napfa take 2!!

sui ah!!

okay so i retook my NAPFA after consulting a few people on whether i should retake or not, and then subsequently asking around on how to train my SBJ. sorry if a bronze isnt enough for me. i dont wanna spend 2 extra months in NS. i could be doing some other important thing!! either earning money or enjoying myself. no hints for yall as to what im gonna be doing with that extra time because nothing's confirmed yet.

AAAAAAAAANYHOOS. im glad i retook my NAPFA. i got a Silver!! ^^ so YES i DO have extra time now!! ^^ sorry if i sound super happy but I REALLY AM.

so here is a screen cap of my results. 

^my first try at NAPFA. bronze for this one.

^my second try at NAPFA. silver woots!!

and yes i can really do 55 sit ups in a minute. some people cheated but not me.

i dont know how on earth i jumped 10cm more than my first go at NAPFA for SBJ. though i did ask my older bro (i refer to him as kor, english-ised chinese for "older brother") on how to train for my jumping. he told me a few exercises but i only did the ankle lifts two times only over 1 week lol. i did 60 for each set. and i only did 1 set LOL. amazing. and weird.

sit and reach, i dont know i got 45cm. i actually only stretched 44cm or so, but i think the tester gave me one extra cm (i think) cuz he saw my trying super hard. he's SUPER NICE ohmygosh. so much better than the tester who took my class' guys for NAPFA during the first time. this guy's name is Haziq. SUPER FRIENDLY and encouraging. and he doesnt give up on us even though he doesnt know any of us at all. maaaaaaaan. i absolutely appreciate people like him. amazing guy. anyway. some people cheated by using only one hand to push the marker. by right, we should be using both hands, and not just one, because if we use one hand then we would be able to push further. i thought of doing that but decided not to within a second. so honesty pays off!! i got 45cm the honest way :)

pull ups, yeah. same as the week before. but whenever i drop down after doing it all, my head hurts >< dont know why but OH WELL. maybe cuz i wasnt breathing as much....though im quite sure i WAS breathing right. lol okay so there are 10 guys in my group taking NAPFA together. we're all under Haziq. my tag number was 56 so i was basically the 7th person to do the pull ups. the guy before me, Jasmond (idk how to spell his name), wanted to take a break first. so okay lah i go first lorh. i think the other guys were like kinda doubtful of my. i mean, LOOK AT MY SIZE and im sure they were going like "so skinny can do meh". hahahha. guess what guys, i did 12 and some of you did 7. so dont judge. hearing things like "wah siao eh" "hiong ah" really made my day. topped the group for this.

DONT JUDGE.

shuttle run, same lah. 9.83seconds. AND BASKET THE STUPID "TARMAC" WAS SOOOOO SLIPPERY LAH WALAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! I KEPT ON SLIPPING AT THE END WHERE THE BLOCKS WEREEEEEE. wasted my time haiyoh. i could have gotten close to 8seconds lorh psh. after crossing the line, i walked back to put the blocks back, and Haziq read out my timing: "9.83 seconds". i knew i could get a better timing, but the other guys, once again, "wal*n eh bloo*y fast" lol. topped the group for this also.

2.4km run, YES I CLOCKED 11:05MINUTES OHYEAHHHHHHHH.

okay lah i think they minus-ed out some time. i started my stopwatch a bit late (maybe 2-3seconds?) but oh well. if i was 5seconds faster, i'd get a B for my 2.4km. which im sure is TOTALLY possible...but let's add in the "nervous" factor again, and yeah, 5seconds isnt so bad. my best timing is 10:54, which is a B grade. not so far away eh!! but considering that i've improved from 13:30minutes back in 2010...i'd give myself a pat on the back. mostly stayed behind jesmond cuz he was a tad faster, but i sprinted past him during the last few 100meters. got position number 3 of 40-50!! so steady!! compared to 22 last time lol.







