Hallucinating with this thing in my eye.

And so.
Dad said that it was a stye and nit a blackened eye. Went to church with it and got some fellas joking around with me. Hehe love em so much XD
AND WHAT COCKROACH BITE SIA WALAO EH.

Came back home after corelation meeting. Brought the itouch to church today but didnt really use it. It feels weird holding one lol. Anyway. Wong ming set up some stuff for me. Jeff was on duty..

And now im asking esther for app suggestions. I cant seem to work around the app store well. Google play store might be better actually. I dunno how to display more apps on the app store. The google one, just keep scrolling and scrolling until your finger tired.

Anyway. Downloaded a good number of apps already on my own. Wonder how long the battery will last...but i'll bring the charger just in case.

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And no, nobody knows yet. I'll tell alison soon. And maybe jaina. Yeah i thik i'll tell her. And ming and jeff too. But i better tell them to keep it hush hush.

Lets go.

A new birth.

29 March 2013.
Here we go, rock and roll.

When does it end?

Last night ended horribly. Forced to sleep at 2330hrs at 2320hrs. Dad came in to tell me earlier but of course  i didnt off the com. I was mid-game. Then some time later mom stands at the doorway and says "If i hear that sound one more time ima plug out the cable".

Whoa.

Sick and tired of her threatening, i turned the com off grudgingly. Headed to bed, lied down, playing some Baechigi from my phone. Bam. Mom comes in and says to turn off the music. Why? Because "its noisy after 11pm". Ohmy. All she had to say was that she didny like the music. It would be more reasonable that way.

She then continued to go on about this and that. I knew what she could say and so i thought better and just kept quiet throughout. Tough? Yeah. Annoying? Oh yeah. But what could i do, seriously? Nothing, except to agree and nod my head.

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I've thought too many times of living somewhere else, quit school and start working.
I've wondered and dreamed of what it would be like being famous. Probably wont feel as lonely as anybody could ever get.

Belittles

I forgot what i wanted to type here. Great.

Anyway. Training today was boring, as usual, other than meeting up with esther 'usami' hahaha. Talked a bit about some important stuff. Things that im afraid to mention out in public.

Managed to get some muacles  working agauin and sweated a bit.

He knows something. We needa be more careful. But still strikin.

Anyway. Watched Mongol forst then Fi jiachen reproof during ITP today. Both are siii Played a prank on too jajaha

Experience for growth and benefit.

Written on sunday midnight.

So i dont think anybody i know actually knows that i have a blog. Im so secretive about it lol. I scared my parents find out sia. Or the stake finds out. Then i DIE. So maybe thats why i didnt advertise it. But ali knows cuz i told her. I also dunno if she reads anot.

Yesterday was kinda cool. Kayaking with stake YSAs in the morning at kallang, then lunch with them afterwards, went home, play a few rounds of TF2, then went for my uncle's birthday pardeh at a buffet restaurant. I was the videographer for the night using a handheld video-dedicated camera. Not bad eh. Too bad the SD card so small, 2GB, fill up so fast. Heng heng Miss Irene lent me her phone for the night.

Didnt have much time to eat, had only one serving. Rest of the time was spent videoing. Didnt even have time to play with my nephew and niece...

Some upper body muscles were tired today. My mind was tired too. So...kinda fell asleep at some parts during sacrament...and i taught 3 lessons today lol. Gospel Principles, Priesthood and Hometeaching. Prepared the first two lessons while at work this week hahaha!! I did it openly so my classmates might ask if they saw, then got gospel conversation worh.. Too bad none of them saw :/

Taught the high priest class with Elder Wilkes. He spent more time talking than i did. A biiiit inbalanced but its not like as if we do companion study every morning right lol. It was pretty okay!! ^^ 

Taught the Hometeaching lesson in Chi-crazy-nese man!! Ahahhaa so proud of myself!! But of course got some english here and there lah. But still...GOOD JOB SAM. Hahhaha!!

This morning before church i was dreading the day cuz of the 3 lessons. But i treated it like an exam period: slowly take them on, one at a time. Soon, it would all be over. Thankful for those experiences, cuz now i know what to do.

Emailed jie, waiting for your reply, posting this, talking with esther about karate tomorrow, closed off whatsapp and twitter and fb, talking to jeff tmr about the sleepover. All seems done.

Goodnight.
Think happy thoughts.
Oyasumi.

(lee)ssang, (whee)sung, cry.

[The girl who cant breakup, the boy who cant leave]
Nowadays, kids like you dont know what youve got. Always lookng,can never stick with one thing. There aint no part-time love, its like an old kinda love, its old-school love. What more you need?

[River]
Even if you understand, even if you throw the world away, when the time passes, you will know. And you'll make other painful, but beautiful memories again. You don't have to understand things that aren't understandable. You just need to believe in it.

[Fading star]
You're gonna be successful, because you're beautiful. Take care of yourself and be happy. Goodbye..

I wish i knew korean well, so i can understand peefectly what these songs are trying to tell me.

lifeline.

im thinking.
im thinking of skipping the kayaking this saturday. though i really wanna go, and yb is probably gonna be there. and jeff too. and all the other YSAs i wanna meet. plus i havent been in the water for a long time. i needa get the fish in me out again.

but then today happened. what i chanced on was kinda shocking, took me by surprise. wanted to talk to alison about this, cuz i guess its something important that i should ask her opinion on. anyway. turns out she had a bad day herself too. so i talked to her on whatsapp. im glad i did :') she needed my help more than i needed hers. not that she is hopeless or anything, but as usual, i told myself that its better to help others.

things arent about me. it never has been and never will be. its always about helping someone else out. 

my problems can come later. hearing me out can come later. other people's problem and helping them out will always be more important than my miniscule miseries of the mind. anyway.

i helped alison to get back on her tracks. and it feels great to have such a friend like her. she's irreplaceable. ALISON I HOPE YOURE READING THIS. i have my own mess ups. but i dont wanna talk about them when other people have their issues.

they are my priority.
i am not.
and that is definite.

i figured that i might be needed else where. somewhere more important than kayaking. i'll probably spend my morning with alison in band. its been a long time since i've talked to her face-to-face. and its been a long time even getting to meet her. since she's going for band this saturday, i guess i'd pop by too. i dont know, i havent made a decision yet.

but if i can, i probably would go down with her to nbss. mom wont be happy, she'll tell me to go for kayaking for sure. she might even make a fuss about it, but she doesnt see what i see. i dont know. but if i have to, i probably would go down with alison. she might need my help. spend half a day with her, see how things are doing. help out with the flutes..

i'll decide another day.