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The month of February is a horrendous one. Who knew the last exams of my poly life would arrive so fast? It feels like as if it was just 3 weeks ago that the new year had started. And look where we are now.

Three years gone by in a flash, just like that. Crazy eh?

So much to do, so little time. This semester is mad. How is it that there can be so much to do in your last few weeks in poly, and all at one go? It's madness as it is stupidity, whoever came up with the timetable. and my fyp viva is on either this thursday or friday. With the two maddest lecturers I have met. Sigh, totally not looking forward to it. But oh well, just as I've learned already; one day at a time. And it would all be over.

Over.
I dont wanna repeat any modules. Especially ongfr's dry modules. I dont mind audrey's bio class, though she doesn't teach me anymore. She taught me last sem. And the two semesters before that too. I like her classes. Fun. And lots of interesting things to learn about.

I guess im not much of a engineering person. Nor a EEE person. More of a CASS student maybe. I score better for their classes than in my engineering classes lol. Perhaps I should have enrolles in CASS instead.

But nah. I kinda like my class. Though I dont belong to any clique. I just linger around. The people in poly are so different from those in secondary school.

I miss my secondary school.
My class.
My gang.
Though the class size was 42, its much better than the current class I have. Sorry guys but it's the truth.

4E1'10 is the best.
I miss you all.
I miss the mad times we had.
English class.
PE.
Pure bio.
Pure physics.
Design and tech.
Math...
And then Chinese class.
Always sitting beside jace cuz she asked me to. Because she didn't want fason to sit besise her.
And then laughing with her.

I miss the student council.
I miss the meetings.
I miss the events.
I miss

I miss band.
I miss being in charge.
I miss the times when I actually mattered.
I miss playing the flute regularly with my section, with my band.
I miss the laughter, the sadness, the concerts and performances, the unity.
I miss standing in front and debriefing the band with jace.
I miss be shouting.
I miss the faked anger.
I miss all those ridiculous things.

Not that it's non-existent in sp karate club. It's all there but just different. And besides, I've been ostracised there. I'm lingering around again. It was all good until I decided to take a break from karate. Then, and even when I went back, things seemed to have changed. Everybody was so much closer to each other. It was as if I was a hindrance to their "social circle" progression. But anywah. I should be happy for them. Besides, I never really was a person to have belonged anywhere.

Nor to anyone.