so yeah. while returning my tag, i saw haziq at the counter just standing around. i went up to him and thanked him for his work (on that day) and that i really appreciated it. hope it made him satisfied with himself :)

and yayyyyyyyy jess and van and tresis were taking their 2.4km before me since i was in a later batch and that they didnt need to take the 5stations since their 2.4km run was interrupted by lightning warning. van had to go off first so okay lah. then during my run i could hear jess shouting for me lol she was like "go sam jiayou" a few times when i passed by the starting/ending line. last lap she shouted "go sam last lap!!" then i as i crossed the line during my 5th lap, another tester said "number 56 two laps left....or how many left?" and then i told him (while still running) that i only had 1 lap left LOL. so he made the changes XD

at the last bend, i psyched myself up to get ready for the final sprint. once i felt that i had the right amount of "explosive" energy to blast through the rest of the way, VROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM off i went!! i went past jesmond and i think he didnt see and hear me so he cut a bit into my lane but its okay, i continued a bit to the right and sped past him.

past the finish line i had to collect my position number from the person standing right at the line. since i was going so fast, i had to grab the girl's hand and roughly "snatch" the position number from her lol i hope she didnt mind!!

i took about 70meters to slow down to a jog, spent another 30+meters to get back to walking pace. im not a runner so i dont know how to do all these cooling/slowing down stuff so i was like "okay lah look a bit professional and just zam lah" LOL so i slowly took my time to slow down XD

showed the officials my tag number and position number, and once they recorded it down, i went to return the tag number. that's when i saw haziq. so pack up and all blablabla, i told jess and tresis to go first (since i had to pack my bag) and then when i was done, i started to walk out of the stadium. i saw the 4 guys from the other DBEN class and wished them all the best for their run. btw their run was supposed to be on the same day as my first time taking NAPFA but there was lightning warning, then they decided to take the 2.4km coincidentally on the same day that i was retaking my NAPFA. so yeah i wished them all the best and then left with jess tresis and then van (she turned up then). began talking about NS and jess said she wants to be in the navy, then i said i wanted to be in air force. HAHAHHAHA then van said "but the people in the air force da*n prideful" so i replied with a laughter that "ahahha then i'll be the different one". guess what she said? "yeah i know you'll be different from the rest, can tell one. you'll be great there".

WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. see. living righteous whenever and wherever i am pays off :) even vanessa, a person i raaaaaaaaaaaarely talk to, knows that i keep to my standards. happy happy :)





then on friday night i was talking to jaina about my napfa and how i saw her classmates the night before. and then she had news for me. her 4 classmates had to take their 2.4km on FRIDAY night. not thursday night. why? the reason is freaking ridiculous. THERE WAS AN ACCIDENT ON THE TRACK. we both reasoned together and decided that 1 guy was running his 2.4, the other guy was from rugby. they crashed head on. reason being that the rugby guy had to catch a ball that was kicked out of the field and onto the track, and the guy running his 2.4 either didnt have time to react or didnt even see the guy coming. so there we go. BAM. and we were joking about how dumb it was altogether hahahhaha dangit XD we're two opposites but always so relateable LOL.

so yeah. this whole post is about NAPFA. congratulations if you completed reading this whole essay LOL.

poooooof

thursday night (yes....) took my NAPFA. ******************ing horrible.
see my results in my previous post. basket lah sia it was so bad untill i wanna retake. pretty decided on it. then i talked to chun hwee from karate (aiseh like my buddy ah lol) and then galvin from church about it. both said its good to go for the PTP + BMT. kor and the other churchies said forget it lah just go retake. cuz they say its really horrible there. but idk...i still havent decided.

napfa timing for 2.4k

friday night went to thaddus' house with the ward ysa and mish and investigators to make cards for our missionaries. not bad sia lol.

