i wish i could teleport to where you are right now.
cradle you.
soothe you to sleep.
i'll creep out of the window, fly to the stars, watching you sleep from afar.
make sure you're resting well.
wake you up in the morning with the sun and birds.
and send you on your way with a hug.
-update-
feeling so useless, so helpless.
feeling like a nobody because i cant do anything except pray.
when conversations break down, everything goes.
i hate this feeling.
-update's update-
i hope she sees it.
i hope she really does.
and i hope she replies.
Sunday, 21 April 2013
Saturday, 20 April 2013
horribility.
"They hit like ladies, common!!! and the soldier actually cry from a ladies hit lmao...."
https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=4801277065858
oh please. give me a break.
yes, the bully might be hitting like a lady, but honestly, i dont think that that is the reason why he is crying.
in my opinion, the author of that comment has disregarded the fact that that soldier has no feelings. he is a human, and he has feelings. and hey, even plants have feelings. just because they cant voice it out doesnt mean that they dont have any.
and so here is my opinion.
i believe that the reason why the soldier cried is due to the humiliation that is dealt. surely, he must have a lot of self control. no matter what the blow, and even though he is physically weaker than the other two, he takes it all. the physical, mental and emotional pain is crushing. it could possibly scar the soldier for the rest of his life. who knows?
he had every right, except rank, to deal a blow. would it constitute as self defense? sadly, no. because his life was not threatened. however, retaliation, if under the right circumstances, might just be the right thing to do. if someone were to bully me like this, i just might seize the opportunity when it presents myself to give this guy a good punch. he might want to do this to me and others just to show their superiority, but hey, i stand my ground.
i wouldnt want to be a pushover. if he thinks that he can just mess around with me, i wouldnt want to tolerate all that nonsense. everybody has their threshold of humiliation. unfortunately, or fortunately, this bully did not learn his lesson: that he cannot go around bullying anybody as and when he wishes to.
unrighteous dominion.
your rank might be higher than the soldier, but this is simply taking advantage of your rank to do what you want to to the lower ranked soldiers. sure, they cannot retaliate, because if they do, if they report to a superior, all that the bully has to do is just delete the video. evidence gone. and with the level of corruption in the government, dont be surprised if nothing happens. this would continue, and perhaps, even worse.
corruption, the flower of evil.
life gets crazy sometimes, dont you agree?
https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=4801277065858
oh please. give me a break.
yes, the bully might be hitting like a lady, but honestly, i dont think that that is the reason why he is crying.
in my opinion, the author of that comment has disregarded the fact that that soldier has no feelings. he is a human, and he has feelings. and hey, even plants have feelings. just because they cant voice it out doesnt mean that they dont have any.
and so here is my opinion.
i believe that the reason why the soldier cried is due to the humiliation that is dealt. surely, he must have a lot of self control. no matter what the blow, and even though he is physically weaker than the other two, he takes it all. the physical, mental and emotional pain is crushing. it could possibly scar the soldier for the rest of his life. who knows?
he had every right, except rank, to deal a blow. would it constitute as self defense? sadly, no. because his life was not threatened. however, retaliation, if under the right circumstances, might just be the right thing to do. if someone were to bully me like this, i just might seize the opportunity when it presents myself to give this guy a good punch. he might want to do this to me and others just to show their superiority, but hey, i stand my ground.
i wouldnt want to be a pushover. if he thinks that he can just mess around with me, i wouldnt want to tolerate all that nonsense. everybody has their threshold of humiliation. unfortunately, or fortunately, this bully did not learn his lesson: that he cannot go around bullying anybody as and when he wishes to.
unrighteous dominion.
your rank might be higher than the soldier, but this is simply taking advantage of your rank to do what you want to to the lower ranked soldiers. sure, they cannot retaliate, because if they do, if they report to a superior, all that the bully has to do is just delete the video. evidence gone. and with the level of corruption in the government, dont be surprised if nothing happens. this would continue, and perhaps, even worse.
corruption, the flower of evil.
life gets crazy sometimes, dont you agree?
If only i could stop time.
Yesterday was a great day!! Ended school at 1100hrs cuz we didnt really have much to do..its only the first week. So ckk let us off early. Then he said "next week no more early release already". Okay lorh not important also!! Hahahaha.
Thanks to tresis and her boyfriend shawn, i got my itouch back!! It was a bit troublesome on their part, a bit sad too for me, but the outcome was good. Thats all that matters. Soooo, had fyp group discussion first, then i got my notes binded before the lunch crowd came in. Then i left for je library.
Guess who i saw there!! Miss claire!! Hahhaa what a coincidence LOL. No lah it was all planned lol study at je lib until time indefinite. Aww yeahhhhh. Shared a table with this nice lady who looks like 40+ish but probably is just in her mid-30s. Anyway, we studied and CHILLED LIKE SIAO till 5ish before we left. Went to jcube first to grab something to eat. Checked out the whole basement including ntuc, but eventually settled down for takoyaki hhehehe.
THIS CLAIRE LAH MAKE ME GET 4 TAKOYAKI. 50c more sia. Lol. Anyway. Tasted quite okay lah!! Think SP one also not bad leyh.
Anyway. Then sent her off first before i got on my train ti get back to sp for extra demo training. Reached at like 6pm, nobody was doing anything. So i and a few others lepaked in the clubhouse, then i started singing. I ENJOYED MYSELF SO MUCH HAHAHAHHAHA purposely sing off key like siao, then purposely crack my voice, hahahhaha. THEN WE SANG THE MACARENA!!! HAHAHHAHAHHAA enjoyed myself so much. Anyway. Told jerome that we should get one recording of me singing retardedly one day XD then post on youtube and facebook hahhahaha!!
Ahhhhh i wanna live yesterday again.
Especially the library part :)
GOT NOTICE THE TITLE ANOT HUH.
Sunday, 14 April 2013
Plan.
Been blasting away on twitter. And i see others doing the same too. Everybody's sunday isnt a good one.
I will be the first to stop spamming negative tweets.
Think happy thoughts.
Far-fetched.
Im hoping that you get the signal that im not in the mood for your humour dude. Other days, yeah i dont really mind. But PLEASE, for the love of everybody, please, just not now.
I only have my God to thank.
Today started off well. Reached stake centre at 0810hrs, since we took a cab. Brought my laptop for the sign-language videos that i downloaded last night and super early early early this morning. Like...1am.
Anyway. I feel that the sunday sessions are more awesomer than the saturday one. Mainly because was sleeping for most part of the 3 sessions. Funny how i managed to stay awake with only 4.5hours if sleep for the sunday session, and slept through 3 sessions on saturday with 6hours of sleep.
Reached home, then went for dinner at thaddus'. He's so close to zephya and thalia lol.
Anyway. Today was tough still. Resisted the urge to punch one person in the face, and resisted again the urge to just shout out loud at that person. The thoughts were somewhere about 10secs apart from each other.
Talking about me from behind, i could pick up some words. Good thing i decided to walk faster, keep ahead of the group and tell myself to calm down. Prayed for help right there and then. Im glad for my past experiences with these kind of encounters. I knew what to do. And that stupid idiot satan lost.
Thats why.
I only have my God to thank.
If i did punch the person, if i did shout back, what would that make me?
A few years back, the thoughts and feelings of anger and violence came much more easily, and more difficult to suppress.
This recent experience is both a food and bad thing for me. Bad in the sense that they have come back, but good in the sense that i didnt react, i didnt clench my fist(s) (i used to do that last time), i didnt grit my teeth, i didnt hit any wall or pole while walking.
Its better now.
Just like a sickness.
I only have my God to thank.
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