#ldsconf

so.
#ldsconf

awesome stuff.
the saturday afternoon session and sunday morning session were the best for me.

OH AND I BROUGHT JAINA'S HOODIE ON SATURDAY TO WEAR BECAUSE ITS A NICE HOODIE. the nice yellow one from korea. from spao #aiseh. so it was during the afternoon session and i wanted to wear it. then mom randomly asked me for my hoodie. guess what?

she was cold.
so i took the hoodie out and passed it to her.
there goes..i wanted to take a picture of me wearing it and then post it up on instagram on the morrow when i smash it together with a picture of me wearing my suit on sunday so it would be an awesome picture. so yeahhhhhhhhhhh i didnt manage to get one taken. oh well. mom was cold so bopian lah huh. before she left, she folded the hoodie and put it into my bag.

talked to someone and heard some unfortunate news. im kinda affected by it since i know the person...but i'll see what i can do better. i totally dont know whats going on and why but i'll find out more. till then, my mind wont be at ease.

stayed back for priesthood session. got a call from mom but it was during the video so i ended the call. she smsed saying that she forgot to bring her keys (we rushed out in the morning, had to take a cab). and apparently, her workflow doesnt include taking her keys/phone/mrt card (when she's rushing). its either one of them or a combi of two. never is it all three of them together. so this time, she forgot to bring the keys. guess what, this poor son of hers had to leave priesthood session early and then open the door for her.

haiyoh.
but anyway. i read through as many conference talks as i could on the train while taking down notes. and i was wide awake. which was good. oh and lol pres lai was sitting beside me during conf XD felt so pressured to write down notes.

so i got home about an hour after i left church even though i walked faster than usual.
so we went back home together and then tadahhhhhhhhhhhh opened the door lol.
finished up the rest of the session that i couldnt go through while on the train.

did that then mom asked me to help her with the brownies.
totally 100% very reluctant since i was hosting a L4D2 match.
had to be afk for like 20ish minutes.
not cool.
but i still did it anyway -.-
brownies turned out okay. kinda dry though...
and mom gave a big piece to cleo on sunday because of the article/reflection thingy.
hmmm.
i'll save that for another time.

but anyway.
on sunday i woke up super early. about 6.25am to settle my food during the 1hr break between the morning and afternoon sessions. fixed it up and then got ready to go to church. took the train and gave up my seat to and old guy. felt happy doing that, great way to start the day.

was wide awake (kinda) during morning session, and totally slept through afternoon session. must be the food i ate. someone put sleeping powder in it. must be....must be....anyway. wore my (dad's) suit to church and felt nice wearing it. once in a while lah. i dont wanna wear the pants though. the material so itchy, its annoying. its uncomfortable. but the suit felt nice. lol. but i'll be getting my own before i go on my mission. perhaps i'll get bigger when im in NS or something, so getting one now is kinda dumb.

yesterday, sister proffit asked if she and sister hansen could meet me after church today to report on the updates and keeping me informed. buuuuuuut today i told them that i want them to take today and next week off (after church) to get to know the ward members. updates can come later, but i feel that this is more pressing. so yeah.

all my buddies left first since i ended up waiting for mom...dad went for yc meeting, mom went for mish discussion with a new investigator. i dont like how mom and i keep getting called for mish appointments all the time, but i think i'll talk to them about it soon...i dont think now's the right time for it.

so YES. i sat alone. with edwin. the ysa. and uh. yeah. nothing really happened. we talked a bit, but thats pretty much it. i stayed on, waiting for mom. when she was done with the meeting i kept on waiting for her, and she eventually was finished with whatever she was doing and came down to meet me afterwards (but only after i gave her a call).

i was soooooooo tired.
quickly changed out of my clothes back into home clothes.
so comfy.
used com, kept dozing off -.-
sigh. sunday passing by so slowlyyyyyyyyyyyyy.







im kinda looking forward to something,
but also quite apprehensive about it too.
afraid of what people will see me as,
afraid of what i might become.
and i dont have enough control over the event for me to be comfortable enough.
sooooooo.
i think it'll have to wait.
besides.
i have my calling to think about.
havent been doing a lot lately.
i dont know what to do
i dont know how to do it
i dont know if it should be done
i dont know so many things
maybe because i havent served my mission
and maybe because it is such a big calling.
second most important calling in the ward.
why oh why.
why me.