hahahha see all the retarded nonsense we do as YSA XD and wong ming sang a line from One Republic's "Secrets"!! HAHAHHAHAHAH and i recorded it. FRAAAAAAAAAAAAKIN FUNNY!!!! hahahah i love that dude XD anyway we all attempted to watch movies with their movie player but somehow cannot. basket sia. so many movies. and sis chris allows late night movies ohmygosh its like a bit fat no-no in my family sia. and then yeah so we didnt watch anything, but it spurred me to go get some movies lol. and so now....im downloading 12 movies currently XD all released this year. all never watch before. except pac rim. downloading that one cuz its just NICE. 1080p siol hhahahha but anyway can only download 5 at any one time..so pac rim gotta wait. showed my download list to taopok and she said to watch "olympus has fallen" first. but suay die me (STEP SIA) its number 8 on the list. so....gotta wait too hahahha.

saturday woke up at 11am. cuz i was some how tired. played TF2 till time to go for ward thanksgiving dinz. hosted the thing with bea (thank goodness i almost died) and then reached home at like 10pm-ish cuz krystine brought her NBSS friends along. just 2 only. Tiffany Halim and Quitin. i only know tiff so i talked to quitin a bit. studying in SRJC, cca in NBSS was ceramics and is now in the student council. okay lah his accent a bit angmoh but its still understandable. they all went to orchard to eat ice cream with elyana (cue KTW) and sydney. i had to go back home and prepare the lesson for the next day (ie today). teaching both gospel principles and EQ lesson. so...had to let them go lah. anyway, also a bit late for me...

stayed up till 1+++am to finish up the GP lesson which i pretty much covered 2 weeks ago after reading it through a few times. all i did was go through it again, formulate questions, figured out how to get the points i wanted across. highlight, underline, make notes, references. so tired after that that i went to bathe then continue with my EQ lesson. YES I DIDNT BATHE WHEN I REACHED HOME. because the lesson is more important.

so after my bath i worked on the EQ lesson. i just read through it lol. read through it a few times in the past weeks so i kinda knew what i was already gonna say. using mom's manual though so i didnt make any markings whatsoever. read finish liao then went to sleep.




today mom woke me up at 7.30 like a mad woman. SAM SAM ITS 7.30 ALREADY TIME TO GO SAM HURRY UP and i was like "ugh yeah okay okay" but i kept going back to sleep lol. anyway 7.50am came and i got up and had breakfast and changed up and everything and got out at 8.10am. missed mom/dad by 1 train i think but oh well i still made it to church on time. blessed sacrament today cuz YM were short on numbers again...after sacrament i went to the RS room for GP class but oh man all our investigators left church to go somewhere else so class cancelled!! defaulted back to YSA class and the lesson was on "everyday missionaries". not bad. quite a good lesson.

then EQ lesson came around and i saw pres kwan sitting in front.
dang.
it.
man.

suddenly so much pressure -.-
looked at ming and he said "aiyah not like as if he's gonna be in your class, dont worry lah"
was the chorister (again, as with every other week), chose the hymn which was appropriate for today's lesson, and then split off to class. guess what? PRES KWAN WAS IN MY CLASS.

MY.
CLASS.

oh /popcorns/
and he sat in the front row.

distributed the manuals.
ooooh.
still feeling the pressure.

throughout the whole lesson i barely looked his way lol. he added in here and there and it was all good. quite good class participation today as compared to my other lessons. oh yeah today's one was on "doing good to others". realised i should have asked more questions since ming said that he'd be a nice friend and answer the questions i ask hahahahha <3 anyway. i didnt have that many, but whenever there was, it was mostly thought of right on the spot as a leading question.

miracles.
i wasnt expecting it today.
i guess the lesson was much needed by someone in the class.

but anyway.
the lesson carried on.
i did my thing.
and somehow, it all turned out well.

and i dont think i'll be pulling another 2-lesson sunday again.
basically, means that i teach both lessons. sunday school and priesthood class.
this time as with any others, i died inside. so tired. sleeping in sac, after sac.
horrible sia.







ces devo.
kinda crazy.
good message.
and the refreshments later was kinda weird.
but i had 3 slices anyway.
show face ah.

gambai

i have finally figured it out.
i spent a good amount of time thinking it through, and it is now safe to say that i have got it figured out.

why i have the incessant need to be part of something important, or to be important altogether.


sorry but im not gonna post it up here man. lol.
sensitive issue. but if you wanna know, ask me.
most likely (depending on how much i know you lol) i'd share it with you.

no guarantees. but my trusted people, you know who you are.

cheers.

