To infinity and beyond.

[15 Nov]

2330hrs

It's been a while since I last made a post, and things are quite crazy now. So many disasters going on in the world. So much hate and anger. So much sadness and sorrow. 

Today after church we had stake YSA FHE, watching the movie called "17 Miracles", showing the hardships and blessings experienced by the pioneers f the LDS church. After that, I reached home and felt so tired after such a long day. I felt unhappy as well, partly because of what other people did in other countries, but also at myself. Watching how much the pioneers suffered, I look back at mine as see how stupid I've been. I also felt even more lonely than I already was. How to explain that? I don't know. But that's what I felt. I reached home, changed out of my church clothes, and just lay on the couch hugging my flute case, ignoring the wires and cables and bags and keys on the couch as well. I slept like a baby, but only for a short duration. It was late, and already time to leave home to book on. 

3 days of constant shouting. I hope everything will turn out alright after this. I just want to be happy. 

Book out on Wednesday. 

Lunch and chill with the Chank on Thursday (can't freaking wait). Possibly go CPF in the morning. 

Friday sundown fest pcon. 

Saturday sundown fest. 

I tell myself that I don't miss you. 

But I think my heart's telling me otherwise.

What do I do?