiring training I go through!!

Guard duty on Sunday was madness. I had some time to write up a nice blog post but I don't know if I'll publish this one. It's a bit close to my heart and I believe it's something only the privileged ones will hear about. I slept at 7pm on Monday night, woke up at 11pm, then went back to sleep all the way till Tuesday morning at 5.15am without any interruptions. Best sleep I've ever had in the army lol.

Oh and I wanna go back to adventure cove!! I miss that place and all my friends there :( I'm making plans to go already but got quite a number of people so a bit hard to coordinate hahahhaha. Got one special person so we'll just be going alone I guess~

YSA Convention at the end of this month, diving trip somewhere in January next year, temple trip somewhere in June...i can't wait for all these dates!! I can't stand to stay here for too long, I get demotivated really quickly because of all the crazy things I go through and all the crazy people I meet...it drains me out so fast hahahhaha. Going out helps me recharge :)

I CANT WAIT FOR JUNE TO END!!

Heart of glass II

So on Tuesday we were taken by her, but I kinda just used that day to be more familiar with her. She took us on Wednesday also so that's that.

Why does she look so stunning in everything she wears?

On Tuesday we did ECG, and then before a break we were talking and then I said that I'd volunteer to be the guy being pasted on. She said "okay ah you say you want now later don't back out ah". Because the volunteer would get a kit kat. When the time came and she asked for a volunteer, she immediately looked towards me (she knew where I sat) and I smiled but I didn't go up. Yeahhhhh I got shy, so someone else from my section eventually went up.

Yes, what a disappointment.

At the end of the day, I got as many reasons as I needed to stay back until there were just a small handful of us in the room. I went up to her and said "ma'am sorry about just now ah, I shy ah". Then she said "don't worry, tomorrow (Wednesday) still got ______".

But ma'am, I gave you my word and failed to deliver. That's what I'm disappointed about. Now even though there's a second chance, it will never be the same.

Sigh.
Chasing girls in army not easy ayyyy.

Anyway. On Tuesday night I dreamt that I wasn't the one to report strength anymore (though by right, I shouldn't be already...). I dreamt that I was handing over the position to someone else, and somehow the thought of that just killed me.

YES I consider that dream as a nightmare.

So now I'm thinking. Would I stay here in this camp as an instructor, just so I could know her more? Or would I follow my desired path and be in the Navy as a medic? There's just too little time to make any proper decision. For all I know, it could just be a simple infatuation, nothing more, and that I could be wasting my time and efforts, getting my hopes raised up for nothing.

Heart of glass III

So well Wednesday was the day of reckoning I guess. My last day as LPS.

In the morning after breakfast and all, we were forming up for our first parade when suddenly a man carrying a wooden stick appeared. Some people noticed and then there began my small panic mode. I had nooooooo idea what to do. So sergeant told me to take things slowly. Eventually we got the guys formed up well, then I started the procedure to greet the man in green. I sedia-ed myself, then shouted "spec course, diam. Spec course, sedia".

Bodoh.

I marched over to the guy, who was now behind the platoon, and then suddenly he stopped me and asked me to do it again. #okaylorh

Marched back, and for some stupid reason I made the same mistake again. I diam the platoon already then sedia them. But anyway I was expecting a different result lah but that one too long to explain. So anyway I eventually got it right, marched to the back (again) then saluted him. ME5 worh, equivalent to a Captain rank. So after that whole ordeal, I sighed. I really did hahahhaha!!

Had practical in the morning, lunch, clean bunk (because of some stuff they did to the bunks, it became super dusty and disgusting) then got some updates from OC, lecture (the two lecturers took us although it was the pretty one who did all the talking) about the medical centre attachment on Thursday, then ISM (big shot) engagement where he showed us some of his pictures/experiences that he had when he went for operations in Afghanistan. After that we did more cleaning, then book out!!

Oh and I got the office number for the two lecturers!! I'll probably give them a call and ask the pretty one if I can meet up someday to ask some questions. KACHING.

Headed straight to church for institute because meet up failed. Slack one corner and suck WiFi while waiting for institute to start. Institute was fun as always, and there were so many people that I didn't recognise. Such a weird feeling. At least I was sitting beside someone I knew :) we ended the last class for the semester with sushi. I forgot how to eat sushi the the proper way but heck forget it lah just eat only.

Went back home with the guys (so glad I could finally see them) but one of the big players wasn't there so...just make do lah. Eventually reached home and man, I felt sooooooo tired. Showered and used the com till 1am. Bad choice.

The next day rolled around, and I woke up late for my medical centre attachment (as expected ahhahaha). Rushed out of the house like a recruit chionging for change parade. Supposed to reach joo koon mrt by 7am, ended up reaching at 7.20am. Supposed to be at the guard house by 7.30am, and I made it at about 7.35am. Supposed to be at the medical centre by 8am, and I reached at about 7.45am (even though it was super far in) because some ma'am decided to give me a lift just because I was walking on the road instead of the pavement LOL.

So anyway, I was attached to SAFTI MI medical centre. Pretty cool day!! I learned so much and ended up practicing a lot of things that I learned during the course and also right there at the medical centre.

We stayed back a little bit compared to the other groups because our senior nurse wanted us to practice our IV and also our 4man-drill for heat injury. We were reluctant at first but I believe that this was a super good opportunity to practice the "real thing" in a real environment with professional supervision and critic. I volunteered subtly (more like because the others didn't wanna do it)  and I learned so much!! Super grateful for it :)

Oh and asyraf wanted to interview me for the course video. Being who I am, I did my normal speech (just like how we give talks and lessons and bear testimonies) and once we were done, he said "wa so good, I'll use this for sure"  hahahha. So I'm looking forward to seeing the video at the end of the course!! :D

During lunch I saw asyraf (same name but from my BMT platoon) and we chatted for a while. Cool guy. Met with hard gay too while we were going back when it was raining. He's doing well so I'm really happy for him. Although it was for just around 2minutes of conversation, it was a really great meet up. Man I miss that guy. We decided to go back to training one Saturday!! Just like old times.

So yeah that pretty much sums up my Thursday...