YUCKS

tell me what is this nonsense. stupid SBJ. and i think they changed the 2.4km timing. i clocked 12:09. not 12. and the number so nice some more.

NAPFA results

Sit-ups (in 1 minute): 47: A
Standing Broad Jump: 215cm: E
Sit & Reach: 45cm: B
Pull-ups (in 1 minute): 12: A
Shuttle Run (4x20m): 9.83sec: A
2.4km Run-Walk: 12:09mins: D



SBJ messed up everything. i never was good at it, but still....i could have gotten a GOLD.
2.4k was messed up too. wasnt feeling too well before the run and so that affected my laps. ming said "dont give me excuses!" when i smsed him my results lol. but yeah...my first lap SHOULD have been 1.20minutes, but it took me 1:42minutes. AND THAT SUCKS. A LOT.

super sad :(

but im impressed with my sit-ups. i thought my core muscles had died since i skipped karate for 6months, only returning last month or so. sit and reach too. i thought i'd get like 30cm or something. shocking. and even worse. my pull ups. i could only do 4 pull ups sometime around 4 weeks ago. and then now BAM i can do 12. lol. shuttle run is okay. but the stupid floor was freaking slippery. im sure i could have gotten 9.2 seconds like the last time.

oh well :(
guess i'll have to settle for a bronze :(
sigh :(

gibberish

wrote this a long time ago (feels like 2months) but only publishing it today.

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I don't know why im feeling so listless and emotionless right now. It really does feel like as if I don't have anything to channel any emotion towards. Entering the train, everybody suddenly looks at me. I'm left to wonder, "is there anything about me that attracts all your attention?" soon, they return back to their own businesses, and finally im left to being on my own again without any stares.


Emotionless. I wish I could control when I feel my emotions.

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sian and i have napfa tomorrow. worried like siao. think im gonna have to settle with bronze because of my SBJ. i cant jump sia wth. at most maybe 220 only. and my pull-ups...last time can do like fun only. now like sai sia URGH.  the rest like okay lah.

sit ups..maybe can hit 40. gonna try to get 50 though. but that was my peak...which was years ago.
shuttle run can get A for sure. i clocked 9.2seconds.
sit and reach...havent done it in a long time but somehow during my absence from karate, i became more flexible (where is the logic in that) but oh well hope its the same for tomorrow lol.

so yeah.

gonna try my hardest for SBJ and pull ups.
2.4km gonna get B i think, since i clocked in at 10:54. no music with lots of brain power. plus it was hot so maybe if its cooler tomorrow, i could and might run better. lol. idk. im not the runner type of person. but its amazing. after no PE for 2+ years, skipped training for 6months, my timing GOT BETTER by 2.5minutes. sec4 napfa clocked 13:30. lol.




im weird.
end of story.
lol.


*UPDATE*


and stupid BPCO test on friday im so not ready. i only went through the first tutorial. basically memorised everything sia how is this even possible. my memory sucks i cant remember things at all. birthdays and names are the worst for me. lab test for MAPP sometime soon (idk when sia). test here test there. madness. 

needa finish up BSTATS project part I this week. even though im not the group leader. im teamed up with zul and zi cong. and i think im to blame for that. they're the weak links in the class. plus me too. but hey. among the three of us, im not the weakest. i just hang around everybody and dont belong to any clique in the class. so group work becomes a problem. everybody gets snapped up and im left with the remnants. and matthew pangseh me, join team with jun wei. psh.

