난아라.

Yes, i know.

I know that you think me weird, me and my practices. I know you think me as awkward. I know that i dont say the best things nor the things you want to hear every single time.

I know that you think me crazy, skipping big competitions that fall on sundays. I know you think me a load of rubbish when i tell you i do not want to work on sundays.

I know you think me ridiculous.
I know you think me dumb.
I know you think me stupid at times.
I know you think im not who i say  i claim to me.

I know that i do not always catch on quickly. I know that at times, i will appear to be rather 'lost'. I know that i have my pride. I know that i find it hard to do things the way you want them done.

I know im not as talented as your so-and-so. I know im not as skilled as so many others. I know im not great musician. I know im not a great vocalist. I know im not  great fixer. I know im not a great fighter. I know im not a great photographer. I know im not the best friend. I know im not a great person either.

I know that im not as loving as many, whom i will meet and have already met, would wish i were.

I know im not the obedient son you wish i were, and neither am i the loving and caring son that every parent desires. I also know that im not as patient as i wish i were.

I know, i know, i know.

I know that im skinny, that im not as muscular compared as many others. I know that im not as smart and many. And i also know that im not as good looking than an even greater number.

And for all these things, i am always aware of them. There is never a day that goes by that they do not cross my mind. It is something i am always conscious of.

And i thus hope you know that i do not need reminding.

Perhaps this is my life-long test. A test of character, a test of faith, a test of patience.

What is the purpose life if there are no tests? For by these are miracles brought to pass.