After all thats been said and done. [4 Jan]

Sometimes, I feel like quitting.

Quitting in school.
Quitting in karate.
Quitting in music.
Quitting in church.
Quitting in life.

There's so many things I wish I never had to go through. Has it made me a better person? Not necessarily. Has it made me a worser person? Hard to say.

And for the past two nights, I've been having dreams. Not common for me to have dreams two nights in a row. What makes it even worse is that I dream of so many things in one night, and they're especially random which doesnt seem to hold any significance. It seems to be around 8 different dreams each night, maybe more. All random, all short in duration. It could be as random as me eating breakfast, or me crying to a song sung by Ali. 

"Don't Be Foolish". 

I remembered the lyrics, and when the song started playing, I started to cry. And I don't know why. But hey, it's a dream after all. It's not like as if we know what's going on all the time.

Nobody knows the grime I go through of living the life I have, and nobody knows what it's like to have a personality like mine.

I dont even know where im going.