Sometimes.

[5 Nov]

I hate it. 

I hate how it always turns out. 

I'm tired of asking you out, but I still do, because you're an important person to me. 

School is always stealing your time. 

Or perhaps it's your way of saying a gentle rejection. 

But it doesn't matter. 

It's still a no. 

What I say won't change anything. 

As usual, I'll have to suck it up. 

What can I do?

It's not the first time this is happening, and I doubt it'll be the last. 

But it's alright, I'll just be waiting for time to pass in the meanwhile. 

Days, months, years. 

How will experiences such as these shape me?

Will it change anything between us?

I'll just go on my own. 

Do my own stuff. 

Be myself. 

I won't bother you so much. 

You're probably busy with school. 

And stuff. 

I'll just wait for you to text. 

Since that's how it most likely would be if I don't start. 

See how lah.