so i naturally took to the helm (does that even make sense, let alone does it exist). i organised everthing, chose the topic, email the lecturer, started on the report which they didnt initiate. so basically i am the group leader. but guess what, in the report, we chose zul as the leader. i was hoping that i would be the group leader, but me being nice, i let him choose lah. maybe i should tell them that i'd rather be the group leader. since zul...isnt really...a good leader....he chin chai one sia. not firm in his decisions. and idk how to work with them for the video in the second term. WTS idk im not gonna use my D7k for the video. its too precious to be held in someone else's hands. gonna settle for a P/S camera. and we're all gonna be in the video right...dangit im gonna stand out like a freaking rainbow. zul and zi cong in all their awkwardness and weirdness. 


i shiver at the thought ohmgosh i am doomed.

then still got MAPP nonsense. grouped with matthew and we decided to make a percussion instrument lol. the specifics are all for later but we generally have the idea. zi cong (again) in his weirdness, slotted himself into our group without us saying anything lolwut. talked to matt about it otw home today (we stayed back to start on the presentation slides) and decided to not have zi cong in the group. so...one of us better tell him tomorrow. he's gonna rage i tell you. FOR SURE. just like how he raged on monday when i pointed out his error. 

we were working on the BSTATS report. then since we got the bar graph thing (i forgot what its called), we needed to talk about the kurtosis and skewness. WTF. the value for skewness is 0.10 for BOTH GRAPHS and he was so freaking adamant on saying that THE GRAPHS ARE NOT SYMMETRICAL. 

and guess what. there was a freakin GRAPH for us to VISUALLY LOOK AT. he still said that it "doesnt look symmetrical". i asked him "how is it not symmetrical?!?!?!?!" then guess what?

zi cong: "youre eyes are screwed man how the **ck is it symmetrical"


i rage first. but i didnt show it. 
not the slightest hint.
i turned the lecture notes to the part where they talked about skewness and symmtrical-ness and pointed it to him, PLUS reading it out.

"A distribution with G value zero or near to zero can be considered to be perfectly symmetrical."

i explained that since the value G is 0.10 is pretty SUPER NEAR to zero, that i consider it to be "quite symmetrical".

he blur.
he read.
he took the lecture notes from me.
he read.

i said "zi congggggg...."


BAMBAMBAM RAGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

he stood up from his chair, started yammering loudly and pointing his finger here and there and all over the place, saying oh how he cant work in the biolab with all of us "screaming so loudly" and he "cant concentrate" and said "if YOU (referring to me) wanna do the report so badly then you just do it on your own okay stop telling me what to do".

i kept my cool. "then listen to music lah (his music is hardcore metal. and screamo. i think those are way noisier than us {who definitely were not screaming so loudly}) then problem solved what"

lol. he huay tahan. 
shut down his com and stomped off.
but only after i told him to send whatever we've done to my email.
lol.
i so thick skin.

but seriously. i even asked if he got pay attention in class or not. he said no. so OF COURSE things will go wrong. i asked him "so you got study?" and he said no. alamak jialat lah. and so just because of his own problems (not paying attention in class, not catching up on his own), he decided use his ulti move on me: RAGE. and all because i pointed out where he was wrong. 

#okcan

he stomped off, pushed the door open so hard that if someone was there in the corridor, he'd be gravely injured. and yeah. stormed off. 

once i was sure he wasnt coming back, i laughed to myself, and thought this is ridiculous. my classmates asked me what happened and i just related the whole thing to them. matthew said "zi cong is seriously weird" lol. 

i couldnt agree more.
but hey. its okay to be weird. 
just make sure you put in effort in your studies. 
dont blame anyone else just because you didnt make the effort to understand what was being taught.
and control yourself more. 
stop using **ck so often because it really shows how much self control you have.
i dont mind weird conversations.
i've been through all your weird convos for 2.5years already, im used to it.
just dont be ridiculous and unreasonable.
like in this case.

and zul is in our group too. GROUP LEADER. and we let him go off for FYP stuff. he came back, stuck with his FYP group. 

#okcan




SEEEEEEEEEEE MY GROUP. its the three of us. i might as well be the only one doing all the work. and i tell you, gimme 2 days. i can finish the whole report. i dont need you guys to do it for me. im capable on my own. im just unfortunately paired up with yall. i understand what they're asking for, i know how to give them what they want.

im the strongest weakest link.

whoa. thats kinda weird.
but true.

i AM the strongest weakest link.
no doubt.

amazing how there are so many opportunities in poly to discover myself.
ahahhahahahhhahahhaa.
amazing.

RE:

i wanna hear your laughter.
i wanna hear your nonsense.
i wanna be with you when you go mad.
i wanna be there when you go crazy.
i wanna share your problems, your worries.
i wanna be the one to pick you up when you're down.
i wanna be the one to hold your hand.
i wanna be the one you share treasure memories with.
i wanna go out and chill with you.
i wanna have fun with you.
i wanna wipe away your tears.
i wanna bring a smile to your face.

i might try.
because now things aren't the same.


i think.

moooooooooooooooooooooppppp

oh and.
some people i know indirectly ship me and you together lol.\
they talk about you and end up saying SAM IM NOT GOING FOR HER OKAY SHE'S YOURS
lol.
yeah sure you're nice and all, i wouldnt mind it actually.

but i guess im in the friendzoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooone.
yeah its a long one.
i dont think it's special so forget it.
so i guess no point in me trying to get close to you.
i guess you're too busy with life!!

but anyway.
er.
forgot what i was gonna say.

see lah.
anyway i saw this picture uploaded on facebook. i cant find it :(
 but in relation to what i talked about just now, i'll quote it:

"Are you a ballpoint pen because youre
EXTRA FINE"

okay you need to see the picture to get it.

team rocketttttttttt

guys lets face it.

she IS weird.
and i dont know how her boyf can tahan her. and hey her boyf does some extreme things too. idk how she can tahan him. but...love makes it somehow possible eh? her boyf doesnt let her pick up some calls. he blocks numbers after scrolling through her phone. he's nice to send her to class every now and then, we all see him. and she is weird. she is super serious. her jokes arent funny. so we're left with uuuuuuuuuuuuuuber awkward conversations. good thing im not hanging around with her alot.

sure, she's smart. but what the heck is IQ when you dont have EQ? she's always with her FT group. she doesnt mix with us locals. and she's OVERLY AMBITIOUS. everything also wanna do. she signed up for 4 or so CCAs. say she wanna do this, wanna do that...but its all for the freaking CCA points!! she's always inviting us to go for this and that event, and im like..."dude seriously can you stop". ITS SOOOOOOOOOO ANNOYING. and she fangirls over JAY CHOU. ohmygosh. "my husband" YOUR HEAD AHHHHHH. okay but that's why she's called a fangirl. but i cannot tahan. like..HELLO. in your dreams only lah but alamak. dont so hard core can. maintain a bit. i know, i understand. fans are fans. and im the rare kind of controlled composed kind of fan. but haiyah...forget it lah.

and stop drawing on my notes please thank you. you draw a cutesy flower which can say "hello!" and you add your name with a heart shape. dang thats so lovely that im falling for you -.- too bad i erased it already. i should have taken a picture to post up here. sigh. and im not the only one who gets it. so good and bad. good cuz im no getting any special treatment, bad cuz ALL THE OTHER VICTIMS ARE GETTING IT TOO. sigh..

anyway. her group is the smart group. people like me dont belong there.
anyway.
not like as if i belong anywhere in the class either.
im just the lingering one, hopping between groups/cliques.
ending up with the leftovers for group work, where i naturally assume the group leader role.
cuz the others dont.

enough musing.
i should be happy with whatever i have, right?

too bad im not.
somehow.






anyway.
something to read. (you're supposed to click on it)
kinda interesting.

and whats with the pokemon craze anyway? people buying 3DSXL just to play Pokemon X/Y. wtf. too much money is it.